Things have been so crazy lately. It seems that I must move back in with my parents for a little while. The whole not being able to pay bills thing is getting a little old. That's going to be a shock to my system. I got used to keeping odd hours and I have a younger brother and sister that are extremely loud in the morning when I woud be trying to sleep. I suppose it will be nice to get a few home cooked meals again. Pasta Roni can only go so far. I have two weeks to move out of my house and get all my shit in storage. It's not so much fun. I apparently have a lot of shit. Sadly, this whole situation takes me away from my SG time. I get cranky without my SG! Maybe if I move back home, I'll finally be able to afford those new tattoos I've been wanting. Hmmm...
Muah ha ha ha ha, vacation at last! Not that I really have anything to do. I don't have to work at least. Sadly, it's gotten cold here. I realize it is November, but I hate cold weather. If I can't walk around the house naked, it's too damn cold! I feel sooo not sexy in sweats. I suppose I could catch on my video game playing, and maybe do a bit of
X-mas shopping. I just got Mario Power Tennis, so I'm sure there are some fun things to unlock. I'm sure I'll think of somethingto do to keep myself occupied.
X-mas shopping. I just got Mario Power Tennis, so I'm sure there are some fun things to unlock. I'm sure I'll think of somethingto do to keep myself occupied.
I thought this was funny. Remarkably how I felt on Halloween.
One week 'til vacation! Well, I 'm not really going anywhere, but I'm not going to work so that's all that matters. I posted some of my rejected pics in my folder. They really weren't all that good, now that time had passed. I gotta come up with a kickass idea for a set. I really want to get another tat. I've got an idea for a backpiece, but it's gonna be 3 sittings at 500 a pop. I have other things that I needs to pay for, not to mention X-mas gifts to buy. I also have a tat on my chest that I want to cover up 'cuz the artist didn't do such a swell job and I have one near my hip that I did myself when I was 16 that I'd like to get fixed. I have such big plans and a wee little wallet.
One week 'til vacation! Well, I 'm not really going anywhere, but I'm not going to work so that's all that matters. I posted some of my rejected pics in my folder. They really weren't all that good, now that time had passed. I gotta come up with a kickass idea for a set. I really want to get another tat. I've got an idea for a backpiece, but it's gonna be 3 sittings at 500 a pop. I have other things that I needs to pay for, not to mention X-mas gifts to buy. I also have a tat on my chest that I want to cover up 'cuz the artist didn't do such a swell job and I have one near my hip that I did myself when I was 16 that I'd like to get fixed. I have such big plans and a wee little wallet.
Dammit! I sent in a SG set, but it got rejected. I can understand why, though. I got a little intimidated after seeing some of the other really great sets in the hopefuls group that got rejected as well. It's hard to tell with pics of yourself. Sometimes I'm too hard on myself, and sometimes I may not be hard enough. It's rough though. It's not like I can post it and ask people if I should submit it or not. Hmmm, I got the 6 months free, don't apply for at least three months, e-mail. Back to the drawing board. I really need a photographer that's close to home that knows what SG is looking for. I'm at a loss for ideas.
I'm so tired. I can't sleep for shit. I started taking anti-anxiety meds, herbal stuff, and it's made me super happy, but I can't sleep. The sad thing is, I started taking it hoping it would help me sleep through the night. I applied for another promotion, but sadly I was turned down again. Apparently I have to prove my sales capabilities before I can take an administrative position that focuses on operational stuff, which I am very good at. The thing that kills me is my new boss is a total wigger and acts like he's 16 and still in highschool. It pisses me off that he can get promoted, but I can't. I'm older (marginally, but still), have been with the company longer, and are waaaaay more capable. It just baffles the mind.
Hmm, I haven't written in awhile. Been busy I suppose. I also haven't had anything new or profound to say. I've been sleeping much better lately. 
I thought I was going to go crazy. I interviewed for a promotion at work, but I didn't get it. They already had someone in mind for the position, but felt the need to waste my time anyway. The interview went well so I think I will have a very good chance the next time something comes up so I guess it wasn't a total waste. I'm just tired of woking. It's such a waste of time. I should have been born rich. Not a spoiled bratty rich where I got to go out and make reality shows about my richness, but rich enough so I wouldn't have to work just for the sake of making money and paying my bills. I would like to focus more on my photography, but I just don't have the time. By the time I get home from work, I'm brainfried and just want to sit in front of the TV and drool on myself. I would like to go to school part-time and maybe read a book once in awhile. Working makes me stupid. Work sucks!
I thought I was going to go crazy. I interviewed for a promotion at work, but I didn't get it. They already had someone in mind for the position, but felt the need to waste my time anyway. The interview went well so I think I will have a very good chance the next time something comes up so I guess it wasn't a total waste. I'm just tired of woking. It's such a waste of time. I should have been born rich. Not a spoiled bratty rich where I got to go out and make reality shows about my richness, but rich enough so I wouldn't have to work just for the sake of making money and paying my bills. I would like to focus more on my photography, but I just don't have the time. By the time I get home from work, I'm brainfried and just want to sit in front of the TV and drool on myself. I would like to go to school part-time and maybe read a book once in awhile. Working makes me stupid. Work sucks!It is too fucking early to be awake! 
I've been up since 2:30. Luckily I'm off today, but I do have to go in for a day ruining meeting in about 3 hours where I get to hear about all the things I'm doing wrong or just not well enough. My boss better buy breakfast at least. There aren't even any crappy movies on that I want to watch and I'm not tired enough for infomercials. There is this painter guy they show on channel 2 in the afternoon that I used to always watch whenever I wanted to take a nap. They really should play it at three in the morning when I have trouble sleeping. It would knock me right out. It's amazing the things you think about when you're laying in bed not able to sleep. For a little while when I was still a little delirious, I was convinced that God was punishing me for something that I did yesterday (I can't remember what now.) I'm not Christian, but people I work with where having religious debates yesterday so apparently it put the fear of God in me, I don't know. I've been having really weird dreams lately. I dream about completely mundane things, so when I wake up, I think it was real 'cuz why the hell would I dream about that. I've been doing things wrong at work because I thought we changed the procedure, but really it was a dream. The other night, I dreamt that I was laying in bed having a nightmare so I woke my dream self up and actually thought I was really awake. I seriously can't remember what is a dream and what is real. I'm starting to act like a psycho because I keep saying things and people look at me with that 'what the hell are you talking about' expression. Hmm..now I am getting very sleepy. Maybe I should try to go back to bed
I've been up since 2:30. Luckily I'm off today, but I do have to go in for a day ruining meeting in about 3 hours where I get to hear about all the things I'm doing wrong or just not well enough. My boss better buy breakfast at least. There aren't even any crappy movies on that I want to watch and I'm not tired enough for infomercials. There is this painter guy they show on channel 2 in the afternoon that I used to always watch whenever I wanted to take a nap. They really should play it at three in the morning when I have trouble sleeping. It would knock me right out. It's amazing the things you think about when you're laying in bed not able to sleep. For a little while when I was still a little delirious, I was convinced that God was punishing me for something that I did yesterday (I can't remember what now.) I'm not Christian, but people I work with where having religious debates yesterday so apparently it put the fear of God in me, I don't know. I've been having really weird dreams lately. I dream about completely mundane things, so when I wake up, I think it was real 'cuz why the hell would I dream about that. I've been doing things wrong at work because I thought we changed the procedure, but really it was a dream. The other night, I dreamt that I was laying in bed having a nightmare so I woke my dream self up and actually thought I was really awake. I seriously can't remember what is a dream and what is real. I'm starting to act like a psycho because I keep saying things and people look at me with that 'what the hell are you talking about' expression. Hmm..now I am getting very sleepy. Maybe I should try to go back to bed
