Constant change and disorder have taken over my life. My moving process ended up being a lot more complicated than originally intended. the weekend at my moms was awesome, all the sisters and exs and husbands, we had a blast. we actually played this game we call bottlerocket wars. two to three people in each of the three boats, on the same little lake at my moms house. someone lit the bottle rockets and the other two got them ready and took care of rowing. it was all fun and games till the little sisters ex got shot in the neck with a bottle rocket. in the end it ended up being pretty funny. after the party i went back to cleveland for a day and then left for denver, which was fantastic. i got to go to a rockies game, and i went to glennwood hot springs. then i went to mexico, it was so cool, all inclusive resort, really nice people, overall the perfect vacation. even the traveling went great, which never really happens for me. so anyways, back to ohio for a few days, had to go back to my old job and help them out for OU graduation. i will be leaving here on sunday to go where i dont know. i slept in my car at the park lastnight, it was so peaceful, right by the river, sunroof open, checkin out the stars. i really needed that time alone, i have been with people the whole time since i got back from the ship. any ways, i have babbled on and on like you guys know me or something, im sorry. but thats it in a nut shell, talk to you soon. the pics...one is of me eating breakfast in the room the first day, and the other is my driving a speedboat in the jugle in mexico.

well, a lot can change in 24 hours. i no longer work on the cruise ship, i was dismissed for medical reasons. its all a bunch of bull^&%& if you ask me. i go home tomarrow, no more hawaii for me, how sad is that. i am gonna try to fight to get my job back but i dont have too high of hopes. i have no idea what comes next in the world of goldfish, but i'm sure it will be something awesome, i always find a way to make things work for me. i am keeping my vacation to mexico, i mean, its already paid for so why wouldnt i go. i just dont know where i will be going after that. there are a few music festivals that i would like to hit up this summer if i can find the money that is. maybe i'll move to cali, i have no idea. but here i sit on my last day in hawaii, on the beach, catchin the last of my hawaiin rays. watching the ship sail away will be the saddest moment of my life i'm sure. this is all i wanted to do for the next few years, now i dont know what i want. it wierd how things work out. i am trying to stay positive and remember that everything happens for a reason, but its hard when all your dreams are taken away by something that is completly out of your control. well, thats all for now. i will be able to visit the site more often now, thats a plus.....talk to you all soon, wish me luck!

hey there everyone.... well, the set was posted, i have gotten some constructive critisism but not enough to help improve on the next set. any ideas???? well, 15 more days till vacation. i cant wait, i can smell home allready, it smells like nag champa and fine ganja. i have so many plans for vaca, i am even going to the hot springs in colorado. everything on the ship is still slowly creeping by, the last few days are gonna be the worst i'm sure. you know that feeling when you already have one foot out the door, you just have to wait your turn to leave. any ways, glad you guys lliked the set, i am still getting the hang of this friend request thing and chatting and all that so bare with me. till next time....

well guys, the set will post tomarrow. i am really excited, i have been so busy at work that time has just been flying. i only have 21 days left on the ship and then i get my vacation. i really need it, at this point i have worked 141 days straight.....its not as bad as it sounds, you get used to it after a while, but i cant wait for that first day off. i am going to take a 3 hour bath....cant wait. the plane ride home is going to be rough, i work at 3 am that morning, my flight will probably not leave until around five, then i will have a layover, and another 8 hour flight. but then i willbe almost home. i can fell home already, i get to see the whole family, all the sisters, the ex's ma and pop, even granny willbe at the memorial party!! It WILL BE JUST THAT, A BIG F'N PARTY well, hope you all check out the pics tomarrow, let me know what you think.

yep, still here in Hawaii, i am excited about my set posting on the 21st of the month. i am having trouble oploading a profile pic though, no matter if it is a pic from my set or a random photo i cant get anything into the box. if anyone can help i would appreciate it. im getting really excited about my vacation. i will be really busy with moving and seeing the family and going to mexico. pretty much every day is planned.
by the way, it is really hard to post these blogs and be active on the site due to the fact that the ship censors the internet availab;e on the ship so i can only get online and write to you guys off the ship. so that kinda sucks, i'm not as active as i would like to be. well, i cant wait to post mexico pics, i'm sure i will have a great time. does anyone actually read these????

Still in hawaii, i go home in 43 days, then mexico in 61 days. i cant wait!! My aunt and my granny came on my cruise this week, they had a great time. lots of eating, granny is not moving very fast these days so it was mainly a relaxing vacation for them. i got to see my first luau it was pretty cool, the fire dancers were awesome!! life on the ship is hectic as always, new boss, new rules, corporate is coming on board on saturday and captain buzz comes back too, its gonna be interesting. i get to see the whole family on my vacation, thats pretty exciting, i have three sisters and we havent all been together in about a year, it will be quite the party.

Well, here i am, my set was finally accepted for member review and I couldnt be more excited. i have started planning my five week vacation and i decided on a trip to mexico. it will be awesome i'm sure. i had to extend my contract with the cruise ship for an extra two weeks so that the dates would work in my favor but it will be okay, time is going so fast now a days. not much excitment on the ship since the last kayaking trip but on that one we went to a beach in Kona, we got to grill veggie burgers on the beach, then we each got a kayak and off we went. i was literally twenty feet away from a shark in open water!!!!! it was so awesome i couldnt believe it. i got to see lots of whales and dolphins too, but the shark was the best. at the end of my contract i will be headed back to ohio for a week, then i will be packing everything i own and putting it in storage so that i finally will not have to pay rent anymore. then i will go to pennsylvania, then philly, then mexico, and maybe california if i have enough money. then back to ohio to repack and then back to hawaii and the ship for another five month contract. the weather in hawaii has been a little chillier than usual, but it still beats ohio by a long shot.

I have never made a blog before......I just wanted to say hello to everyone out there and tell you that the weather in hawaii is magnificent. The cruise ship life is getting better every day and friends come and go faster than you could ever imagine. Five month contracts seem like so long when you first get there but after the first few months time starts to fly. the beaches here are beautiful. i work 3 am to noon seven days a week so i get all afternoon to sit around on the beach or in a kayak, or even go snorkeling. Life is Great!!!! I even got to go to a Bob Marley tribute concert!!! I got to climb this amazing tree!