quick picture update!

I am the nasty version of the blue caterpillar from Alice in Wonderland.

I am also a camera + attention whore.
My dear friend organises a series of parties (http://horrorshow.ru) and this is me @ one of them.
I came therese wanting to stay unnoticed but on the ned every photographer toook like 100 pictures of me. sweet

(you can see more at fotofreak.ru

I take bath while listening to the Agent Provocateur album "Peep Show"

and i have no more intetesting idead for an update

I am God of sea people!!!

I passed my midyear without any "C"s (.a.k.a. awesome))

I'm going snowboarding to France in 10 days

And..... I finally have New Hair *dance*

Moscow is +3GMT, so...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

p.s.: my current mood:
It's Christmas time again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand all year
I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer
You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone.

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate Christmas,
Happy New Year to those who celebrate New Year
and just some nice holidays to everybody else.

I think I should always copy-paste the same lame excuse about not posting for a long time

I think I'll start with a rant one more time.
You know, dear readers and friends.
I've never ever said that americans are stupid, the english are ugly, the french are gay, the germans are all nazis and.... see, i'm even out of stereotypes! i don't even know enough of them because i think they are ridiculous.
But still I keep getting idiotic question about Russia. "I didn't know people speak English in Moscow", "Is it -30C there?', "Is it true that if I come to Russia I'll get robbed?" and etc.
At first I wanted to write about how i would like to scream some defending things in their faces, but now that I think about it.... just know, my 'dears'. You are pathetic and miserable.
I was talking, of course, only about those people who ask those kind of questions.

So.
I don't really have any interesting news to tell you..
The University has been.... so-so. I guess I just have pretty high standards.
I completely lost contact with my ex-friends, haven't made any new ones yet.
No plans for the New Year so far (read: Christmas. in Russia we celebrate the New Year like most of you celebrate Christmas, it's a tradition since the times religion was banned during the USSR).
Me and by man have celebrated 1 year together last month. That's pretty sweet, because I've been in a lot of stress lately, but he tries to help me even when I'm screaming at him or behaving like a hysteric bitch (that happens sometimes, i need to see a doctor).
I am now having some exams so I hope they are the reason I'm not going out at all, not the fact that I'm becoming a looser.
Well, I guess that's gonna be me my goal for 2008: get a better life
Yeah, and taking more pictures :p

How about you, my friends? How are you?

Damn, I forgot to update again X_X

1) I'm probably the only one that weird @ this site, but honestly, I really don't care about the boobies, pussies and butts here. I mean, I love seeing gorgeous naked ladies but I the things I really enjoy in the sets are their looks, their faces, bodymodifications and the qiality of photography.
Just always wanted to get this off my chest.
p.s.: Check out Sawa's latest set! her smile stole my heart!!!

2) The update I was 100% sure I posted here... damn my bad memory (written in september)
Things have been going mostly well lately.
Out trip to Portugal was fantastic, I love this country so much, the climate is simply awesome.
m a n y s u n n y P I C T U R E S ! ! !

My new university is great. Good location, very nice old building with a classis university atmosphere and people and teachers are not so smug as in my pervious one.
Although it's hard to study with those who have just graduated from high school, because they are so irresponsible and so childish sometimes. Haven't met anyone interesting yet (we do have interesting people, i just never got to knowing any fo them), but that's ok, because this time I do to university to study and I have my personal life separately.

In bad news I have been feeling no so good lately, my health problems are starting to show themselves more and more often. Like today. I'm writing this because I just couldn't go to the uni, I felt too sick. No need to worry now (at least I hope so), I'm gonna visit a doctor really soon.

Well, what else can I say.
It's autumn and I feel good, because I feel like my soul is alive and I feel like I reborn every autumn.
I'm sitting at home most of my time and suffer a artist's block though, but I hope some of my friends will help me get out of this and I think that when the leaves will become yellow, I'll just have to start at least going to walks with my camera.
Like this one, when my lovely Llama (my boyfriend) practically forced me to go out and take a few pics... we had a great time)

Well, I guess that's it for now.
Thank you for still reading me, hope I was at least a bit interesting %))
With hugs, Marie.

Omg... I'm never gonna eat watermelon again...
I ate two small pieces and feel like I've eaten an elephant or even smth bigger...
So while i can only move my wrists to type and luckily van see over my full belly, I'll write a new entry:

Things have been going pretty good recently.
My last exam is in August and hopefully after it I'm going to Portugal. Great place to rest. Sea, sun, beautiful beaches and tasty food.

warning: many pictures ahead!

hope you enjoyed that =))
thank you all so much for watching and commenting =D <3

xoxoxox, marie. ^-^

I think I have insomnia so I'll write an entry.

Blabber first, random pics next.
Blabber part:
Introduction: it might sound I'm some kind of a Twlly-obsessed fan, but that's just a coincidence.
So I was browsing Twwly's Warm Sunset set.. It's one of the first SG sets I remember.
I remember being so stunned... That time I was a tattoo/body modification appreciator, but never actually seen any really good work (that was before i discover russian tattoo communities and etc.). Needless to say, I never saw not typical-model girls look so pretty. I realize that what I say now is probably what people usually write like a few weeks after first seeing SG, but whatever, i feel like it. I just feel that I changed so much in a positive way.. I don't live amputee people weird looks, I don't think skinny is the only way to be pretty.. i mean, i used to say "i'm fat!" two years ago. Now when I see a person even bigger than me saying smth like that, I say "Are you crazy??". One girl who is like 1.5 times smaller than me once said she's "soo fat" and "needs to loose weight so badly". Well, I said "you're an idiot. Even I'm not fat". And it feels sooo good.
I can go on and on with examples but I think I'll stop here.
Just wanted to share these happy thoughts =))


Little life Update part:
I'm having exams for my university in a week or so (a reminder: i quit the previous one which my mom made me go to. in russia we pass different exams to get into a university, not just count the scholl exams' results. that's an old tradition, but it'll soon be gone as far as i know). So I'm trying to learn all the stuff I've forgotten after months of doing nothing, but I feel like i really want_it this time. I'm gonna study advertising, the university is very old and cute and it was 100% my_choice. So I really hope that things will work out this time))
Things with my boyfriend have been going not bad so far, we now have more time to spend together and this weekend we're visiting my country-house. Sweet ^-^
I'll try to catch up with all your blog entries, because, my friends, i really do_care about what you write, i'm not a selfish bitch, at least i try not to be one))

Pictures!!!
Sorry if you might not see all of them, some are more than 700 pixels wide.

xoxoxo, feeleasy.

Oh my freaking God..... x_x
I came back home like an hour ago (it was about 1 AM here).
A guy walks with in the elevator with me...
He pushes the "7" button (the floor i live at) and says "hey, it's nice to see naked men on your balcony"...
Turns out he's my neighbour... holy freaking zombie jesus..... how the hell didn't i see him??
Eww... it just feels so gross....
it's unbeliveable!!
X_X

I feel like I want to write here again.
Funny, but every time I'm depressed I write blogs in english.
I've been havin a probably typical teenage (yes, i consider myself teenage) issues. You know, thoughts about life and death and so on... the worth case ever.
It's just that... I have pretty much everything. I quit my university and now I'm trying to get in a new one, which I choose, which I like, not the one my family made me go to.
I have a loving and supportive boyfriend. We've known each other since our 1st year at school (since we were 7 years old, my god!) and we recently celebrated our 6 months together. But it still feels like we've been together forever, in a good way. We both try not to be selfish (his mother is a... psycologist? terepist? not sure about the correct word), we understand each other perfictly... lately there's been some tiny problems but that's only because he's having exams, sleeps for like 1 hour a day, i study.. and etc. It's ok in general.
I look the way I want to now. I stopped caring about my weight and I feel I'm perfect even wih extra kilos on my belly.
I have great interesting friends.
I have everything I ever wanted.. I don't feel like I have a goal in life anymore..
Everything seems worthless now because I'll die anyway. It's a shame to say that, but I don't want to die. I enjoy my life so much... I just can't believe it might end someday.
I know that for those who have problems in life these words probably sound very stupid... She has everything andshe complains, what a bitch!
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy life. I'm incredibly thankfull that I have it.
It's probably because I'm so lonely at home... I go to bed and I feel so alone and forgotten... I have nightmares, I can't study... stuff like that.
I sure hope it's just a matter of time... I'll be strong, I'll be fine.
After all, I can always go to Twlly's blog and get a load of positive energy, she's so inspiring. =)

Anyways, he are a few pics so you won't forget how I look.

p.s. sorry if i made many mistakes, i had no language practice for a looong time...

Warning! lots of pics!!

getting this off my chest kinda made me feel a little bit better.
thank you for watching.