So I don't know who did it but (though I have some ideas ) but someone reactivated my SG account! Thank you so much. I've missed all you guys! What a kind thing to do, I'm touched!

I don't know of anybody reads this anymore and I am so sorry for not writing for such a long time but I am home alone right now and trying sooo hard not to hurt myself. I was looking for crisis hotlines to call but could not find a right one. If anyone has time right now would you mind talking to me? I'm so sorry again for not coming on for so long I am just trying to survive. But I have no one to talk to and I'm feeling really REALLY low. Thanks you so much to anyone who is out there and I'm sorry again.

Chris got back from China! yay!!! I totally redid our apartment so he would be surprised and he was I even organized our bookshelves by color of book which was a HUGE undertaking. Here are the final results but ugh I wish I would have remembered before pictures for maximum reaction!

and sorry the pictures are terrible! Hope everyone is having a good Sunday

Good morning! My sweetie gets back from China in two days!!!! I've missed him so so much. He got to pet pandas there so I'm also a bit jealous. Anyways... I just woke up so I think my ramblings are still kind of incoherent. I have a busy day ahead but I figured I would write something just to say hi =)


So my new girl crush is Mika Nakashima. I thought she was awesome in Nana but I saw this video on youtube and thought she was so stunning as is the video...



Oh if anyone wants me to translate the story let me know!

Hi Guys!
I am so so sorry it has been so long! I have been trying to get my business up and running so I can afford to live and it has been a bit challenging but I promise I will really try and make an effort to come on more. Everyone on here (especially in silliness) is so amazing I dont want to lose contact. I hope everyone is well and I'll checkup on blogs soon!

Thanks guys sorry for the pity party I'm trying super hard to be positive. I dont think I have it in me right now to search for another job so I am going to try my hardest and make my little businesses work, I;m kind of nervous... Speaking of which I started making embroidered cards, what do ya think? Also have a good day everyone! Hugs...



Also just to note the car was drawn all weird like that on purpose for the look if I wanted to (at least I hope, I could draw a much better car!)

Yep so I have been terminated from my job, what did that last a month? Yep now I am totally screwed again

Oh Its snowing outside and its so lovely, lovely , lovely!!!!!!

I miss everyone in silliness! I hope everyone is doing awesome!

Ok I swear I will be on more now that certification is over because I got the job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!! Woot!