Life has a way of throwing you curveballs frequently. It also has the habit of kicking you in the nuts, slapping your face, then balltapping you on your way down. I've had some breaks lately but I am so messed up from my experiences that I refuse to be positive and hopeful even when I have definitive good news. I dunno if I can change my demeanor. I make sure my kiddies don't see the down-me but I have to figure out a way outta this funk. I've had a recent break so maybe this is my chance to not be a miserable prick. Guess we shall see. Any good advice on replacing bitterness with more positive outlook because I hate feeling this way.