Its been crazy lately. I've going to alot of shows. Mostly local shit. A good buddy of mine is a drummer for a new gutter punk band here, so I've been fucked up alot at there band practices. I think I am the doped up mascot. The whole Iraq thing is coming up soon. So i have been partying my ass off to no end. When i go home again i want to get 8 hours of tattoo work done.
what is up with people acting like there in high school all the time. I keep running into these army people with 14 year old mentality. Ive just sat in my room this weekend. Which kind of sucks.
I went to a party when i was home and met this girl. The next moring this girls phone number was in my phone. But i never remember meeting her. So i called her and we talk all the time. Last night we talked for three hours. But the weird thing is, i dont remember meeting her. I have a date with her. I cant wait to see how that goes. I think i might have to start drinking less.

I'm definetly having a good week. I've been running the office by myself, so there is no assholes around.
I'm finaly going to see a counselor. I think I have needed to see one for way to long. I just dont know what there going to do with me. Plus i found out that i am going to be a surplus soldier. Which means i will probably guard gates and prisoners.
Here is a pic of my new tattoo
This weekend i think i might go cause some havoc in downtown. I get the strangest looks around here. I dont even look that crazy anymore, but people down here live like they never have left there basement.
1 Where would you rather be lining?
2 How do you coupe with depression(personaly, not in general)?
3 What medium do you perfer, in terms of art?

I just made a $2700 investment in musical equipment. I spent 1700 on a powerbook, 500 on reaktor 4 from native instruments. Plus I am waiting on a midi keyboard that is coming in the mail soon.

But anyway i had an awesome fucking weekend. I went back home to cincinnati. There was so much going on. I got a new tattoo of Cthulhu on my arm. Plus I went to three keg parties all over the city and i saw alot of people i havent seen in forever. I can't wait till i can go to school. I just wish this whole military stint was over with. It fucking blows.

This has been a long month. I had to work 17 hour days for 2 weeks. But now that's all over with I get a 4 day weekend next week. I am going to Atlanta just so i can check out a new tattoo artist. I have been really looking forward to getting another one. I think if i dint get one every two months i go crazy. Another thing that has really been pissing me off is people who only think of baseball and cars. Plus the racism that goes around about iraqi's bothers me. All it does is create animosity even more so, with the people over there. Soon i will be there with that. Its like the circle of violence never ends.

I finaly have all my stuffed shipped to me. It finaly feels like i have a home now. For a while all i had were my clothes here. its one thing to get stuck in georgia but its something else when you dont have any of your own shit.

I had such a shitty weekend. You cant do anything for fun in this state unless your 21, even then the shit to do sucks. I was trying to go to goth night at some club in augusta. Some girl i met invited me to go with her. She just happens to be 20 and gets in often. I get dropped off there and my ride left. Low and behold, i wasn't aloud in the club and ended up getting on a cab forever. Plus i drank a whole bottle of whiskey before hand, so when i got on post the gate guards were asking me a bunck of questions. Oh well i hope this next weekend is as shitty.
I also keep missing fucking shows because of the fucking army. My friend is seeing the Cure tonight. I missed SKinny Puppy. Plus i thinki am going to miss ministry when they come in town.

Well i had a long ass day today. I had to wake up for an alert at 4 this morning and i didnt get released till 5 this evening. I dont think i am going to have to worry about that girl anymore. I am just glad that i am not getting deployed with her.
Soon i hope i will be working on music again. I starting to go nuts with out doing anything creative.

This weekend i am going to the strip club with some of the girls i work with. Plus i am getting an appointment with a tattoo shop i found down here. Its going to finish off my left leg with part of heironymous bosch's painting of the temptation of st anthony. I hope it all works well.

Well i am getting a new computer. I looking at spending alot of money. I am also getting Reaktor 4 from native instruments. That that way i can still make music when i get deployed. But this weekend was a little funny. I think drinking has been getting me into trouble lately. There was some really preppy girl who wanted me from my advanced training. that I made the mistake of fooling around with her last weekend. So last night i broke it off with her. She went nuts on me. Yelling at me about how guys dont say no to her, and this garbage. I just told her calmly that I dont need that crap right now and that I was going to leave. So i ended up just listening to portishead and drinking vodka till I passed out.