You know you've hit bottom when you have to apply for food stamps. Thankfully, they give you a debit card now so the whole world doesn't need to know how much you've failed in life.

Ugh, woke up in the hospital again...twice over the past week! I apparently kept sleepwalking and wouldn't wake up, so my hubby called 911. The first time, they drugged me up way too much so they could kick me out since it was a state hospital. After they sent me home, I was so over medicated that I could do nothing but sleep when I got home that I started sleep walking again and had to go to the hospital once more until I could metabolize the sedatives from the first visit and be coherent again. After that, since it was a better hospital, they called in a shrink who decided that I was a danger to myself or others and had me committed for a few days until I could legally check myself out. He was convinced that I was schizo because I blacked out for a few days, but that is only because I got crappy treatment from the first hospital and they sedated me 3 times the norm and sent me home. On the upside, I finally got to see the musical Wicked on Saturday, and it rawked! I just wanna get back into the normal swing of things. I am still pretty pissed that I was forced to go to a mental hospital for a few days against my will despite the fact that I was doing fine by that point.

Ah, I am so tired and achy. Tried taking the dogs for a walk yesterday and they seemed more interested in taking me for a walk. I got dragged all around the block. Don't really have much going on at the moment.

Shit, I never check this site anymore. I've had a lot going on the past few years and I just haven't had the motivation or passion to check out this site. I gained a lot of weight and lost most of my hair cuz of a thyroid problem and now have medical bills coming out the ass. I think that this site reminds me of all the things I used to be and am having a hard time getting back to.

Ugh, things aren't going so well right now. I do not have a job because I have been in the pursuit of intelligence via returning back to school after many years of delving myself into the retardation that is retail. Basically I got fired for wanting to beat the shit out of one of my coworkers, but I decided to turn lemons into lemonade by going back to school. See, I can look at the brightside.
Well things were going great until a few months ago when I started having horrible panic attacks and had to go to the doctor who told me that my thyroid was overactive. Super. Now I have to continually undergo pricey tests that basically confirm what my doctor said in the first place. As far as I can tell, I am getting raped up the ass by the doctors, hospitals and insurance companies. They put me on four different kinds of anxiety medications and it still only helps a little bit. My bathroom makes me look like a fucking pharmaceutical junkie.
Mostly, at the moment, I am freaked that my hubby might lose his job come tomorrow, which is our only income. I haven't contributed to the household finances in just over a year, mostly because customers make me want to jump over my desk and poke their eyes out with a very sharp pencil. Don't get me wrong, I am a pretty nice person, but anyone who lives and works in Dallas Texas knows that people are fucking assholes who feel they are entitled to treat us "peons" like shit to make themselves feel important. Sorry for the rant, but I have a ton on my mind and I hate self appointed, self important people. These are the people who cost me my job and potentially my boy's job, which pretty much leaves us fucked.

Amen

I have been crazy busy with school lately and haven't really done much else. I've hardly made jewelry or even played video games. I started Devil May Cry 4 months ago and just haven't had the time to really play it. I finally made a few new necklaces yesterday, which was nice, but of course I am super behind on my school work. I just really didn't feel like working on that this weekend. I need a break. Between school and my puppy, I am just tapped out.

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P.S. I did add a couple new pics in my jewelry folder of the stuff I worked on this weekend.

Geez, I'm really bad at keeping this thing updated. I don't even have a job right now so you would think I would be on all the time, but nope. Having no job seems to make me even more lazy. Its funny how, when you have all the time in the world, you always think to yourself, "oh, I can do it later." So I went back to school since I sorta dropped out of school in the first year. I figured I should do something productive and mind enriching so I can justify not running back out to get a new job I will inevitably hate. Yeah, the good old hometown bank I worked at for almost 5 years kicked me to the curb after I sorta threatend to beat the ass of one of my coworkers. I tried to quit first, but my boss beged me to come in for my shift to help her out so I did, and then she fired me the next day. Super fun. At least I got an A in my first class so that's kinda motivating me to take more classes. Life is actually going pretty well at the moment. There were a few hiccups with my boy, but thongs are running smoothly now, so I'm pretty happy.

Alrighty, time to update. Still unemployed and loving it. I'm finally going to start taking some classes this fall to work toward that elusive college degree that I have been putting off for so many years. I figure if I'm not working I might as well be working on something productive. Been working on my jewelry as well trying to whore myself out and get people to shop at my online store as business has been a little slow since X-mas. Other than that I pretty much chill with my dogs, watch movies and play video games. Its good time.

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Well, hello ladies and gents. Its been a long time since I have posted anything on here on account of my laptop crapping out and now my desktop only wants to work on occasion. I have borrowed my hubby's laptop so I finally get to have internet So it seems that I will need a new computer though I don't quite have the money right now as I am currently unemployed. Oh yes, that job I hated....yeah, they fired me. Thank God though because I despised working there. I feel tons better. I'm currently looking at going back to school and potentially getting a college degree so that's super exciting for me. My love life had been pretty much a giant cluster fuck, but what can you do? I've been separated from my hubby for about 2 months during which time I have been sorta dating someone else. That of course kinda fizzled out a lil bit as he started dating a coworker of mine which is why I got fired.......but that's a long story. So my hubby knows about the whole ordeal and yet still wants to be with me, but I'm not sure that I want to be with him so......yeah. that's where things stand right now. I applied for admission to the local community college so hopefully I can get in some classes while I don't havbe a job. Wish me luck!

Love you guys and thanks for reading about my life story. Kisses

I figure I should take a moment to update my blog. I haven't been on the net much lately as my laptop crashed so I gotta actually sit at the desktop and can't do it while I'm watching tv. I've been pretty busy as well. I took a brief hiatus from the jewelry making due to being exhausted, obsessively playing Zelda or Final Fantasy, and I haven't sold much of late so I've run out of storage space for all the jewelry I already have. Hmmm...me and the Mr. are having some problems and are probably going to seperate for awhile. Its been pretty tense around the house of late. Hopefully things will work themselves out.

lil update cuz I don't wanna rewrite everything:

Ah, yes things are still tense around the house it seems. He will be home in a little bit to get some of his stuff so he can go stay with his brother. He was going to wait a couple weeks before moving out, but he wants to buy a new car and I'm a little less than happy about it so he wants to leave now. Its just sad how things that start out so great can end up so crappy. It breaks my heart that he is leaving, but it is for the best. We need to learn to be strong individuals before we could ever hope to be a strong couple. I don't know if we will ever get back together, but only time will tell. Its just hard for now. I've never lived on my own before so this will be a new experience for me. I am both saddened and excited about the situation and what will become of my future.