ugh, i definitely caught whatevers floating around. not to the point where i just wanna decay in bed but my throat is sore and im coughing, runny nose, argghhh..
i had the strangest time trying to sleep last night and thats all i wanted to do when i got home from work last night. i did nothing, laid around for awhile til i felt really tired and then baammm.. in and out sleep.. and uhm, i had the weirdest nightmare of a thing, lol. i should mention i was already sweating then freezing, not sure cause of the sickness but it was happening before this occured. well i guess whenever i drifted off for some reason i was still in my room, my bed but i was being held back by some force. i tried to battle my way, i seemed to manage somewhat but the force was too strong and i just remember i couldnt move. it was fucking intense. i woke up sweating profusely. freaked me the fuck out!! so i really never got the sleep i wanted. and my insane of a household they fuck with the thermostat so much you sweat to death sleeping. so yeah, im not sure what that was about. i do have some things rattling around in my head. work should be fun tonight. im just gonna relax this friday night. i dont want this cold whatever to get worse..
hope all is well on your end.
i had the strangest time trying to sleep last night and thats all i wanted to do when i got home from work last night. i did nothing, laid around for awhile til i felt really tired and then baammm.. in and out sleep.. and uhm, i had the weirdest nightmare of a thing, lol. i should mention i was already sweating then freezing, not sure cause of the sickness but it was happening before this occured. well i guess whenever i drifted off for some reason i was still in my room, my bed but i was being held back by some force. i tried to battle my way, i seemed to manage somewhat but the force was too strong and i just remember i couldnt move. it was fucking intense. i woke up sweating profusely. freaked me the fuck out!! so i really never got the sleep i wanted. and my insane of a household they fuck with the thermostat so much you sweat to death sleeping. so yeah, im not sure what that was about. i do have some things rattling around in my head. work should be fun tonight. im just gonna relax this friday night. i dont want this cold whatever to get worse..
hope all is well on your end.
well i hope you all enjoyed your holidays and new years! i am sort of glad the madness is all over. though now all the decorations have to be brought down and put them away for next year, ugh. i would say i had a pretty good New Years Eve and Day. actually behaved myself NYE and didnt drink too much and went home early so i can get up early for my cities annual Mummers Parade that i participate in. 13 years in! i will try to find some photos for you of me this year but to be honest for some reason i dont think i am in many, dont know why. oh well. it was a good day, i actually was the first of my friends up and ready to go. down some Pepto and let the drinkin begin. its always fun to march to City Hall and see all locals and tourists that enjoy the Mummers! and of course for the mummers themselves its a day filled of booze, food and dancing! and i would say i behaved myself again. i did not want to get too loaded too early, thats never fun. i hung with friends that dont go out but love hanging with the ones that do! everyone gets loaded! i visited some family inbetween the day, tried to eat but usually i only pick at things. and then i get a call...
a girlfriend of mine, not literally, just someone i knew for quite sometime actually came to the parade this year. you dont know happy i got when i got the message on my phone! ive known her through a friend who dated her bestfriend. shes originally from Colorado but moved out here when her mom passed, shes from Philly. me and her always got along. shes fun, stoner chick, pretty much like me, just a friendly fun goofy person. so yes, shes always been a crush of mine, hehe. we've been through some stuff together. i was there for her with her mom and then shortly after that i had to deal with my father having a stroke and that was rough, she was there for me. i think she knew i somewhat liked her. my best friend was dating her friend from Colorado who also moved here for a short period of time so we'd always travel together to hang out. pretty much bestfriends with bestfriends. and one Valentine's i thought i'd be nice if i got her something, a nice card, i drew a pretty rose[in my head to me, that'll last forever!]. she appreciated it of course but later when i got home i had email from her pretty much saying she wants to remain friends since we are good friends and experienced some situations that we helped each other. of course it was a blow to me, but i'd rather there be no conflict with our friendship cause shes a great friend. but anyway, but i got all butterflied up cause this time around who knows what might have happened and i kept myself open and flirtish. it was fun. she brought her little sister with her to experience the parade. shes a trip! just like her sister! i had a blast with them. but yeah so i dont know how to feel, even when nothing happened, it just brought back memories and of course, the crush. towards the end of the night, the drunkness sets in i was just relaxing finally sitting for once all day talkin to one of my best friends, which is gay, and me him and this girl we were a trio back in those times. i asked if he saw her, yadda yadda, and he knew i liked her so i said it and he was saying "mike, just go for it". but i always knew she liked someone else in my group of friends. but his words were inspiring cause i seem to forget to act on things and then i miss out. i have her cell phone number now but she does live quite a distance from me and i have no car. i am just wondering even to ask her out. not even a date just as friends, ya know, and then who knows.. i dont want to make it weird and make our friendship weird... i dunno.. it has been on my mind that i am sorting to feel the loneliness again so this kinda interacts, ya know..
so the night was ending. a friend of mine which went out in the parade was loaded and had his share of memories. he started crying next to me. he just lost his brother to suicide, he was gay. i am not homophobic at all. he carried on his memory. he sewed a picture of him onto his umbrella[that we dance with, with our costumes]. i really felt bad for him. i comforted him and tried to call him down. so it was all over, we all dwindled down and things calmed down. i am usually always the last soldier at any party! next.. i remember bangin on my door cause my keys where in my stockings and couldnt find them haha and someone had to let me in, and i woke up, half dressed, sprawled out on the couch.
so now i am just left with alot of thoughts.. i really want this year to pick my life up. it needs to. back to my diet. back to the gym[even if its freezing cause i ride a bike]. get out of my current job. would love to get out of my parents house but thats somethin that'll take time. back to my vocals and i didnt join the music school yet, there was a lot going on in the past 2 weeks, i plan on this weekend. i wanted the holidays to be over with all partying, get my head straight... so i think thats all i got to spew out for now..heres some BLS cause it fits my mood
a girlfriend of mine, not literally, just someone i knew for quite sometime actually came to the parade this year. you dont know happy i got when i got the message on my phone! ive known her through a friend who dated her bestfriend. shes originally from Colorado but moved out here when her mom passed, shes from Philly. me and her always got along. shes fun, stoner chick, pretty much like me, just a friendly fun goofy person. so yes, shes always been a crush of mine, hehe. we've been through some stuff together. i was there for her with her mom and then shortly after that i had to deal with my father having a stroke and that was rough, she was there for me. i think she knew i somewhat liked her. my best friend was dating her friend from Colorado who also moved here for a short period of time so we'd always travel together to hang out. pretty much bestfriends with bestfriends. and one Valentine's i thought i'd be nice if i got her something, a nice card, i drew a pretty rose[in my head to me, that'll last forever!]. she appreciated it of course but later when i got home i had email from her pretty much saying she wants to remain friends since we are good friends and experienced some situations that we helped each other. of course it was a blow to me, but i'd rather there be no conflict with our friendship cause shes a great friend. but anyway, but i got all butterflied up cause this time around who knows what might have happened and i kept myself open and flirtish. it was fun. she brought her little sister with her to experience the parade. shes a trip! just like her sister! i had a blast with them. but yeah so i dont know how to feel, even when nothing happened, it just brought back memories and of course, the crush. towards the end of the night, the drunkness sets in i was just relaxing finally sitting for once all day talkin to one of my best friends, which is gay, and me him and this girl we were a trio back in those times. i asked if he saw her, yadda yadda, and he knew i liked her so i said it and he was saying "mike, just go for it". but i always knew she liked someone else in my group of friends. but his words were inspiring cause i seem to forget to act on things and then i miss out. i have her cell phone number now but she does live quite a distance from me and i have no car. i am just wondering even to ask her out. not even a date just as friends, ya know, and then who knows.. i dont want to make it weird and make our friendship weird... i dunno.. it has been on my mind that i am sorting to feel the loneliness again so this kinda interacts, ya know..
so the night was ending. a friend of mine which went out in the parade was loaded and had his share of memories. he started crying next to me. he just lost his brother to suicide, he was gay. i am not homophobic at all. he carried on his memory. he sewed a picture of him onto his umbrella[that we dance with, with our costumes]. i really felt bad for him. i comforted him and tried to call him down. so it was all over, we all dwindled down and things calmed down. i am usually always the last soldier at any party! next.. i remember bangin on my door cause my keys where in my stockings and couldnt find them haha and someone had to let me in, and i woke up, half dressed, sprawled out on the couch.
so now i am just left with alot of thoughts.. i really want this year to pick my life up. it needs to. back to my diet. back to the gym[even if its freezing cause i ride a bike]. get out of my current job. would love to get out of my parents house but thats somethin that'll take time. back to my vocals and i didnt join the music school yet, there was a lot going on in the past 2 weeks, i plan on this weekend. i wanted the holidays to be over with all partying, get my head straight... so i think thats all i got to spew out for now..heres some BLS cause it fits my mood
i just got the iPhone 5 in the mail today. not a present either! i was going to upgrade my phone in the near future when the money was right but my Droid screen decided to just not work anymore. i could get calls and messages but without a screen its worthless. so i had to fork out what i wasnt ready for. that means my checks now have to be deposited, argh! still playing around with the phone. it took me forever to activate and get the internet to activate. and then i couldnt figure out how to get my contacts but i just did not too long ago, sheesh! its pretty awesome ill say. definitely lighter/slicker than my prehistoric Droid, haha. i have a case for it but i am little concerned about the screen. a friend at work, which is my supervisor has the same phone and hes been carrying his in a sandwich baggie, lol, because he said he had a problem with the usb/power charger. it ended being a bunch of dust inside which made the plug not work, crazy. i definitely dont wanna carry my phone in a sandwich baggie, hahaha!
hope everyones christmas was good! mine was ok. some drama cause my family are nuts and a bunch of drunks! the weather was shitty too. the whole month has. it was snowing and raining on and off. so i have the New Years Parade this upcoming Wednesday. the weather is going to cold for a change. the past couple years it has been atleast 50-70 degrees. that is nuts for January. this will be 13th year participating in the parade. we are all used to it being freezing cold in the past years, so this will be an awakening i guess in a way. back to 5 pairs of socks, 2 pairs of long johns, etc etc. i have the 2nd off from work so ill have a nice 5 day weekend! the 2nd is for recovery. and my birthday is also in January. ill be 27 and on the 27th, uggghhhh.
so i think thats all i got for now... ill leave with a song.
this band ive been obsessed with, the album is amazing! chick singer too! DOOM!
"you think you know me but you wont believe your eyes, dont pray to god cause you cant make up your mind"! fuckin love it.
hope everyones christmas was good! mine was ok. some drama cause my family are nuts and a bunch of drunks! the weather was shitty too. the whole month has. it was snowing and raining on and off. so i have the New Years Parade this upcoming Wednesday. the weather is going to cold for a change. the past couple years it has been atleast 50-70 degrees. that is nuts for January. this will be 13th year participating in the parade. we are all used to it being freezing cold in the past years, so this will be an awakening i guess in a way. back to 5 pairs of socks, 2 pairs of long johns, etc etc. i have the 2nd off from work so ill have a nice 5 day weekend! the 2nd is for recovery. and my birthday is also in January. ill be 27 and on the 27th, uggghhhh.
so i think thats all i got for now... ill leave with a song.
this band ive been obsessed with, the album is amazing! chick singer too! DOOM!
"you think you know me but you wont believe your eyes, dont pray to god cause you cant make up your mind"! fuckin love it.
happy friday everyone! finally the week is almost over. really hoping work tonight will be slow. for our peak season it has been quite slow but yet heavy and dragging. this week alone seemed to never wanting to end.. and for some reason this week, not too sound like a wacko but ive felt pretty solid. ive seemed to kick the negatives and aggravatees out this week and i feel on top once again. before my life got twisted in many directions. ive been gyming it, drawing, practicing my vocals. i really like this feeling, i hope it continues.
ive made up my mind, im going to sign up at a music school in town for vocals. i do my own practices but i do not know notes. i feel like i know what i am doing to a certain extent. like anyone trying to sing, you imitate the sounds of who youre listening to. i feel thats how i came to grasp what i can do. i know theres much more to it. but i am looking forward to it and i believe i can afford. they want $25 an half hour. the main part that im exciting for, you got access to equipment and musicians! as projects they put with others to learn and jam out. they have shows for kids and adults all the time, its cool. ive known many people who went there. i just hate how ive lacked so much in the past years. im just tryin to not be the scaredy cat anymore! since all my friends play music that isnt my interests, as theyre not into mine, i feel like this is the only way to get noticed. once im comfortable i would like use my webcam, like youtube, for my practices. wish i had the equipment to input your own recordings with the music youre covering. im sure theres some way.. i am really trying to just look forward to a new beginning, the new year is coming and thats how im thinking.
since im not a big shopper for christmas presents for family, i am just going to give money. whatever i can afford heh. i am currently working on trying to make my own card. i know i have a time limit. i just today transferred the image onto linoleum, hopefully i can get some kind print out of it. and a good result!
skelesanta! something i found on the net but i did rush it so it did get altered somewhat.
i carve year round. really need to work on multicolor prints, i know its alot of work but worth the result. right now just doing the basic contrast. if i can i will try to use a paint brush for this.
well hope is well in your world! have a good weekend, cheers!
ive made up my mind, im going to sign up at a music school in town for vocals. i do my own practices but i do not know notes. i feel like i know what i am doing to a certain extent. like anyone trying to sing, you imitate the sounds of who youre listening to. i feel thats how i came to grasp what i can do. i know theres much more to it. but i am looking forward to it and i believe i can afford. they want $25 an half hour. the main part that im exciting for, you got access to equipment and musicians! as projects they put with others to learn and jam out. they have shows for kids and adults all the time, its cool. ive known many people who went there. i just hate how ive lacked so much in the past years. im just tryin to not be the scaredy cat anymore! since all my friends play music that isnt my interests, as theyre not into mine, i feel like this is the only way to get noticed. once im comfortable i would like use my webcam, like youtube, for my practices. wish i had the equipment to input your own recordings with the music youre covering. im sure theres some way.. i am really trying to just look forward to a new beginning, the new year is coming and thats how im thinking.
since im not a big shopper for christmas presents for family, i am just going to give money. whatever i can afford heh. i am currently working on trying to make my own card. i know i have a time limit. i just today transferred the image onto linoleum, hopefully i can get some kind print out of it. and a good result!
skelesanta! something i found on the net but i did rush it so it did get altered somewhat.
i carve year round. really need to work on multicolor prints, i know its alot of work but worth the result. right now just doing the basic contrast. if i can i will try to use a paint brush for this.
well hope is well in your world! have a good weekend, cheers!
ugh.. this sundays hangover is a killer! haha friends that are bar tenders is an advantage.. or disadvantage haha! so a few of my friends and i went to this bar "The Pizza Pub" where a friend works. its basically a pizza shop but also has a bar connected. a little bit out of our way but not that bad, so we walked. it was a alright time, the place is tiny. we almost got in a fight some random dude that came up to my friend accusing him of puttings his hand on him. we were both like what the fuck? we're just sittin here. but i think a friend might have done something to bring this on that i was unaware of. im still not actually sure. i was just tryin to have a good time. so i guess this dudes friend got him and told him to back off. thankfully. definitely didnt wanna get in a fight. i dont like confrontations.. so we stayed there for awhile.. and... haha im laughing as im about to type the next part.. i am quite known for my weird sounding and stinky farts. i let one rip. i should have known better!! it fucking stunk the whole bar out!! i never seen so many people get quite angry over it! it was bad though! i was scared shit!! hahahaha oh man.. so we walked home and stopped at a friends house, had some shots.. and then dont quite remember... in bed! haha definitely paying for it this time.. 
hope all is good.
hope all is good.
wooo! happy friday! so glad to be home and shocked i got out early from work! beer time!
cheers! haha
AND
this one.... hahaha i dont know. kinda looks like im gonna jump through the screen.. or just retarded!
anyway.. have a good weekend everyone!
my condolences to Connecticuts loss this morning, terrible.......
cheers! haha
AND
this one.... hahaha i dont know. kinda looks like im gonna jump through the screen.. or just retarded!
anyway.. have a good weekend everyone!
my condolences to Connecticuts loss this morning, terrible.......
i miss having a vehicle. things were a bit easier. the gym bike rides in this weather has been not so fun. cold, misty/fog. the worst has yet to come. just was being bored and lookin up stuff.. this is my dream ride!
either color, though i really like the light blue..
my inner hippie desires..
dont know why, i think theyre bad ass!!
one day!
either color, though i really like the light blue..
my inner hippie desires..
dont know why, i think theyre bad ass!!
one day!
today marks the 8th year of the passing of DIMEBAG DARRELL. a senseless murder to a beautiful human being just living to rock.
i still get all teary eyed and emotional as i reflect the tragedy. i looked up to the man, he is one of my idols. its funny how someone you never knew or met can affect your life. but i had the music to live with him. so grateful as a young metalhead, probably somewhere around 15 or maybe earlier, my sister bought me PanterA tickets for my birthday. it was the the Reinventing The Steel tour, which unfortunately was the last. Dime was on my "to meet people" list, i thought after awhile it could definitely happen. you could see a PanterA reunion slowly brewing but that asshole, Nathan, killed everyones dreams!
so this day to me is just blasting everything known as Dime. PanterA, Rebel Meets Rebel, Damageplan. i always get a kick out of surfing youtube of his rare stuff and of course his hilarious outtakes of who Dime was! Dimevision, is the book and first disc of im assuming many more to come or 3 Vulgar Videos. i used to pop them in every time i was sad and needed a pick me up. What Would Dime Do? mentality. lol get me?
so raise your Blacktooths or whatever your alcoholic[even non alcoholic] beverage is and give a salute to the one and only DIMEBAG DARRELL! Getcha Pull! RIP Brother. Cheers!
i miss my Dimebeard!
p.s. i bought Halo 4 today, pretty awesome so far. i went straight to multiplayer as i always do.
i still get all teary eyed and emotional as i reflect the tragedy. i looked up to the man, he is one of my idols. its funny how someone you never knew or met can affect your life. but i had the music to live with him. so grateful as a young metalhead, probably somewhere around 15 or maybe earlier, my sister bought me PanterA tickets for my birthday. it was the the Reinventing The Steel tour, which unfortunately was the last. Dime was on my "to meet people" list, i thought after awhile it could definitely happen. you could see a PanterA reunion slowly brewing but that asshole, Nathan, killed everyones dreams!
so this day to me is just blasting everything known as Dime. PanterA, Rebel Meets Rebel, Damageplan. i always get a kick out of surfing youtube of his rare stuff and of course his hilarious outtakes of who Dime was! Dimevision, is the book and first disc of im assuming many more to come or 3 Vulgar Videos. i used to pop them in every time i was sad and needed a pick me up. What Would Dime Do? mentality. lol get me?
so raise your Blacktooths or whatever your alcoholic[even non alcoholic] beverage is and give a salute to the one and only DIMEBAG DARRELL! Getcha Pull! RIP Brother. Cheers!
i miss my Dimebeard!
p.s. i bought Halo 4 today, pretty awesome so far. i went straight to multiplayer as i always do.
what a shitty friday! colddd and rainy! it was 50s for the past 3 days, insanity. but now it finally feels like December. i still have to work tonight so the week isnt quite over yet for me. ive been laying low at work, letting the chaos be. its not worth getting frustrated and yelling, although it has been mental torture to not speak my mind! but thats all ill speak about that. i dont want to write about that place/negative shit. this is isnt negative but i procrastinated the gym all week, feel kinda bad about that, haha. i dont know, i just couldnt drag myself outta bed. i have to kickstart the mind back into a routine and the weather definitely isnt helping! the other day, i want to say i successfully trimmed my beard! i usually never do cause im too afraid of fucking up and having to shave. i hate shaving! but it was kinda drivin me nuts with some of the stragglers so i decided to just fluff it up and take the scissors to it. nothing major. just clipped the ends and even things out. so i think i can keep doing it for the future.
oh, last week i got my New Years Suit! for those not in the area. living in Philadelphia/South Philly, theres a tradition that has been going on since, i actually really dont know how long but for at least 50 years or more. the "2 street" neighborhood as we call it is filled with bars and Mummers[the proper term for paraders] clubs on every corner. the New Years Parade we celebrate every year. there are Wenches[which i participate], Fancies[just like the name, they have floats and dancers] and String Bands, that speaks for itself. but everything is suppose to be gaudy. some say we kinda took the traditions of New Orleans, because they have been doing it for ages! but it is a big day for those that participate, the neighborhood and the whole city/tourists. we march from 2st, to city hall to be judged and every club does it "drill" and there is actually prize money for the club. the club i belong to is filled with "Wenches", men dressed up in these dressed, painted up and pretty much drinking the entire time. every Wench club has it own band that marches with them. a beer truck haha. its fun, this will be 13th year doing it. this is a pic of this years suit..theyre suppose to be making fun of "50 Shades of Grey" with "50 Shades of Green". i dont quite get it. oh i should tell you my club is called Froggy Carr so there is always something to do with frogs/green[because of the irish]
you zip this baby on, the bloomers underneath, paint your face. and we have umbrellas which go along with the type of dancing that goes on. there is a pic in my attachments of me and my friends in the morning of last years parade. i am a bit upset that i do not have contacts this year and even if i make an appointment, i wont have them in time! argh
but thats what i have to look forward to on January 1st.
ill eventually post of the aftermath!
other than that nothing else to really tell you guys. though i think i did something to my left ear. i think i may have over done my vocal practice the other day because it hasnt felt the same since. argh. feels like pressure or somethin.
actually, this week is actually a legit pay check, i should be able to afford Halo 4!! Black Ops 2 is just gonna have to wait! for those on Xbox my gamer tag is: armedANhammered
have a good weekend!
oh, last week i got my New Years Suit! for those not in the area. living in Philadelphia/South Philly, theres a tradition that has been going on since, i actually really dont know how long but for at least 50 years or more. the "2 street" neighborhood as we call it is filled with bars and Mummers[the proper term for paraders] clubs on every corner. the New Years Parade we celebrate every year. there are Wenches[which i participate], Fancies[just like the name, they have floats and dancers] and String Bands, that speaks for itself. but everything is suppose to be gaudy. some say we kinda took the traditions of New Orleans, because they have been doing it for ages! but it is a big day for those that participate, the neighborhood and the whole city/tourists. we march from 2st, to city hall to be judged and every club does it "drill" and there is actually prize money for the club. the club i belong to is filled with "Wenches", men dressed up in these dressed, painted up and pretty much drinking the entire time. every Wench club has it own band that marches with them. a beer truck haha. its fun, this will be 13th year doing it. this is a pic of this years suit..theyre suppose to be making fun of "50 Shades of Grey" with "50 Shades of Green". i dont quite get it. oh i should tell you my club is called Froggy Carr so there is always something to do with frogs/green[because of the irish]
you zip this baby on, the bloomers underneath, paint your face. and we have umbrellas which go along with the type of dancing that goes on. there is a pic in my attachments of me and my friends in the morning of last years parade. i am a bit upset that i do not have contacts this year and even if i make an appointment, i wont have them in time! argh
but thats what i have to look forward to on January 1st.
ill eventually post of the aftermath!
other than that nothing else to really tell you guys. though i think i did something to my left ear. i think i may have over done my vocal practice the other day because it hasnt felt the same since. argh. feels like pressure or somethin.
actually, this week is actually a legit pay check, i should be able to afford Halo 4!!
Black Ops 2 is just gonna have to wait! for those on Xbox my gamer tag is: armedANhammeredhave a good weekend!
