so due to my dj event coming up,i will be putting every dollar into that instead of everything else..which means i may not be on her for a bit..but fear not.il be back to annoy people in sg chat soon enough..just gotta get this up and running so i can start terraforming indy;p..one way or another we're going to change things..the people that live here deserve to have more than just shitty top 40 &bad rap to listen to and as a local of this city we're going to do just that. 
so right now life is beautifull.
im sure the dark cloud of murphys law will rob me of it at some point but fuck murphy! for right now life is beautifull.
i have cute female freinds,and possiblities,i have a dj gig tonight in broadripple...and i have freinds coming...i wont have internet due to at&ts final mistake...but im getting cable soon.so soon life is going to get a whole lot better.
im sure the dark cloud of murphys law will rob me of it at some point but fuck murphy! for right now life is beautifull.
i have cute female freinds,and possiblities,i have a dj gig tonight in broadripple...and i have freinds coming...i wont have internet due to at&ts final mistake...but im getting cable soon.so soon life is going to get a whole lot better.
last night was interesting. me actng like a hooligan as i often do at mutiny..latley ive been stressed and i think i might be in dire threat of becoming an asshole. i mean ive been really stressed latley wit hthe dj thing next week,and i dont smoke weed anymore,drinking does not help..and lets face it i dont really have sex anymore either..i havent really tried,and if anything ive been avoiding it.so my outlets are a bit out right now.
that is one thing that worries me tho,used to be i always need love and affection,i needed a woman in my life all the time,and now i really could give a shit less...and thats what really scares me..i dont think thats a good thing.most of the time when i dont have love in my life i'm filled wit hhate instead,and i gotta admit,after the traffic ticket and money shortage(thanks to gas at 4. a gallon)ive really wanted to beat the living bloody fuck outta someone just to blow off steam..a part of me i generally save for the phrat boys in my local who have a mouth on em. ive gotten to the point where i really dont care what people think either,i used to but at this point it took years to figure out who i am as a person,i could really care less what anyone outside of my acutal friend group thinks..i know who i am,and what im capable of in life,most people still dont..so its hell week coming up. not only am i mixing,but also doing effex and tricks on equipment ive never touched or used before,and its quite different than mine..and i have to do it efficiently(cd decks)sarah vains is actually the standard..most good djs who are on a budget get what she has,those are the best mp3 name brand capable cd decks on the market for the price..anything else is another 100$-200$ more per deck..all i did was study equiment and reviews since i started djing..so id be good for me to learn how to use em..but this is also my chance to show everybody what i can do,and still keep it simple enough so i dont confuse the poor peoples..theres a big difference between rave syle,and club style mixing..and i have to keep it to a point where its not too different or ittle annoy people..so we'll see
that is one thing that worries me tho,used to be i always need love and affection,i needed a woman in my life all the time,and now i really could give a shit less...and thats what really scares me..i dont think thats a good thing.most of the time when i dont have love in my life i'm filled wit hhate instead,and i gotta admit,after the traffic ticket and money shortage(thanks to gas at 4. a gallon)ive really wanted to beat the living bloody fuck outta someone just to blow off steam..a part of me i generally save for the phrat boys in my local who have a mouth on em. ive gotten to the point where i really dont care what people think either,i used to but at this point it took years to figure out who i am as a person,i could really care less what anyone outside of my acutal friend group thinks..i know who i am,and what im capable of in life,most people still dont..so its hell week coming up. not only am i mixing,but also doing effex and tricks on equipment ive never touched or used before,and its quite different than mine..and i have to do it efficiently(cd decks)sarah vains is actually the standard..most good djs who are on a budget get what she has,those are the best mp3 name brand capable cd decks on the market for the price..anything else is another 100$-200$ more per deck..all i did was study equiment and reviews since i started djing..so id be good for me to learn how to use em..but this is also my chance to show everybody what i can do,and still keep it simple enough so i dont confuse the poor peoples..theres a big difference between rave syle,and club style mixing..and i have to keep it to a point where its not too different or ittle annoy people..so we'll see
so i made 2 new female friends at the alley cat tonight.. 
just kind ran into em..one of em surprisingly gave me a hug..she was real sweet. i talked with her most of the night..one thing of interest was that apparently shes been around alot of places..kuwait,britian,singapore..tho she didnt really say very many good things..she made an insaine amount+paid trips to these places for accounting and i was awed by the fact that she gets to go there,but there more i thought about it i eventually said..that sounds exausting..her response was..yeah thats why i quit.
i spose going all over the world doesnt really have much meaning if your spending most of it in hotels or bars..beauty isnt appriciated if its not seen.
for me its always little things..like seeing the people i care about in love and happy..those looks they give each other..i goto mutiny every wedsday and watch the girls dance and have fun and its always adorable..always puts a smile on my face..those things i guess distract me for a short while..
anyway i told her id call her next wedsday..invite her out to mutiny
gotta prep for my set in two weeks too.
just kind ran into em..one of em surprisingly gave me a hug..she was real sweet. i talked with her most of the night..one thing of interest was that apparently shes been around alot of places..kuwait,britian,singapore..tho she didnt really say very many good things..she made an insaine amount+paid trips to these places for accounting and i was awed by the fact that she gets to go there,but there more i thought about it i eventually said..that sounds exausting..her response was..yeah thats why i quit.
i spose going all over the world doesnt really have much meaning if your spending most of it in hotels or bars..beauty isnt appriciated if its not seen.
for me its always little things..like seeing the people i care about in love and happy..those looks they give each other..i goto mutiny every wedsday and watch the girls dance and have fun and its always adorable..always puts a smile on my face..those things i guess distract me for a short while..
anyway i told her id call her next wedsday..invite her out to mutiny
gotta prep for my set in two weeks too. in more wierdness,i got a new message from someone.after having a text conversation from a person looking for a girl named aleecha,he realized that he had the wrong #...wished him best of luck..i getthis alot..calls from people i dont know asking about more people i dont know..this doesnt make me feel very safe about my phone #.owell...so after the traffic ticke i just said fuck it and im getting this
..which does this..
and this..
..and other stuff too
it was just too good of a deal..and i ca afford the payments..anyway.doing laundry right now and i got a dj gig tonight so its all about getting ready
..which does this..and this....and other stuff tooit was just too good of a deal..and i ca afford the payments..anyway.doing laundry right now and i got a dj gig tonight so its all about getting ready
i spose i made the mistake of thinking to much or maybe it was a moment of clarity..i still feel like im running out of time for certain things..was talking to a female friend about relationships..its alaways a long term goal wit h me..i guess i think too deeply into things.i know i over analyze..i dunno..it seems to me the hardest thing is to just breath..
on a side note im up for a dj gig this weekend..and i shoould hope to do well,looks promising tho.
one day,one day i shall have that sleep thing..
on a side note im up for a dj gig this weekend..and i shoould hope to do well,looks promising tho.
one day,one day i shall have that sleep thing..
