Man, I'm feeling lazy lately. I've been getting stuff done but I am sloooooooooooooooow to action. I can help but notice a direct correlation between internet usage and my (lack of) activity level. Devil box!!
Alright, time to get off here and design some fliers for my friend's Sustainable Christmas workshop. (Yes, yes, badass we are!)
Actually, in light of that, here are some random ideas to make your Christmas more sustainable and cheaper!
-make a donation in someone's name (or ask that others do so for you)
-hand crafted gifts are always great! (knit a scarf, create an art piece, refurbish used items, etc.)
-offer favor exchanges, such as cooking a meal or helping out with housework, etc. (I'm going to clean my parents' house while they're asleep on Christmas eve)
-plan fun activities instead of giving gifts
-buy non-electric appliances (This store is awesome)
-wrap gifts in newspaper...you can decorate it with paint, marker, magazine scraps, etc.
-buy fair-trade gifts from sites like this, where portions of your purchase go to worthy causes
-or, just don't celebrate Christmas. It's a scam, anyway. And was originally a celebration of the solstice, damnit!
Ok, that's all I've got. If anyone else has ideas to add I'd love to hear them.
Alright, time to get off here and design some fliers for my friend's Sustainable Christmas workshop. (Yes, yes, badass we are!)
Actually, in light of that, here are some random ideas to make your Christmas more sustainable and cheaper!
-make a donation in someone's name (or ask that others do so for you)
-hand crafted gifts are always great! (knit a scarf, create an art piece, refurbish used items, etc.)
-offer favor exchanges, such as cooking a meal or helping out with housework, etc. (I'm going to clean my parents' house while they're asleep on Christmas eve)
-plan fun activities instead of giving gifts
-buy non-electric appliances (This store is awesome)
-wrap gifts in newspaper...you can decorate it with paint, marker, magazine scraps, etc.
-buy fair-trade gifts from sites like this, where portions of your purchase go to worthy causes
-or, just don't celebrate Christmas. It's a scam, anyway. And was originally a celebration of the solstice, damnit!
Ok, that's all I've got. If anyone else has ideas to add I'd love to hear them.
Um.....so I canceled my account almost 2 months ago, but after receiving numerous emails saying that I had new messages in my SG inbox, I decided to attempt to log in.....wtf!? Hmmm.....
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You know....I'm kinda glad that I'm still able to get on here. I'm able to look at my old posts and see how much I've grown, re-hash some old memories...
I just read my post from last year about my girl committing suicide. As painful as it is I'm glad I still have that....being able to experience those raw emotions again makes me remember how precious and beautiful she was, and how lucky I am to have love and be loved by all the wonderful folks in my little bubble. Life just wouldn't be the same without love and friendship....even if it is difficult sometimes. Hm.
I miss her, still. Even though I know her soul lives on in it's connection with that which gives us life, I miss her manifested, human form. I know it may sound weird, but I really do believe that I can sense her presence somewhere in the ether. Sometimes she sends me little messages in the form of sunlight or little birds, letting me know that she is at peace. That we are all at peace, deep down, past the bullshit that can bury us if we're not careful.
As for me I am doing pretty damn good. I am enjoying teacher training at the yoga studio, I am healthy and my little apartment is now full of life, since my boyfriend moved back in with me. (Along with his cat, my dog Pebbles, and our newest addition, Simon the wily kitten.) I'm not stripping anymore, (took some time off and got my senses back,) but I am working at the club as a bartender every other weekend, which is great. I'm not employed anywhere else at the moment but I'm always find interesting, unorthodox ways to make money. Life is so much more fun without a job, haha.
That's all for now....I guess I must have some kind of unfinished business here; a lesson to be learned, perhaps. We shall see.
Peace.
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You know....I'm kinda glad that I'm still able to get on here. I'm able to look at my old posts and see how much I've grown, re-hash some old memories...
I just read my post from last year about my girl committing suicide. As painful as it is I'm glad I still have that....being able to experience those raw emotions again makes me remember how precious and beautiful she was, and how lucky I am to have love and be loved by all the wonderful folks in my little bubble. Life just wouldn't be the same without love and friendship....even if it is difficult sometimes. Hm.
I miss her, still. Even though I know her soul lives on in it's connection with that which gives us life, I miss her manifested, human form. I know it may sound weird, but I really do believe that I can sense her presence somewhere in the ether. Sometimes she sends me little messages in the form of sunlight or little birds, letting me know that she is at peace. That we are all at peace, deep down, past the bullshit that can bury us if we're not careful.
As for me I am doing pretty damn good. I am enjoying teacher training at the yoga studio, I am healthy and my little apartment is now full of life, since my boyfriend moved back in with me. (Along with his cat, my dog Pebbles, and our newest addition, Simon the wily kitten.) I'm not stripping anymore, (took some time off and got my senses back,) but I am working at the club as a bartender every other weekend, which is great. I'm not employed anywhere else at the moment but I'm always find interesting, unorthodox ways to make money. Life is so much more fun without a job, haha.
That's all for now....I guess I must have some kind of unfinished business here; a lesson to be learned, perhaps. We shall see.
Peace.
I am officially over this site. It was cool for a while, but no longer holds a place in my life.
Peace be with you all.
Peace be with you all.
I am genuinely, deeply sad that Michael Jackson died. I usually don't care about celebrity stuff, but he was my hero when I was a child and I have always loved his music and his beautiful spirit. And no, I don't think he was capable of molesting children. I've always thought those accusations were false and disgusting. He was one of a kind, incredibly talented and generous.
MJ, you are loved and will be greatly missed.
MJ, you are loved and will be greatly missed.
Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh. Yoga.
Today my heart was pryed open to the world, vulnerable and bleeding, and the world compassionately opened up to my heart in return. I haven't felt this good, this light and bouyant, in years. Even after having only 6 hours of sleep in 3 days! And I'm on the rag!
I feel like I've finally found my path, and it is filled with beauty. It's not an easy path, an uphill climb with lots of places to trip up, lots of twists....and backbends, and forward bends, and lunges and handstands....
Wish me luck on my journey. I wish the same for you.
Today my heart was pryed open to the world, vulnerable and bleeding, and the world compassionately opened up to my heart in return. I haven't felt this good, this light and bouyant, in years. Even after having only 6 hours of sleep in 3 days! And I'm on the rag!
I feel like I've finally found my path, and it is filled with beauty. It's not an easy path, an uphill climb with lots of places to trip up, lots of twists....and backbends, and forward bends, and lunges and handstands....
Wish me luck on my journey. I wish the same for you.
Life is great. Fuck the bullshit.
I'm in a really good place right now. Spring may have something to do with that, or maybe it's the yoga. Or maybe it's all the great people in my life, or the books I have been reading, or all the good food I have been eating. Or maybe it's because I have realized that life isn't perfect and that it's much more fun to watch it unfold instead of trying to pry it open. PRYING OPEN MY THIRD EYE!! It's funny, I always thought that was a metaphor until I read about the actual procedure of Tibetan monks literally forcing open the thrid eye by gouging out a little hole in the forehead. Apparently one can see the world for what it truly is, with auras and everything, but the procedure is only done to those select few who are pure enough to handle the responsibility of knowing absolute truth.
It's pretty fascinating, life. And now, back to the present. Peace.
I'm in a really good place right now. Spring may have something to do with that, or maybe it's the yoga. Or maybe it's all the great people in my life, or the books I have been reading, or all the good food I have been eating. Or maybe it's because I have realized that life isn't perfect and that it's much more fun to watch it unfold instead of trying to pry it open. PRYING OPEN MY THIRD EYE!! It's funny, I always thought that was a metaphor until I read about the actual procedure of Tibetan monks literally forcing open the thrid eye by gouging out a little hole in the forehead. Apparently one can see the world for what it truly is, with auras and everything, but the procedure is only done to those select few who are pure enough to handle the responsibility of knowing absolute truth.
It's pretty fascinating, life. And now, back to the present. Peace.
GAH, I just wrote a huge awesome update but it was lost when I opened a new tab. WTF!?
Ok, in summary....I'm moving into a new place, my OWN place, finally! Love the apartment, love the location, and it's better for Pebbles the Wonder Dog because it's on the first floor. She fucked up her back last week going down our wooden stairs, and we've had to carry her up and down ever since. She was in a lot of pain but luckily my badass vet practices holistic medicine and gave her some Chinese herbs and acupuncture and she's back to her old self. (Meaning, at almost 16 years of age, she's back to tugging me along on her leash and rolling around in the grass.) I love my dog, she's such an inspiration to me. Anyway, my boyfriend and our roommate are moving as well, but not for another month or so, and we're hoping to be neighbors because there are a few more apartments for rent on my new street. As much as I crave independence and space, I still want to be as close to them as possible.
In other news, yoga has become the main focus of my life. I'm practicing almost every day, (it's hard sometimes because the only space I can do it in is the living room, but that will change soon!) and it has done wonders for my mind, body, and spirit. I'm going to start training to be a teacher in about six months. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited, I've finally found my path and it feels amazing. I can't wait to share the wonders of yoga with my students!
Work has been good, money-wise. I can't wait to get out of the stripclub, though. The psychological tolls are too much sometimes. But when I walk home with $500 bucks in my pocket, it's still too good to let go.....yet.
Btw, if you haven't checked out Opaque's new set, do so. For obvious reasons. (Gorgeous!)
Take care, folks.
Ok, in summary....I'm moving into a new place, my OWN place, finally! Love the apartment, love the location, and it's better for Pebbles the Wonder Dog because it's on the first floor. She fucked up her back last week going down our wooden stairs, and we've had to carry her up and down ever since. She was in a lot of pain but luckily my badass vet practices holistic medicine and gave her some Chinese herbs and acupuncture and she's back to her old self. (Meaning, at almost 16 years of age, she's back to tugging me along on her leash and rolling around in the grass.) I love my dog, she's such an inspiration to me.
Anyway, my boyfriend and our roommate are moving as well, but not for another month or so, and we're hoping to be neighbors because there are a few more apartments for rent on my new street. As much as I crave independence and space, I still want to be as close to them as possible. In other news, yoga has become the main focus of my life. I'm practicing almost every day, (it's hard sometimes because the only space I can do it in is the living room, but that will change soon!) and it has done wonders for my mind, body, and spirit. I'm going to start training to be a teacher in about six months. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited, I've finally found my path and it feels amazing. I can't wait to share the wonders of yoga with my students!
Work has been good, money-wise. I can't wait to get out of the stripclub, though. The psychological tolls are too much sometimes. But when I walk home with $500 bucks in my pocket, it's still too good to let go.....yet.
Btw, if you haven't checked out Opaque's new set, do so. For obvious reasons. (Gorgeous!)
Take care, folks.
Or rather, I've become bored with it.
It's funny how you can become addicted to something as silly as a website. But that's what this is. I don't get much of anything useful or pleasurable out of this site anymore, and I'm over trying to be a Suicidegirl. (Not that I ever tried that hard, but the current process of becoming a model for this site is so daunting, and plus I no longer feel a need for internet validation.) I'm also over reading about the lives of people I will probably never meet. Not that i don't respect or admire those people anymore, such as James or Lily or any of my other "faves." Reading about these women has definitely shaped my reality and my ideals of who I'd like to be, and for that I am grateful. But I'm more focused on my life and creating my own story now, one that I would want to read about.
I'm still undecided as to whether or not to cancel my subscription, because as I said I am addicted to this site. I've invested a lot of time and brain into Suicidegirls for the past 7 years. Instead, I think I'll just wean myself off it gradually. I kinda want to see what Pistolita's baby looks like, anyway. And I'd like to see what kind of concepts of loveliness Opaque or Oro or Annalee will present to us in future sets. It's these ladies that keep my membership hanging by a thread, haha. I enjoy the community as well, but only to a certain extent. I'm not the type of person to invest myself personally in creating "virtual" relationships. (No offense to those that are.) I am grateful for all the kindness and advice that I receive on here, though. The Suicidegirl community hosts a lot of great people.
So with that, I say goodnight. Thanks for reading. I'll be around.
It's funny how you can become addicted to something as silly as a website. But that's what this is. I don't get much of anything useful or pleasurable out of this site anymore, and I'm over trying to be a Suicidegirl. (Not that I ever tried that hard, but the current process of becoming a model for this site is so daunting, and plus I no longer feel a need for internet validation.) I'm also over reading about the lives of people I will probably never meet. Not that i don't respect or admire those people anymore, such as James or Lily or any of my other "faves." Reading about these women has definitely shaped my reality and my ideals of who I'd like to be, and for that I am grateful. But I'm more focused on my life and creating my own story now, one that I would want to read about.
I'm still undecided as to whether or not to cancel my subscription, because as I said I am addicted to this site. I've invested a lot of time and brain into Suicidegirls for the past 7 years. Instead, I think I'll just wean myself off it gradually. I kinda want to see what Pistolita's baby looks like, anyway. And I'd like to see what kind of concepts of loveliness Opaque or Oro or Annalee will present to us in future sets. It's these ladies that keep my membership hanging by a thread, haha. I enjoy the community as well, but only to a certain extent. I'm not the type of person to invest myself personally in creating "virtual" relationships. (No offense to those that are.) I am grateful for all the kindness and advice that I receive on here, though. The Suicidegirl community hosts a lot of great people.
So with that, I say goodnight. Thanks for reading. I'll be around.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT I just discovered Opeth. Love it!
I'm going to see Secret Chiefs Three with Les Claypool in March. That will be amazing.
Things with the folks are good, my mom was really understanding and my dad just wanted to squash it. I wish he weren't so quick to put his blinders back on, but oh well. I can't change him, he can't change me, but as long as there is love I think we can deal with that. I think that's all I wanted to know, if they would still love me with all of my exposed "flaws." And they do, of course.
I'm going to start bellydance lessons next week. I really love to dance, my god. I was watching this video with Bill Moyers interviewing Joseph Cambell, and Joe was talking about finding your "bliss." He was saying that if you go in the direction of your bliss, you'll be happy and fulfilled, basically. I've been thinking about that a lot. I feel so alive when I'm either dancing or singing at the top of my lungs. I also feel pretty amazing when I do yoga, but more of a lightness, a clarity. I'm thinking these things need to take on more of a central role in my life. Which makes me wonder if I should be studying graphic design or not....it's cool and all, but definitely not blissful. Not even close.
Hmmm....I'm always changing my mind. I wonder if I'll ever commit to anything. I think I was a gypsy in a past life, because I always find myself in a state of transition. I don't actually go anywhere physically, but my mind is very transient.
Anyway, enough about me. How is everyone else?
I'm going to see Secret Chiefs Three with Les Claypool in March. That will be amazing.
Things with the folks are good, my mom was really understanding and my dad just wanted to squash it. I wish he weren't so quick to put his blinders back on, but oh well. I can't change him, he can't change me, but as long as there is love I think we can deal with that. I think that's all I wanted to know, if they would still love me with all of my exposed "flaws." And they do, of course.
I'm going to start bellydance lessons next week. I really love to dance, my god. I was watching this video with Bill Moyers interviewing Joseph Cambell, and Joe was talking about finding your "bliss." He was saying that if you go in the direction of your bliss, you'll be happy and fulfilled, basically. I've been thinking about that a lot. I feel so alive when I'm either dancing or singing at the top of my lungs. I also feel pretty amazing when I do yoga, but more of a lightness, a clarity. I'm thinking these things need to take on more of a central role in my life. Which makes me wonder if I should be studying graphic design or not....it's cool and all, but definitely not blissful. Not even close.
Hmmm....I'm always changing my mind. I wonder if I'll ever commit to anything. I think I was a gypsy in a past life, because I always find myself in a state of transition. I don't actually go anywhere physically, but my mind is very transient.
Anyway, enough about me. How is everyone else?
