well, a lot can change in 24 hours. i no longer work on the cruise ship, i was dismissed for medical reasons. its all a bunch of bull^&%& if you ask me. i go home tomarrow, no more hawaii for me, how sad is that. i am gonna try to fight to get my job back but i dont have too high of hopes. i have no idea what comes next in the world of goldfish, but i'm sure it will be something awesome, i always find a way to make things work for me. i am keeping my vacation to mexico, i mean, its already paid for so why wouldnt i go. i just dont know where i will be going after that. there are a few music festivals that i would like to hit up this summer if i can find the money that is. maybe i'll move to cali, i have no idea. but here i sit on my last day in hawaii, on the beach, catchin the last of my hawaiin rays. watching the ship sail away will be the saddest moment of my life i'm sure. this is all i wanted to do for the next few years, now i dont know what i want. it wierd how things work out. i am trying to stay positive and remember that everything happens for a reason, but its hard when all your dreams are taken away by something that is completly out of your control. well, thats all for now. i will be able to visit the site more often now, thats a plus.....talk to you all soon, wish me luck!