Sex is not coming easy to me and my wife these days. But I am patient. I also think that I can explore a little and take the pressure off of her. Maybe this is idealistic- maybe we're programmed to only be with one person at a time. I guess I'll have to see. I have a trip planned to NY next week. Maybe something will happen then.....

Am I too old to explore my sexuality? I don't feel old. I still get excited about the possibility of having sexual experiences outside of my comfort zone. But as I look around me, especially on this site, I seem to be in the company of people who are in their sexual prime. Will they, too, ever get old like me, or will their youth be eternal?

I've found a cool magazine called "Spread." It focuses on issues that people in the sex industry face. I love to hear the inside scoop about such things. It helps me empathize more with sex workers, etc., were I to become involved with them

I love my wife. She's going through a period in which she has few sexual needs, and it's wearing on me. She is an extremely spiritual person, and perhaps for that reason, sex has never come easily to her. I am quite sexual and feel that sexual exploration is a vital part of my being. I view it as a manifestation of the life force that pulsates through each of us. It's not the only manifestation of that force, however, and it just so happens that for my wife it manifests in non-sexual ways. Not to say that she doesn't at times enjoy sex- just that to here it's not a necessary component of life. Thus my existential quandry. I want to explore a facet of life that my wife is indifferent to, yet we're bound to each of through our intense spiritual connection.

Well, here I am- my first blog post. Why am I here? To be honest, my warm, fuzzy life with my wife and kids needs a little spicing up. I just got the go ahead from my wife to explore my sexuality. I guess what I'm looking for is the chance to chat with other like-minded, artsy sex-fiends about all that's out there that I'm missing! This site reminds me of Burning Man in a lot of ways; it's a safe open environment where I can dialog with folks like me and not feel like a perv...... javascript:insertSmilie('',%20'insertTarget');

This is some artwork I found online that I connect with...