Yesterday I shot a friends SG app photos. It served mostly to remind me of how much I could use a good throw.

C'mon ladies, stop kidding yourselves - low standards are hip.

I just rejoined SG a few days ago, how I've missed this site.

A lot has been going on in my life of late, some cool, some less cool.. I quit my old job and took six weeks off to just relax and sort myself out.

I did a lot more relaxing than anything else.

School started up again and now I'm completely busy with upper division art courses... and yet somehow I found time to get a job as a designer for the IdahoSTARS foundation (it's a paid internship, and I get to work mostly from home) which deals mostly with children and child care.

My ex finaly moved out of town so I can quit bumping into her and getting all emo about it. This of course has put me on the prowl again and it's worse than ever... My neck is a bit tender from being snapped back and forth watching the girls stroll around campus in short skirts.

Ah well.. I'm tired and drunk. Well, buzzed anyway..

I also got a new cat (cuthbert) and a new hairstyle (bright green mohawk) and one of them is attacking the other.

Goodnight.

So I turned 21 today...

I'm so glad I only have to do that once.

Unless I'm reincarnated.


I had a keggar on sat night and went to the bars at 12:02 sunday morning. If I did the math right, I'm a little beyond the '21 run'.... 5 bars and 6 friends buying me shots at each one, plus I bumped into a whole bunch of my coworkers.

Surprisingly there isn't any vomit on anything, that i've located yet anyway. I did wake up naked and bloody, but the naked is normal and i'm pretty sure that the bloody was just a bloody nose or something... maybe I punched myself while sleeping.

I also remember flashing my boss.
I might have to answer for that.

We're getting close to that time again. New years.
I figure that I should get my resolutions out of the way now so that I'm not making any while drunk.

Be more creative:
This of course sounds like a silly resolution. But I haven't been feeling creative for a long time, maybe a whole year. When I was younger I would get excited over all the diffrent ways to do a project, and now I look for the easiest and cheapest usualy, and when easy and cheap aren't in harmony I usualy side with easy. I'm tired of that. I'm tired of being that person. It's not who I am. I have so many ideas (good ones I think) that I've just been putting off forever, using the weather, my financial situation or my sour moods as excuses. That's not at all cool. I'm sick of it and I'm going to stop putting shit aside. Bull rush motherfucker.

Get my money un fucked:
I've had some medical bills and various other shit dogging me for the last couple of years, credit cards that are getting paid off at a snails pace (if at all) and the like. Currently I'm about 3700 in debt on credit cards and a few misc bills. The goal this year is to half that. By paying off my smaller cards first (and then not using them) I will be free to tackle the larger one at an increased rate and eventualy (maybe even by this time next year) have that fucker off my back. Not only will this help put my credit back into good standing (gonna need good credit when I move to the coast) but It will also get rid of a lot of stress for me.

Get a new job:
This one is going to take a while. I really like working at the Pita Pit most days, but I'm getting tired of the drama. People coming to work with so much substance (a variety) in their blood that it's almost impossible to get anything actualy done. I could stand it though, it's not that terrible 90% of the time. But really I want to be doing something in my industry (photography/graphic design/webdesign) and actualy gaining some experiance before I get dropped on my ass out in the 'real world'. I'm planning on working at PhotoServices again this fall, but that isn't going to stop me from looking for something right now.

Drink more:
Sounds counter productive. All I mean is that I need to go out more, go to the bars (i'm 21 this febuary) and to more parties. I need to loosen up a bit, I've been holding onto the safety bars so hard that they have little dimples in them... and that's no way to ride the coaster.

Find A Girl:
Originaly I thought that a better resolution would be 'stop falling in love', but that's just not within my nature. I just need to find somone that will love me back for once. That's the tricky part. I guess this isn't a resolution as much as a hope. a prayer even. So many of my problems just fade into the background noise when I have someone to lavish affection on. At the same time, a secondary resolution falls under this one. Get over it - I have to learn (and you'd think I would have by now) that not everyone in the world is going to like me to the same degree that I like them. Not everyone is willing to sacrafice to the same level as I am to make a relationship work. In short, be more guarded... which is going to be hard for me...
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Other than being in a journaling mood, tonight is pretty boring... Sitting here listning to Ben folds and meandering through "time enough for love" by robert heinlein.

I'm spending christmas alone this year again... I'm really getting sick of it to be honest... I live in a college town, and don't really deal with the family well so visiting isn't on the top of my list...

So no one is here... and i'm fucking cold... ghaa..

I'm not really interested in keeping a journal here... to many of the damn things already... but if you'd like to read about me and look at some of my work then I welcome you to check it out @ Photojunkie.net