death spoon

i found the death spoon in an alley while i was working. it triggered a bunch of feelings in me. it amazes me that sometimes i still think i could go back to that world... what a sad sad way to go. later i went to pick up my daughters from school, and they were so happy...i realized what a good life i have, and why would i think even for a second being a junkie is ok. there is nothing in that blackened spoon for me. it says evil to me. so i kept it as a reminder and i'm going to use it in an art piece. i guess i was kinda bored.