these past few days have been bittersweet.....I had a free plane ticket so I went back home to visit with my family. I haven't been home since the 2 days I spent here in 2007. So it was nice to be back in my old stomping ground and seeing all the positive change and enjoying the regional things only found in STL. But it's been hard b/c I had to travel without andain. Traveling without her is impossible. Today will be the hardest day b/c I am visiting my grandma who is suffering from advanced dementia. This is the lady who I have fond memories of from all stages of my life and how has given me some of the best advice in my life and now I have to see the shell of a person is she. I never really understood what people go through when dealing with some one how has dementia but now that I do I wish it upon no one.

i need my andain