wow i have not been on here in YEARS!!!!! Well update. I was divorsed in 05 lived a grand life from then till now. Finshed school to do hair. I have been working out of the house now since 05 and an engaged to me married to a great man in october. Its funny how life takes us on an up and down road. so since september of 05 i have, moved, divorded, graduated school, got out of debt, found all new loving friends, found the man of my dreams, have a great soon to be step son, and stayed friends with the exhusband. Love life. i am back in Boise with my family, I'm about to be an aunt , my kids are doing great, I am doing great. WOOT!!! And and outside my psp every now and again I'm not into gamming all to much any more, never any time.

Well it has been a sad shitty weekend for me. It is so sad since the weekend has so much potential. Friday was sad because my super sweet super nice SUPER cute brother in law didn’t want to leave and we didn’t want I’m to go but he had to go…so sad. Then I went on a car trip yesterday and well my car the one I love the one I have been talking about for a month broke down, It was totally my fault I didn’t do what all good car mommies should do. And I cracked the radiator. FUCK!!!!!!! So today my son missed school and I have no clue what I am going to do tomorrow I have to be at the school tomorrow and no way to get that my old car ( hubbys car needs to be registered and in needs emitions(sp?) done which I can’t pay for now cause of the tow and fix on my car) I hate money. I hate not having enough. I’m not sure what I did to piss off karma but I’m really sorry I did it. Well that’s been my issue sorry to bitch.

I was think I should update so hear it goes. Well my new roommates/ family members will be here soon and I am so excited. I have been working very hard to get the little walking in closet ready, I don’t want him to feel like he’s in a closet so I panted it and took down all the bars and selves and removed the door. We are moving my daughter to the office tonight; it was supposed to be done like a week ago but... you know how it goes. I have a Ton of people coming over tomorrow night after I drop off hubby. Not sure how it happened that way but I’m down. It will be fun we are going to have a stitch and bitch. I was going to be sewing the costumes for Sakura con but I just don’t’ have time now, so the kids and I are going to skip it this year. Maybe I’ll sew a duvet cover.

My friend and I made up. It’s a little odd since you can still feel a little bit of the tension but I’m glad were talking again. I missed her.
I LOVE my new car…have I told you this? Well I do, it is so NOT a soccer mom car and I just love it. I know I’m a nerd but I can’t wait to do sca this year I can camp in it if I want. There are tent that go off the side of the van.

Ok so not only did we get to KEEP the car....but we have a much better interest rate then originally...ITS my car now...WOOT.

I went the Me First and the gimmie gimmies concert on Saturday it was great.. I made one HUGE mistake though I stopped by my favorite piercing/ tattoo shop, I wanted to look at tattoos and got my nipple repeirced then I was dumb enough to go to the concert after that. I lost how many times I got hit; luckily my hubby is like a meat shield and deflected most of the people. All the guys at the concert were awesome nice cute all that jazz but the girls…OMG were like bitches I wanted to smack the sit out of her. I’m over it now.
Remember that friend of mine that I was jealous of? Well I guess I pissed her off, she “no long can be friends with me” and she will not tell anyone what I did….DRAMA grrr. We have been friends for over 5 years and what ever I did it was while she was out of town in he last 5 days. Oh well I was pretty upset about it yesterday but now I just don’t’ care I don’t need the high school head games drama, its just sad I lost a friend over nothing. You’d think I fucked her husband, which I did not.

I love our new car I cant’ wait till we take it camping; we have already gone and picked up a bunch of people just because we can now. HEHEHE. My hubby flies out next Saturday, I’m not looking forward to this I hate being left alone at night. But on the up side it just mean 4 days till our friend and his son gets here that is so exciting and I’m so NOT ready. I really need to get on the ball with that and with costumes for the con this year.
Despite all the stuff that has been happening today has the makings of a good day I hope it is.

Well it is Friday night and even though my concert I have been waiting for is tomorrow I don’t’ want Saturday to come. I just know it is going to be a sad day. Have I expressed how much I hate financing things, it was drives the market up, there would never be a 30k car if it were not for financing or 800k homes. Well if you can imagine by my rant I went car shopping on Thursday, and I found the perfect car for me and mine, it was a 2000 eurovan totally loaded, well as loaded as the eurovans come, for an ok price. I went and looked at it loved it wasn’t sure about it went home and looked it up on the all knowing all powerful net, found out what I needed and that is was a good deal, called hubby and we went down to get it. It was the best experience we had ever had, we decide to keep our old car as well as there new one so we finally had 2 cars….Well this is the issue, we have well. Umm not so great credit back in 00 we had a kid with no insurance and I had to stop working so we had to file for bankruptcy….I always hated it but we were stuck, anyway we paid everyone back, did a chapter 13, and now its been over for a little over a year now. I’m sure you can imagine what this dose to us wanting to finance a used car, new is ok but used they don’t like so much. Well I don’t know if you know this but when you leave with a car usually you don’t usually have at he loan per say it still takes the loan people at the dealership a few days to finalize it. But there are very sure of the transaction they let you take the car. Some times you have to take the car back…….this happened to a friend of our about 3 years ago and us 2 years ago. Well I didn’t want to take the car till I was written in stone not in sand. Everyone told me it was ok it was a done deal even my hubby said it was ok… Well today we got a call from the finance guy, I have no clue what he wanted because I wasn’t home but I know we have to call him tomorrow and I’m sure its to take the car back. *sigh* I feel like I always miss out on the thing that would be very useful to me…I never get them until I almost don’t need them anymore. Oh well I made it work with our car before I can again. That’s my rant and why I haven’t been around for a few days. How was everyone’s week? Would love to hear st patty’s day stories I was at the dealer all day so I missed going out.

OH my god so I was board out of my mind yesterday. Mt hubby was working late and I wasn’t gonna get to work out so I was sitting in front of the computer looking through all the stock of the Game Stop for a few games I wanted, I wanted the world of war craft strategy guide and every one was out. Well I called the Issaquah game stop to see if they had a dream cast game the strategy guide and THEY DID so I asked if they happened to have a copy of my game and THEY DID, so we pack up the car and jet out there to get it…I’m so happy. Now I can level my priest with efficacy, and I can play one of my favorite games. But only for a little while I need to get started on the Sakura con costumes for this year my daughter is gonna be Yuna for FF X-2

Oh my god I’m such a nerd I have been looking high and low for this video game. If the 19 year old version could see me now I would have slapped the shit out of me LOL letting my hubby turn me into a nerdy gammer girl. Its called Disgaea: Hour of Darkness and I HAVE TO HAVE IT . Ok I use to own it and like a total tard, I got ride of it and my PS2. Why you may ask? Well I was a total xbox advocate and only owned a ps2 for ddr ( a dancing game) and Disgaea, when x-box announced that it would be coming out with a DDR game I was super happy got ride of my ps2 and sold Disgaea to a friend, thinking that someday if I ever wanted to play it I could but the bastard moved to Chicago and now I don’t have it and I WANT IT!!!! Ok a challenge if you have it or know where I can get it PLEASE let me know. It is a very rear game and hard to find. I will love you for ever and ever.

So I’m pissy today and I’m sad to admit that it is for a very petty reason. I’m jealous. There I said it, I hate being like this it just make me more sad that I can’t be happy for my friend. Ok here is the storey I have a good friend and we always get along fairly well (kinda like sisters we fight but we love each other) well I get the feeling that in the last 2 years everything we (hubby and I) want they get, if we can’t afford it, and everything we get they have to get a better one. About a year ago my hubby and I were trying to get a Subaru WRX we wanted the hatch back REALY, REALY bad, we just could not hammer out the extra $600 a month in car payment and the up in insurance since it was a sports car. We were sad, they went and bought one. I wanted a GPS system badly since I’m retarded and always get lost. I bought on to go with my tablet pc, they bought a $400 hand held model. I have been trying for 2 years to get a minivan (I know I’m a nerd but were in the sca and I have 2 kids and… damn it I just need one) Wanted an ’00 odyssey partly due to price and size and the only ones that are even kinda cute. She made fun of me to no end mind you she went off for a week about how ugly they are how she will never get one. Well 2 years latter and a 9 month old baby and she has changed her view and went out and bought the one I wanted yesterday. *sigh* I hate jealously I should be happy for her but I’m just fuming. I finally had to tell her to stop complaining about how ugly it was I couldn’t take it anymore.* Sigh* sorry about the petty rant It is so silly and I feel ridiculous being upset about this. I wish I could get ride of jealousy all together. Has it ever served a good purpose?

Ok so I went to the library today to try and find the book ‘ the 5 love languages’ Of course it was checked out and not due back till the 9th but a few books down from where the book would have been was a book that caught my eye ‘ How the stay lovers while raising your children’ now not to say that my hubby and I are not lovers but I felt there had to be some great ideas in the book, dealing with minimal time and what not. I started reading it, it was a good start all about communication and squeezing in time when ever you can like setting the alarm and hour earlier to have a quite breakfast together before the kids get up. Then it got to a chapter called Tunnel of love or tunnel vision? OK so maybe this is just me and the book says it is, but I think my kids are my number one priority my husband may leave me and my kids are still my kids, ya know? Anyway this book is going off about how kids are not the number one priority and how your spouse should be above kids work and self and that your self should be number two. It says that your feel guilted into doing thing that are “good” for your kids like taking them to gymnastics, couching soccer, things like this. So you should stop doing them and that your kids will understand and be happy that you are happy. Ok maybe my kids are odd because if I promise my kids something and then fall through I hear about it for ALONG time.

Ok let me share a quote from this chapter they have in big bold letters. “As many marriages fail because of children as children fail because of faulty marriages. Until we learn that children are not special, but equal in importance to all of us, until we learn that we must not lead our lives and our marriages for children but with them we sacrifice our marriages, our own development.” –Dr. Paul Pearsall

Ok what do you think? Is that guilt trip something society has sold me into thinking my kids are special and of the most importance? Or is this book cracked?


PS I know this rant reads funny I’m sorry

Wow I have a need to update today and yet I don’t think I have anything to say, Sigh. Well my son got sick I felt so bad for him I have not seen him this sick in along time.  Why is it that kids never realize that we are trying to help them. He is 5 years old and I put vicks on his chest, he was freaking out wanted it off hates the smell anything he could complain about. I had to convince him that it would help him and that if he just fell asleep that the small would not feel as strong, after an hour of this and him whining he finally fell asleep, just to wake up this morning amazed at how much better he felt. One would think that this would be a lesson but if I try to put it on him again tonight it will be the same fight.
We have a good friend who is going to be moving here from the UK. He is totally adorable and sweet. He is going through a heart breaking divorce and I feel so bad for him because he loves her so much still. I hope the move will do him good. He is bringing his son who is just a few days younger then my daughter so that’s going to be awesome my kids will have another friend to play with. I hope they get along after all we will all be living together for a while. I can’t wait till they get here. Want to help him find a good woman when he gets here…Any suggestions? LOL
Started working out again, that’s a good thing want to get my stamina up so I can try out for roller derby. The SCA season is going to start soon so I need to get to sewing garb (clothing) for the kids and I and even my husband this year W00T!! Then I need to get my hands on a pavilion (tent) and I’ll be set for the year.

Just before my sad break for the site I had ruined my hair cut it all off myself and colored it all black. Well I’m happy to say that it has grown out enough o be cut into an a-line and I have gone back to the red. It’s funny how much I missed it. Strange how something like a hair cut can make us feel so differently….Maybe it’s my Bi-polar talking LOL

I guess I had more to say then I thought