hope who all were affected by Sandy are well and hopefully not dealing with tremendous damage. Philly didnt get much of what they were expecting. though the news has said 2, i believe, deaths from the storm. trees are down. i mainly heard the gusts of winds last night against the windows. it was quite cold this morning, i had to pick up medicine. the shore seems like a wreck. i saw the pics of the roller coaster in the ocean and last i heard the ferris wheel collapsed, not sure how true. but thats intense. so shes supposedly over, just showers on and off today and tomorrow. i got a phone call from work this morning, still shutting down. im glad! i feel like shit with this cold i have and still not back to normal with the groin strain. that means tomorrow will be a bad and long night at work. hoping not because i am on workers comp, theyre only allowed to work me minimum. i would like to enjoy somewhat of my Halloween, though i feel miserable. wish i had somewhere to go to celebrate! maybe ill just hit a bar up. i am disappointed my pumpkin never made to Halloween. the weather just ate it away. this Halloween definitely had a different vibe, which saddens me. i Love Halloween. before i forget. Happy Devils Night! or whatever you may call it, "Mischief Night". hope all is well with everyone and enjoy the festivities of Halloween!!

so the east coast is awaiting Sandy's arrival. it has been raining lightly on and off so far. suppose to get worse by tomorrow morning. heavy rain and winds. theyve already shut down schools and from what i last saw down the shore, NJ is already flooding. i am near the Deleware river but ive never seen it flood tremendously. it has before towards center city/south st. i dont think it'll reach. and usually when they broadcast big storms or hurricanes, we usually just get pounded with rain and wind. but you never know.. you can only wait and hope for the best. i can hope for my work to be closed and my therapy appointment to be canceled, that'd make my day..
not be a jinx or anything but this came to mind for some reason..


ive just been pounding the ears with black metal, death metal today. Spotify is a glorious invention!! feeling quite lazy and it feels like a sore throat is coming. really want this injury to heal because it is quite annoying and stopping me from doing things. no pain, just sore and uncomfortable. more awkward therapy this week, lovellyy. so yea thats whats up... bored bored bored..

well 1 good thing this week, my DOWN meet and greet pics are up on the website!
http://www.down-nola.com/index.cfm/pk/view/cd/NAA/cdid/530313/pid/402156

just incase, i have them downloaded to upload for easy viewing


i was psyched to see them online! never gonna forget this one!

ugh.. i need a fucking beer! or 30! reason, i have a groin strain/sprain whatever you call it. in my previous blog i talked about having some pain. last night at work it went into the max and no way was i gonna hurt myself even more so i had to stop production and call upon my supervisor. we get this coffee company and they have multiple sizes and i was in the works of sorting a large one and bang, felt a pull and hell of alot of pain. they walked me off the end of my aisle and i had to wait for the authorities due to their so-called "safety meeting"s they have. bologna! so my heads sup came to see how i was, i was shooken up to the max. i already have bad nerves, i was almost in tears but i tried to keep my nerves down cause i would have exploded. she ran to give me ice, she is a nice lady but fuck authority. so i was out in the open, my coworkers and everyone else could see me but i had to wait for the officials. of course i had to tell every one of them what happened, how, what kind of pain im in and what to do. since it was done directly at work, E.R. is first step but i could have chose to wait and go on my own. but i knew it would be easier getting done and over with. and go on workers comp. so as much as i despise the "safety lady", she took me to the E.R. and shes a bitch. she only talked to me in the car, haha! asking about what im into and yadda yadda. they all know im the heavy metal guy but i get she was tryin to make talk. i was so aggravated, i was being honest so my words might bite me in the ass, i dont give a fuck, i hate that place. anyway, had to sign in, register, wait hoouuurrrssss just to get molested by 2 people. finally they call me back, i had to strip down to my skivvies. waiiitt some more. finally this chick comes in and of course in my head im like "oh great, she gets to fell my junk" haha, she was cute but you know for a guy its awkward. i thought i had a lump cause when i walk it felt like it. she thought there was a small one but nothing to be concerned unless damaged. BUT she said the attendant was gonna come check me out also. so ok, i was sort of relieved, no hernia. now the attendant comes in, its a dude! in my head" oh fuckin great, its a dude now lookin at my junk" he said no lumps, so X out hernia. it came down to groin sprain. so today i had to the my works doctor, another person to molest me haha. said the same as the E.R., light duty at work, take it easy, ice and theyre making do therapy at the work doctors, grrrrreat. life is fucking grand at the moment. the same people still work there from when i hurt my shoulder but now im being degraded haha tonight i have to bring all my paper work and sit down with the safety assholes and file the report. i have a headache, im aggravated and i know whats in store. gonna try to turn everything on me. i really am to the limit where i will blow up and i wont care about my job because it comes down to me, my health and how they treat people. so i am on guard. its gonna be interesting what "light duty" theyre gonna be putting me on. im not allowed to kneel, squat or lift anything above 10lbs. ugh... big rant today, i just dont feel right overall. hopin a fast recover but i do have to get my shit straight cause i cant do this work anymore. thats where im at folks..... heres a little Superjoint for the mood..

not having a good start to this week. still have a little bit of a cold and i was having some abdominal issues last week. well yesterday at work i think it took it to the max. ive never had a hernia but ive heard stories and it kinda sounds like that. not really in any pain, just discomfort in certain spots. in work i was feeling some pain as i had to lift and sort packages. i am just really hoping i pulled somethin. it is ridiculous what ill have to go through if i report the injury. and ill have to pretend it happens as i goto work tonight since i didnt report it last night. thats involved worksman comp instead of dissability and their doctors are straight up assholes. and im quite serious, if i am injured in any way, i am fucking quiting. so now im like panic/worried mode. and i get no support from anyone. automatically my mom just fires off that i need out of there, blah blah blah. and she loves to mention that ill have to cut my hair and beard off. i know i need out. its fuckin tough tryin to get another job. i do lack motivation, i admit it. but im sick of gettin hurt, feeling like shit. im 26 and that place has done enough to me! this might be the last draw... i just have no idea what to do anymore....

ugh, monday blues.. had a fairly eventful weekend. saw Rob Zombie/Manson on friday night. it was awesome! we got there a little late cause my one friend that was driving got done late, we didnt really miss anything. got there pretty much as Manson went on. he was drunk as hell but he pulled it off. i wanna say he had a better set list from last years. played a lot more old stuff and of course a few new ones to promote the new album. he brought the podium for antichrist superstar, it was awesome. im not as a big fan as i was when i was younger but it still cool to see the old stuff played. Rob Zombie, in my opinion, owned the whole show. i tried to take pics but my shitty phone cam just comes out blurry. he had all the robots/monsters come out, pretty much the whole show. i always enjoy seeing Zombie, been a fan since White Zombie, and of course he pulled out More Human Than Human and Thunderkiss '65. he had different size tvs all over the stage broad casting horror flicks, devil worship and of course his own makings. i loved it! money definitely well spent.

saturday i had a Halloween party to goto. 2 of my friends birthdays were celebrated, pretty kick ass to have a birthday around halloween, if i say so. mines in winter time anyway, friday after the bank i stopped to pick up some last minute zombie make up. had to do with whatever i could conjure up, didnt really have the money for a costume and as much as i love halloween, i suck at costumes! so this is what i transformed into..

im sure you can tell which is me.. haha

zombieeee.... beeeerrrrr... blooooddddd
it was a great time, beer, food, live music and inbetween a dj.

sunday, well i wish i had a picture to show what i did. i finally got around to carving my pumpkin that i had already gutted and devoured all its seeds, haha, love 'em. bought a new carvin kit and i already had my drawing made out. open mouthed skull with flames around its head, came out great but i have no candles!! so i have to goto the store soon because its already rotting. and i need another pumpkin or 2! so when i get it lit i will post a picture.

sooooo dreading work and feeling quite miserable about it. i really need somethin to happen in my life. i understand i have to make the move. its hard to get the motivation. tired of just being part time, tired of doing the hard labor that is not rewarded at all in any way.. still trying to find some like minded musicians to start a band. thats even hard, i need some more forums to post on. life is just frustrating anymore. i need somethin to actually feel good about and not be aggravated all the time.. my music is my sanity, and thats where i belong....

happy friday all! it is a great day! no work for me tonight. im going to see Rob Zombie with Marilyn Manson! quite excited for this one, especially Zombie. hoping the rain is done for the day, we were suppose to get hit with a storm. probably why i dont feel as well. weather up and down. past couple days were chilly now its warm out. oh well, out of my hands. so yes i am excited, not sure when i am leaving and its a bit out of the way for us but my mom is snaggin his moms car, thanks dogness! the train there is not a good place to be. i missed a gathering last night at the irish pol, i fell right asleep when i got done work, just exhausted and not feelin well. today i had to go out in the rain for the bank and i stopped at party city for a few halloween things. i have a costume party tomorrow which i always dress up just completely lazy time around. so i bought some make up to be a zombie. zombie green make up, black liner, this scar patch kit and a bottle of vampire blood. hopefully i can make somethin decent out of all this. tho i am not sure if i should get a white dress down shirt to be more "dead" or just go as me, zombified. it will be a good time no matter what! tonight we are having homemade tacos, yum, havent had them in awhile and hot wings, hells yea. thats my day so far, ill let you know how the concert goes..!

happy Friday all! finally, right?? i got my first pumpkin of the season this morning! not quite sure what i have in store for it to come alive! and i cant find my carving kit, i know i hid on myself for the next year and thats what happens. so a trip to the store for another. i have ideas but ill let it brew for a little but i cannot wait to make some homemade pumpkin seeds! my favorite. even though i eat them all year round and more often than probably any human being, haha. i had to get the pumpkin from the local store. there is a place in philly which is not far at all, its called Linvilla Orchards. its a real big farm. they grow their own pumpkins, the main seller is their apples. fresh cider, pies, everything! they have animals there also that you can feed. i havent been there in years but i remember it being fun. my friends and family still go but i also seem to be left out of the loop. i miss my piece of shit car! anyway, it only costed me 5 dollars and its a good medium size. this will be my test pumpkin. there will be plenty more. probably my main favorite thing to do for Halloween. and its funny, i have a party next weekend, as much as i love Halloween, i am the worst when it comes to costumes! and i always like to be on the ghoulish side. wish i knew a professional make up artist, would like to be a legit zombie.. so that has been my day so far, i stopped my vocal practice to blog a little bit, i still have some time to do a couple more songs before i have to goto work. ive been going strong on my routine, i am really trying, im tired of procrastinating. i have put myself on craigslist and im tryin to find other circuits to find musicians. but its time and thats what ive been tellin myself. so thats that.. i skipped the gym this morrning because the winds were brutal. when i biked there yesterday, the wind was terrible, it felt biking tied to a car tryin to haul it, haha. tomorrow i will be there! well i just wanted to blog a bit, time to do the other sets of vocal style[danzig related] and then the dreadful work.... uggghhh

happy saturday to all! hope all is well. i am exhausted, laammee. work last night blew and stayed later than usual. also stayed out later than i really wanted to but good times were had so i cant complain. but i was woken up by a phone call from a friend needing my help. another friend was suppose to do it but most likely he was hungover dead in the bed. so the good friend i am i helped him. his sister is in a bit of a situation with her, i guess now called ex. so shes moving back home and i grew with his family. down my cup tea, NEED my cup of tea when i wake up. first time in a UHaul truck, i guess thats an experience haha. the house wasnt too far away, i didnt mind i like drivin through other parts of philly that i havent seen in awhile. though not enough sleep and little hungover didnt help but i managed. loaded up the truck. the only things that were a pain in the ass was she had a dresser and a chest. the chest was heaavvyy, and the mirror was even detached. didnt take long and then road back home to a storage place so she can store what cant fit in the moms house, which is tiny. so of course, the chest has to go upstairs, maannnnn that sucked. at the ex's house this thing didnt seem heavy tho we takin it down. going up with this fuckin thing was super heavy and the stairway just had enough space. i gave it all but he we had to switch sides, which i didnt mind, i felt uneasy being on bottom. but we got it, one step at a time, pheww.. so that has been my day. she offered money or beer. i never except anything from close friends or family, just the way i am. so she gave it to my friend to hold, drinks are free tonight! haha but im actually really tired. i should of napped but i didnt. that'll kick me in the ass later... now just bein lazy and listenin to music.. DOOM has been the genre for today..

been cleaning for the past 3 days! ugghh, its well needed. i let things really go this time. i know im unorganized, plus who really likes cleaning? haha my room is quite spotless except for a tote that i need to sort that most likely is trash. i must of bagged up 2 dozen worth of clothes that dont fit me anymore! its a good thing cause it does really show i lost a lot. but there are also newer clothes that i have that i starting to look ridiculous on me. i dont have the money to replace my good shirts! haha but anyway thats over with. the past 2 days was my basement. which was a wreck! clothes, cds, movies, and my art supplies. what a mess! so today i got all the dirty cleaning down, organized where i could, think my organizing can be a little better but hey at least its liveable now! so a feel a little better about that.. progress made. really need to hit the gym its been about a week, definitely need a session. i gotta run off this blog cause work is comin closer and i feel terrible about it! ha