so, my account runs out in a week or two, maybe more. not really sure. don't really care. my life's a mess right now and i haven't really felt the motivation to be social at all, so i've fallen off the face of the earth for more than a few people.

i've talked to and met some great people on here...and made enemies with a few. if anyone would like to keep in touch, i'll still be on aim and facebook occasionally.

thanks for some, fuck off to others.

.scott

i'll leave with a beautiful song. here's the live version of my favorite song off the new the national album.

no, i am an asshole.

for some stupid ass reason, i have been tossed aside like a piece of fucking trash by a goddamn whore.

fuck you, c. fuck your stupid ass immaturity.

tonight is it. goodbye.

i'm a complete and total asshole.

i'm sorry.

so, for once in my life i was productive. went to the gym, fixed an error in my social security card

well, a cat runs across the road on my way home, i either hit it or swerve, so i swerve. right on to a median.

even worse, cops are there in seconds. they think i'm drunk. they arrest me and spend 4 hours giving me sobriety tests and such

then they take me to the hospital

so when i finally get back home, i sort things out with my insurance...and when i call back about a rental car, it's 5:02...and they close at 5.
ugh.

had a pretty major seizure a few days ago. woke up in the hospital on monday.

i'm alright now, but i'm getting tired of this shit.

life is still pretty assy.

thanks for the support.
if i don't kill myself first maybe i'll find a way.

i've barely been conscious. being awake just reminds me of how much of a failure i am.

my parents pretty much outright told me i'm a disappointment.

my job replaced me after months of no contact, and misled me about my status as it pertains to disability. they maintained that they were waiting for me, after forcing me onto leave. so basically they just wanted to get rid of me.

it still kinda hurts to be on here thanks to certain individuals.

one day maybe it'll be okay.

i doubt it, though.

i remember about 5 minutes of the past few weeks preceding tuesday.

and fuck, am i glad.