So I know I have been neglecting this thing yet again. I suppose I should give an update of all things Athena. I don't detest arizona any longer-though the summer will still suck. I've been workin at the Home Depot for the past year. My best friend Tanner died Mon.Feb.25th from wrecking his motercycle and suffering from massive internal injuries. I love you and miss you Tanner, wherever you are. You made my life shine brighter than ever before. So pretty much just trying to get through life day by day. Started up the fucking myspace again, oh well. Tryin to get out of my apartment and into a house soon. Gettin more tats soon as well, gotta love income taxes. In other news, my gay pomeranian has now become a obese gay pomeranian--it happens I guess. I have also tried to cut down on drinking but picked up a little more on smoking. Tough shit. Anyhoo, thats about all really. Until next time, peace out. R.I.P TANNER B. OSUNA

im deleting my myspace tomorrow. sad. anyhoo. az still sucks. i work at home depot now, no more old navy for the past few months. got some new tat work done. got another dog, lenny the shih tzu. full house. lol. next month i will be taking dance classes (hopefully). i want to learn hip hop and jazz. niftyness. thats about it for now. i will try to keep this thing more updated. seriously.

.xoxo.

OUT OF A SPECIAL REQUEST FOR ME TO START POSTING MY POETRY, I'LL START WITH THIS ONE. HOPE YA'LL LIKE. IT'S ONE OF THE MORE RECENT, I WILL POST MORE LATER.XOXO.

I Killed Chivalry

gray lights shine through hastily drawn curtains.

-is it dawn? or is it late in the day?-

sickly thoughts and vague recollections overflow.

virtue smeared shamelessly on cold stale covers.

the palatial night that drowned our sorrows, our lonliness;

brought about by translucent lies and depleted hopes.

so much we hungered for. damn restless sensations.

-give up. just gave in.-

live out this explicit fable.

-just be reckless, don't hesitate.-

passion is only reserved for the adventurous few.

dark rooms light up with our entry,

cold streets seem warmer when you are close.

half empty glasses begging to be refilled,

ignored after awhile, finished and left aside.

beneath your governed exterior-

your contentious ways and artful charm;

you subdue me, as unyielding as i am.

it's a peculiar feeling, a relief actually-

it's nice to let go of our principles.

a lifetime of gratitude in return for a little time.

a hand open in friendship paired with a lustful heart-

my new aquaintance, haha, my eyes are open.

i'll take corrupt self-indulgence;

no-one wants desolate reality.

so, like usual, my interests in "blogging" seem to come and go. i might as well just copy and paste from whatever i write on my myspace. saves me time. anyhoo. its may now, ive been in az for over a year and i am still alive- not so well-but alive.
i miss many things. i miss my friend kyle and drew and erik. they are all very busy guys.
i just quit my job at old navy--had to before i snapped.lol.
if anyone knows of any job openings for a feisty lil thing like me, you let me know!!!
i also got a new puppy, his name is lenny. cute little fucker, cept he is teething and using my arm as a chewtoy. not so pleasant.
i am quite bored with myself these days. nothin much to do around where i live.
the art walks in scottsdale are nice, so are the bars in tempe. other than that, there is nothing.
all my friends bands are on tours and i havn't seen any of them in months.
sad. pathetic even, my whines and rants. sorry.
so. in other news. my health is in shambles. i have nobody to blame but myself.
my left kidney is all sorts of in pain--but i continue to not take care of myself. i thought the occassional popping of a vitamin would help, but ya know. whatever. i will go to the doc one of these days.
so that is it for now. just boredom, unemployment and shitty health. . . . . . i need to get out more.

got new ink, the half sleeve is finally going to be finished after a whole 2 years!! lol.

busy busy busy. work is a bitch. i am finding a new found hatred for old navy.

anyone want to give me a job??? p

it is starting to get hot again. really not lookin forward to the az summer.

nothing much else really goin on.

quite bored. visit sacramento, go to the bars in tempe, work, try to sleep, hang out with my dogs...

yep, fun stuff. thats it for now i guess.

.xoxo.

so. it's the new year. what a bitch. although i did ring it in at disneyland, not too terribly bad. though my life has revolved around working and i am rarely home anymore. my dogs are def pissed off at me for neglecting them. i deserve it. anyhoo. when i think back at 2006, i am so grateful that it is finally fucking over. worst year ever-by far. too many mishaps, embarasments and just plain shitty luck. april will be the year mark that i have lived in arizona. amazing. havn't killed myself yet. lets go for a few more shall we. on the more positive side, i've met quite a bit of interesting/sexy/unattainable people. so, yay for that. i need a vacation. if brokeness will subside for a few weeks, i should like to go freeze my ass off with a friend in minnesota. at least it's nowhere near az. so. just a little recap of the past few months. whoopee.ttyl.
xoxo,
athena

so. the holidays are here. i couldn't be more depressed. i want cold weather and scarves. yet i must settle for lighted cacti and 86 degrees outside. i miss my friends and family still. i'll make it up to sacramento one of these days. anyhoo. life is hectic as usual. workin non stop. i was able to get out on the town when a friend of mine came to visit from minnesota. we went to downtown tempe. got some pretty tasty sushi and saki bombs at RA. then we shuffled our way to the dueling pianos bar. that place is awesometastical. i have "don't stop" by journey, forever emblazened in my head. the best time i have had in a very long long time. i must do it again sometime soon. not going out for so long, then having an amazing night out just makes me all antsy in my pants to get out and live it up. haha. any takers??? well. i have a horrible day of closing up shop tomorrow, so i think i will attempt to get some beauty sleep. hope everyone had a great thanksgiving.i'll be in touch. hope ya'll like the new pics. xoxoxo
-athena

another bit o' time has passed and i seem to write less and less with each month that goes by. things in az are not as i expected them to be. i came here to escape the hectic and crude life i had lived in nor cal, only to be living an even more stressful and chaotic exsistence in az. kinda funny. try as i might to keep my head above water, i feel like im drowning. i look around every corner and i am failing miserably. health, finance,basic upkeep; are the first things i think of when i wake up and the last when i make a sad attempt at falling asleep. still. i latch onto the hopes that the next day will get better, as the day after that. so we shall see what happens. i grow more and more weary of november and december. i miss california so much, the leaves changing colors, the cold weather, etc. kinda sucks. well, im gonna stop whining now and all that fun stuff. nighty night folks.
xoxoxo,
athena

so i am trying to update my blog more. not being home as much as i would like i guess. so i sat down to write something facsinating and amazing that might have happened, but my life isnt so. i look outside and there is a huge dust storm manifesting itself, so much for turning in my movie rentals. i hate driving in storms. my dogs are scared and barking at the noise of the wind and shutters banging. stupid dogs. i slept til 1 in the afternoon today, first time i have slept in since i can remember. first day off i can remember too! although i went to sacramento for a few days last week to visit family and friends, that was a nice break-even though i did not sleep then either, oh well, i will sleep when i am dead. its funny, on one side of my house the sun is shining through and on the other side there is nothing but darkness and wind and rain. what a messed up state arizona is. stupid monsoon season. its storming, but 110 degees outside. its almost the end of the day and i have not done much more than laundry, dishes and watch tv. all in all i would say it was a successful day off. xoox. i plan on doing a new set to turn into sg one of these days, its been awhile. being in a new state i need to find a new photographer. if anyone knows any non-creepy person to take great pics, lemme know. until next time my dears, im going to go cook some dinner or something. xoxoxoxo

just moved to arizona. its hot, the people are chill and i bought a cute house without selling my soul. haha. got married in vegas in april to my hottie scottie of 3 years. my puppies love their nice big back yard and i have just been workin my newly tanned ass off every day. im hopin to get my bod into gear so i can do another photo shoot to turn into sg. we will see how that goes. until next time, xxoxooxox