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JUNE 15, 2006 @ 12:11 AM | 7 COMMENTS


Lol that's because Godcldinsick is completely dead....And birds fly away from me ha ha ha ha....no not funny sob.
MAY 25, 2006 @ 03:04 AM | NO COMMENTS


Come now witness the miracle that was once life.
Watch now as it slowly turns to death.
Witness the glowing bulbs in my head.
Watch as that brilliance burns out, eyes now turned to grey.
Blackened from the pain of a thousand lifetimes suffered through the years of double thirteen.
Now comes the end of this time line....One last wish; One last breath; One final dream.
Close these eyes, inhale and explode!

"Deepen into me"


APRIL 15, 2006 @ 05:17 AM | 1 COMMENT


If Silence Could Speak....Would It Hurt Our Ears To Hear It's Voice. Or Would We Simply Hear Nothing At All. smile
MARCH 2, 2006 @ 05:54 AM | 1 COMMENT


Godcldinsick's seven things to do before he die's list:

1. I Just Wanna Rock Your Socks Off!
2. Go Skydiving..or Jump off something really really high.
3. get more tattoos "yeah add another to the list"



4. Find a friend who actually wants to be a friend
5. see the world "I need a vacation anyone wanna come with me?"
6. Win A Million Dollars...Envy...Then do the unthinkable and give it all to you guys..HA top that one.
7. Rule the world.... Mwahaaa!

seven things I cannot do:
1. They tell me I can't be mean if I tried..
2. Have sex with animals, I second that!
3. Speak to people unless spoken to first
4. Find happiness in life, or at least a band
5. Find a purpose in this life
6. Get plastered on a daily basis
7. Die!!! Never Die

seven things I say most often:
1. You human
2. Oh ____ *insert expletive here* Dont we all
3. yeah
4. And you will get it
5. Later
6. I'm not human, I am an entity
7. I’ll do it for 5 bucks

seven books I love:
1. Sword Of Shannara
2. The Narnia Collection
3. The complete Calvin and Hobbes
4. The Day Jimmy's Boa Ate The Wash...Ha ha I won 1rst place in drama with that book..
5. Anything Garfield
6. Support the Suicide Girls..err wait what was the name of that book?
7. Alexander and the terrible horrible nogood very bad day

seven movies I can watch over and over again:
1. Lord of The Rings
2. Nightmare on Elm St. Series
3. The Nightmare Before Christmas
4. Rurouni Kenshin
5. ATHF
6. The Wizard Of Ozz
7. Fantasia
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DECEMBER 31, 2005 @ 09:10 PM | NO COMMENTS


New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven I watched flies fuck on channel 11 There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink And there's no ring on the phone anymore There's no reason to call I passed out on the floor Smoked myself stupid and drank my insides raisin dry But at the right place at the right time I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine And I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit For anyone but me And at the right place at the right time It will have been worth it to stand in line And you won't have to stop Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me Your private eye wink

Guess this song and get a cookie....
NOVEMBER 28, 2005 @ 02:59 PM | 5 COMMENTS


Yes I know everything isn't the greatest right now..but well yeah here's another fork in the road of life right.
Yeah ok so in case you didn't hear I think I'm really supposed to be dead right now.
I went to Olympia to see a friend on her last night..I might not get to see her again..well anyways everything was ok I was coming home..decided to take the back way home..I was driving the speed limit and hit a huge patch of black Ice at around 4:50 sunday mourning..well my car slid off the road and hit the very front of a gaurd rail at about 50 mph impaling the car. I should've been impaled along with it and instead I emerged from the vehicle completely unscratched...Now I dunno how in the world that could've happened and everyone else is telling me there is no way I should've lived through the crash..I guess there was something looking after me that night and for that I am gratefull..I don't know why I was spared I could've died and everything would have come to an end, yet here I am still standing.
Anyways so after about 3 or 4 cars passed by not stopping to ask if anyone was still alive, a young couple finaly stopped and it's funny cause they thought I was a witness and when I told them no I was the driver they seemed to be in more shock than I was. They told me it was a miricle that I was ok and then said it's cold hope someone comes soon, we gotta go were going fishing..goodbye. Yes thank you Chehalians so much you are all too kind. Can you frieking belive that..goodbye it's cold were going fishing...quick put me thru the damn gaurdrail.
So yeah when the paramedics and police finaly did show..the cop was a fucking bitch..she tried to say I was on pot..cause my eyes were a little wide and I seemed a little wired...Yeah I just went flying through 67ft of gaurd rail you fucking cop..how would you be? Well she finaly came to the conclusion that I was indeed 100% clean. I haven't touched the stuff in over 7 years..Lol then she said well the gaurdrail you took out is city property so we will be sending you a bill in the mail...O yes I'm looking foreward to it....Bitch.

So yeah I didn't get pics with the rail still through the car..but they took some and hopefully I'll get my hands on them..I kinda want to see Final Destination 2 again now...skull

Well all in all thank God there was nobody riding with me cause they would have all prob been killed..and well there is no way in the blackest of hells I could ever live with that.

I did take pics of the car today so you can take a look and tell me if I should be here or not. God for the part of me that is still here theres a part of me that wishes I didn't make it home that night..after all I'm still alone...nobody seems to care enough for me to feel anything..and I swear if I had a dollar for every girl that said I'm so wonderful I deserve someone so great..I'd be a billionare...Yeah I'm so great huh just not great enough to be with you right..I thought so.

But hey lets look on the bright side of things..if someone would have been with me that night I would've taken the freeway..and I would have avoided this nightmare altogether..
God somebody give me a hug or something.. I wish this was just a really bad dream. frown
NOVEMBER 24, 2005 @ 11:35 AM | 2 COMMENTS


"Hurt"

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

- The Man in Black.
OCTOBER 11, 2005 @ 03:57 AM | 5 COMMENTS


So ya wanna know how my life's going and where I've been lately huh.. Ok here let me try and start somewhere near
the beginning if I can.
Ok so guess what.. I'm having a midlife crisis at the sweet age of 25..Well actually my entire frieking life has been one great big crisis..
So I did what anyone losing their mind would do..I bought a new toy..** see pic at the bottom **
Yeah I know I'm going fucking nuts in this place I can't escape from.
Well I have been to some really kick ass shows in my life but these past few months have been nothing short of concert overdose..
Motley Crue..Greenday..Megadeth..Anthrax..NIN..System Of A Down..some others I forget the names but yeah lots O shows.
Ok here's the breakdown.. I treated another so called friend of mine who I met in a resteraunt to see Megadeth and Anthrax with me..She was
completely in awe as she never has been to a live show before.. So ok that's cool I invited her we talked a bit..I found out her birthday was coming up soon and
she'd be turning 21..She loves my kind of music so sweet I bought her Nine Inch Nails and System Of A Down tix..
Well we ended up going to see NIN in Seattle..Fucking Killer Show I might add.. And so everything sounds good right... Oooo but wait theres a catch to this story. I like her alot but
she's got a loser of a boyfriend in another city thats cheating on her..I've asked her why she's with him if he treats her like shit..she tells me I dunno..because I'm stupid and we see each other once a week so it works.
well ok that's not cool it seems she just wants to hang out at shows with me..see before we went she asked me if I had another ticket so that her boyfriend could go with us...OOoo that hurt. I told her she should just take him,
I'd give up my ticket and her and him could have fun. Well she got mad and told me that wouldn't be fair to me..I really didn't care..I bought the tix for her.
Well ok so then after the show I asked her if she wanted to go see Corpse Bride with me the next day..She told me of course that will be great..and so then her boyfriend calls and comes over so I got aced..Yeah she blew me off
ok thats not that bad right...Well ok so then I call her up see whats going on but she doesn't return my call until like a couple days before the System show. Yeah well I'm a very understanding person if she's still attached to
the guy I'm trying not to let it bother me. Yeah well everything is cool..then the night of the show she calls and cancels on me..WTF...She's stuck at home and her parents won't let her go out..well thats what she told me anyway.
Well anyhow I ended up going without her..Soo yeah System was spectacular..but the fact I had to be there alone again fucking blew..so yeah I was sad the whole night.
Ok so I come back home and she calls me up...cause yeah get this....OOOoo Erik your so easy to talk to and all so I need your advise on another guy who might like me...I wanted to throw the fuck up the entire conversation,
but listened to her tell me how this guy she kinda liked but never had any interest in her before all of a sudden really likes her..she asks me what I think she should do and yeah..I'm everybodys fucking counselor..he he I should
start charging people. God this is way more complicated and depressing than what my frail hands can type out..please do bear with me I'll change the subject soon..
Ok so I'm so damn wonderful to people they all say..yeah so wonderful they all look right past me..I'm just everyone's stepping stone..like one of my acquaintances said.. Your the sweetest nicest guy in the world..
your just not boyfriend material..Friggin Wonderfull.
Well anyways the moral to this mess is this..I'm crazy for the girl..she says she likes hanging out with me yeah ok we only really hang at shows..God is that all I'm good for these days.
I'll tell her now how I feel about her and prob never get to talk with her again..or I'll give her more time and watch
somebody else sweep her off her feet.. So like with everyone else I've had feelings for I lose either way..go figure I'll be back to square 1 all over again. I'm becoming too fucking old for square 1 bs anymore.

I don't know who's friend and who's just using me anymore..So I end up not trusting anyone.
The thing is this.. I am so sick and tired of cutting off my own arms for people who say that their friends of mine..but unless I'm paving their way for something to do they never call me up or come around..it's as if I just
plain don't exist anymore. Who know's maybe I don't.

And do you wanna know what I'm doing when there's no show to go to, no place to go...I sit at home alone staring up at the celing trying to understand why nobody gives a damn...Why I'm alone in my room instead of
being out and about having fun..waiting for day to turn to night so I can wander up and down the highway to hang for a while in a coffee shop by myself a hundred miles away..praying that maybe there might be someone there
this time..only to go home alone again and sing songs for the stars above thinking to myself maybe someone out there is listening.
Yes doesn't that sound just so much fun. Hey if ya happen to see someone out there on the freeway with the words UNWNTED written on the license you can honk and say hi.
So yeah it matters not if I stay here in Chehalis..or if I go to another city, state, country..the end results always going to be the same. Your so wonderful..hmm just not boyfriend material..sorry honey looks like you lose.

But hey I'm used to it..I've lived like that all my life so it's pretty much routine for me now. I will say this though and please do forgive me if this comes out wrong..I'm trying to keep my composure here but my hands are really
shaken right now but hey I'm doing the best I can.
You see I'm soo damn sick and tired of everyone out there that says they'll never find that someone and their all alone again..and they are like 17,18,20 or somewhere around that age but they have at least had
someone in their life once or twice..Yeah ok whatever I feel for you..but you know what your young, you still hang out and have fun with your own social circle of friends..you still have people to talk to.

I'll tell you what..When you've been on the outside looking in..no girls, no love, no lust, no life..no real person out there you can trust..and when you've done absolutely everything in your power to please everyone else out there
without expecting a fucking thing besides acceptance in return..And you've lived that way for 25+ years then you can tell me there's nobody out there for you.
You wanna know what it's like to have the world in the palm of your fucking hand and be so damn close to solving that last piece of the puzzle, only to have one fatal flaw in your life that makes everything else fall completely
apart. Yeah well you know what that one little missing piece is...Love..yeah thats right love...without it there is nothing worth living for.
You know why I'll always be depraved of love...huh..My inability to keep a fucking conversation with someone..Thats right I'd be better off as a fucking mute.
I plain just can't converse well with others..It's not because I'm shy or anything cause I'll sing for just about anyone at anytime..so it's not cause I'm shy..I just don't like to bullshit people..I'm not a player,
I don't go around telling lies to impress people..I tell things strait up.. I'm nice to people not cause I'm after anything but cause I enjoy making others feel happy..even if I'm feeling dead on the inside..and well I just
can't accept this shit anymore..It's been too long now..I'm in a broken state of S.O.S!
I've run the fuck out of time now.. I swear to ! I'm prob not going to see a day past 26..26 is the final curtain call...I'll end it all on double 13 and not one single solitary soul is going to save me before my time comes
to it's end. Thats my destiny now..it's my destiny to be alone..so be it. I wish I could resort to drugs, alcohol, or smoking to numb my pain..but no I'll take it raw. Can you do that my friend and not drive yourself to fucking
insanity. Can you last that long alone..without any outlet to turn to, save a journal that nobody reads or responds to. Go ahead try it..I bet you swallow yourself whole. The pains way to much for me to handle anymore..
I'm strong but eventually even the strongest will break..and now I can no longer hide that pain away and pretend every things ok...cause trust me everything is far far from being ok.
dammnett All I ever wanted in this life was to have my sweet little punk rock raver girl by my side..wrap her arms around me and let me know everything was going to be ok..
Instead I have been giving the gift of death..cold and numb inside I'll sleep forever. But you don't care do you..say you do but I can see through you to know you really don't. hey who the hell is
even going to read this..I swear I'm typing my feelings out to imaginary friends. Look at all the people that come say hi to me...Oh well thats life for you.. and if anybody out there in outer space is listening well I hope that
your life is all wine and roses..goodnight.










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JULY 27, 2005 @ 06:25 AM | 2 COMMENTS


**Yeah soo I ah was drinking coffee in Spiffs tonight..26 cups and counting let me tell ya.. and this um girl asked me to write a song to her explaining why guys are gay..
You see she just found out her boyfriend was cheating on her tonight and ah yeah asked me for some friendly advise..Soo ok yeah..well
usually I'm not one to give much advise but in this situation I made an exeption to the rule..
soo ah after about 5 mins of thought this is what I ah came up with..Err let me know what you guys think..Ok here goes**


"Why Guys Are Gay!"
lyrics by GodCldinSick

I don't know why girls find guys charming or anything at all.
I don't know why girls always seem to fall.
I don't know why these girls think the way they do.
Cause guys everywhere are stupid..you know it's sad but soo true.
And if you happen to be a guy..sadly you must be stupid too.

Why oh why do these girls like these guys..
Why oh fucking why do they fall victim to there lies..
The ones that cry must be homo's cause they show feelings and shit.
The ones that look appealing must be cheating and shit.
I'm sick of it all, guys are fucking gay.. I wanna turn chick today.

I can't explain why they go for jerkoff's and musclebound frieks.
I can't explain why they don't fall in love with those sensative geeks.
Your the nice guy who has a brain you have no chance with her in Hell.
Leave the prom and go home now cause she will never show and tell.
I know it's pretty gay but she's in love with that drunkin dick today.

Why oh why do these girls like these guys..
why oh fucking why do they fall victim to there lies..
the ones that care must be retarded cause they show feelings and shit!
the ones that are fucking crazy must be cheating and shit!
I'm so damn sick of it all, guys are fucking gay..I'm gonna turn chick today!


** Spoken Really Really Fast **



**..Hey You.. yeah thats right I'm talking to you..Listen up..
If your the girl who's looking for the one..
your special someone..If you wanna find the right one..then heed my warning honey and run..Thats right RUN!!..Run far far away..Why you ask me..
Cause guys are fucking gay..
Well not all guys but most guys anyway..
take my advise girl go date yourself a machine today..
You can't go wrong with a machine!

wait I'm a guy..Err no wait I'm A Girl..Err nope thats not right..Ooooh I know..I'm a machine..
Yeah a machine..a Fucking machine..I dub myself Machina!..Overlord of the underverse..Or is it the Universe..
I got it now it's the Universal Underverse..Yeah Machina!..Overlord and Creator of the Universal Underverse..
I have you under my spell now..
You must date Machina! Creator..Lord..and Master of all that is the Universal Underverse..
I don't know what that means but it sounds pretty cool so we'll go with it..Err wait do machines drink coffee in the Universal ahh forget it I'm going home!...**



*yeah the top part goes with the song, she got a kick out of it so I'm glad I could cheer her up a little..err I hope I cheered you up a little to.* smile
JULY 27, 2005 @ 05:57 AM | NO COMMENTS


Yeah soo I ah was drinking coffee in Spiffs tonight..26 cups and counting let me tell ya.. and this um girl asked me to write a song to her explaining
why guys are gay..You see she just found out her boyfriend was cheating on her tonight and ah yeah asked me for some friendly advise..Soo ok yeah..well
usually I'm not one to give much advise but in this situation I made an exeption to the rule..soo ah after about 5 mins of thought this is what I ah came up with..

Err let me know what you guys think..Ok here goes


"Why Guys Are Gay!"


I don't know why girls find guys charming or anything at all.
I don't know why girls always seem to fall.
I don't know why these girls think the way they do.
Cause guys everywhere are stupid..you know it's sad but soo true.
And if you happen to be a guy..sadly you must be stupid too.

Why oh why do these girls like these guys..
Why oh fucking why do they fall victem to there lies..
The ones that cry must be homo's cause they show feelings and shit.
The ones that look appealing must be cheating and shit.
I'm sick of it all, guys are fucking gay.. I wanna turn chick today.

I can't explain why they go for jerkoff's and musclebound frieks.
I can't explain why they don't fall in love with those sensative geeks.
Your the nice guy who has a brain you have no chance with her in Hell.
Leave the prom and go home now cause she will never show and tell.
I know it's pretty gay but she's in love with that drunkin dick today.

Why oh why do these girls like these guys..
why oh fucking why do they fall victem to there lies..
the ones that care must be retarded cause they show feelings and shit!
the ones that are fucking crazy must be cheating and shit!
I'm so damn sick of it all, guys are fucking gay..I'm gonna turn chick today!


** Spoken Really Really Fast **


**..Hey You.. yeah thats right I'm talking to you..
Listen up..If your the girl who's looking for the one..
your special someone..If you wanna find the right one..
then heed my warning honey and run..Thats right RUN!!..Run far far away..Why you ask me..
Cause guys are fucking gay..
Well not all guys but most guys anyway..
Take my advise girl go date yourself a machine today..
You can't go wrong with a machine!

wait I'm a guy..Err no wait I'm A Girl..Err nope thats not right..Ooooh I know..I'm a machine..
Yeah a machine..a Fucking machine..I dub myself Machina!..Overlord of the underverse..Or is it the Universe..
I got it now it's the Universal Underverse..Yeah Machina!..Overlord and Creator of the Universal Underverse..
I have you under my spell now..
You must date Machina! Creator..Lord..and Master of all that is the Universal Underverse.. eeek
I don't know what that means but it sounds pretty cool so we'll go with it..Err wait do machines drink coffee in the Universal ahh forget it I'm going home!...**

(yeah the top part goes with the song, she got a kick out of it so I'm glad I could cheer her up a little..err I hope I cheered you up a little to.)





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