So I have no idea how certification went because everything and anything went wrong right before I was set to start there was a local outage and I couldn't get online after that I was denied access into the chatroom I had to go on and had to go to live chat and when I was finally told to go on my whole system crapped out again eventually though i did take a few calls and I guess I did decent but I don't know if I am passing and I still have tomorrow to go, but now none of it seems to matter, this old woman that my mom sort of takes care of ended up in the ER a couple days ago they did every test possible and the doctor said she was fine and just had a slight kidney infection, I guess they were wrong though because things have not gotten better and now they are keeping her at least an extra week and put her in dialysis and its so bad they had to hook it up to her neck! That is so heartbreaking she was so happy because the doctor said she was fine and the next day she is on dialysis because her kidneys have failed?!?! I kind of hate western medicine. My mom is in hysterics which absolutley breaks my heart so I went onto to this site to see what the life expectancy would be for someone who is on dialysis and found this forum with all these people in their 20's and 30's who have a life expectancy of 5-10 years and i just broke down. It seems so stupid to care about a fucking test when you see things like that, All those people had such amazing attitudes and I felt so horrible for being healthy and depressed, It made so mad at the world that people can be taken away so early it just seems so wrong...
ricos:
Wow, sorry to hear about your Mom's friend and that she's (your Mom) taking it hard (understandable). I know what you mean about about people going through stuff like that having great attitudes and it making you feel petty about your own problems but don't be hard on yourself. Depression (well I don't claim to know you but say for example) is tough becuase you don't really know what to fight or what to be upset with, it's kinda everything and nothing at the same time. It's frustrating. Don't be to hard on yourself. I know a test seems like a dumb thing to worry about now but hopefully you will do well. I'm sure it seems not important now (understandably again) but it will at some point. I hope things work out for your Mom's friend and for your Mom too. Good luck and hang in there.