temporary respite from 3-digit temperatures here today. i'm seeing a therapist now to help me talk out all my fears and anxieties. probably also going to start taking something for my ADD. trying to take my life into my hands again, and move it the way i want it to go. feelin' a bit like a slacker/failure/loser. i accomplished some pretty cool, pretty great things, and saw some amazing places throughout my late teens and early twenties, but i've felt stagnant for a long time now. for some reason i am afraid to do the things i know i'm good at, when i was not nearly so afraid of failure when i was younger. being jaded doesn't help. the saddest thing is that i know a lot of ways to improve but i just don't do them. i gotta get proactive. i saw this advice on fb today: "life's a bitch. fuck it like one." i need to get fucking.
oh man, can't wait for the weekend. specifically, Saturday after 5pm. One of my bestest friends turns 30 tomorrow, and we are having a blowout Sat. night. I have to work late Sun. morning, but i have mucho steam which must be blown off. i will drink lots of water, take b vitamins and ibuprofen, and party my tiny fucking ass off! it will be a blast! a blast, i tell you! a blast. obviously, i need it. 
ugh. i'm moving again. i hate it, and i'm probably just going to move again in six months. and probably again six months after that.
the good news is that i'll have a reliable connection for a while. yay! there goes my free time. so much SG i've missed!
the good news is that i'll have a reliable connection for a while. yay! there goes my free time. so much SG i've missed!
my friends Tim and Amie are getting married Saturday. i'm very excited for them!
we had the perfect bachelor party the other night, during which i received a wonderful table dance from a very enthusiastic stripper named cupcake. she had cartoon dinosaur tattoos. awesome.
there is going to be one crazy party after the wedding, too! i took several days off from work for recuperation.
oh! i got a new piece of glass. his name is The Green Shadow.
we had the perfect bachelor party the other night, during which i received a wonderful table dance from a very enthusiastic stripper named cupcake. she had cartoon dinosaur tattoos. awesome.
there is going to be one crazy party after the wedding, too! i took several days off from work for recuperation.
oh! i got a new piece of glass. his name is The Green Shadow.
slept through 3 alarms, overslept 2 hours, and still feel like i dragged ass most of the day. wtf? really not cool.
i need better batteries, or something. sigh.
i need better batteries, or something. sigh.
