So it's been a looooong f'ing time since I posted a blog here. I'm not sure if anyone reads it, but I suppose I have to try and keep up appearances here if I'm going to be a member.

Since December.... I quit my job... spent 2.5 months unemployed... felt the pinch of my debts.. got over my last serious bout of depression. I feel pretty good actually. I have grounded some things in my life that were otherwise undecided, and now I feel like I can move forward with some things. I have decided pretty much how I want the next couple years of life to go.. and past that, I don't care. I have a job that isn't great, but it sucks a lot less than my last job, basically meaning I could never ask for perfection. I'm able to enjoy some simpler pleasures and 'rosebuds' of life now and I'm enjoying living a little simpler. It's great.

So yeah... not much else new. Added some new pics.

Peace,
Ryan

I'm gonna break my rusty caaaaage.... and ruuuuun...

So yeah, I quit my job yesterday. It was sorta just time. I nearly got into an argument with my boss over a very inconsequential thing, and thereafter I couldn't justify staying another minute. I got my things together and walked out. Sort of ill-advised move considering I don't have another job lined up, but there was no way I was giving any notice. After all the crap I, and the people around me, have dealt with, they didn't deserve my notice. So I went around and said goodbye to the people I actually like around there... grabbed my stuff, and bailed. Didn't even look back. I enjoyed it thoroughly.

Honestly, I'm not even worried about whether I'm going to find another job. The job market is rich here and I'm a very capable human being.. smart and all that crap.. so I can find a job. The main thing is going to be "How long can I stay at a pointless job before I'm actually ready to start a career I like?" Which would be web design. I'm sorta re-learning from scratch, because the last time I did any serious web design work I was a freshman in high school... and those were like fan pages for video games.. they were pretty good for amateur crap... but I can't recall why I stopped. I seemed to enjoy it. I sort of attribute the stoppage to just being a stupid teenager who didn't know what he wanted....

has anything changed in 9 years? Probably not much. But I know this is something I can be good at, and set my own hours, and create my own incentives, and enjoy creating things... so yeah... not to mention, oddly enough, I'm enjoying learning it. But for now I need a 9 to 5 to pay the bills. The job hunt begins.

Peace,
RZD

So yeah, I've been a member of SG now for about three months. I have to say I'm lovin' it. I'm McLOVIN' it.

If you're interested in chatting, I'm sorta always online whenever I'm not at work. Check out my profile.

SHAMELESS SELF-PROMOTION:

check out my band too if you're interested... tell me what you think. If you live in the Cali/NV area, you should drive up and see us... we're playing a few shows in the next couple of months!

http://www.myspace.com/drasticmeasuresreno

My name's Ryan. I enjoy the beauty of all women, but I especially dig the Suicide Girls. If you're interested in chatting, hit me up.