Im finally back from Iraq. I got a new house, car and dog. Im looking forward to going back to work and meeting the new crew.

Today I saw one of the hottest chicks at the gym. Then I realized, im a womenizer cause I can't get wemon. I suddenly feel all alone again. Why can't I find my true love?

One more month closer to being home. Plus I get to be home in time for the new season of Smallville to be out on dvd.

Hello everyone. I know I haven't been active on here for a long time and im sorry. I love everything you girls do here.

Anyway Im coming to the end of my second Iraq deployment and im sad. Sad that I have no one to go home too. I've been on this online dating site (Plentyoffish.com) and I've written every girl I would be interested in, in a 100 mile radias and no one has written me back. I've done my time in the military, traveling the world and being a single guy. Now I want someone to be there for me at the end of the day. Someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright. I don't mean to sound like a pathetic depressed little man but it's how I feel. The reason im in this position is cause im shy and not a social butterfly. I can't open up to people right away. Im a hopeless romantic with a lot to offer someone but no one is interested.

Ill be home in Sept. I know ill feel happier when im enjoying my freedom again.

Italy was awesome. I went to Rome, Piza, Pompeii and Concerta. I partied hard and saw all the amazing sights.

I've been a civilian for five years now. Civilian life has taught me a lot and has helped me grow as a person. Now i've realized my destiny isn't with the people. It's to be back in the front lines defending my people. I wasn't meant to have a normal life. Maybe some day I can return to start a new life and maybe find that special someone.

First off I had a good Easter. Second I wanted to talk about the date I went on yesturdasy morning. I met a girl on myspace who was looking for clientel for her hair cut job. she moved into town and started to work at a hair salon last week. She gives an awsome hair cut. Anyway she gives me her personal number and we started to talk to each other. Then I got the courage to ask her out but with each others schedules we only had time to have breakfast together. So we went to this really good breakfast place downtown and I show up a half hour early and am getting major butterflys in my stomach waiting for her. By the way she is Beautiful. When she does show up I am a nervous wreck and my stomach is feeling worse. I nervously think of things to talk about. I could tell that she didn't know what to think about me. I'm sure she could tell I was panicing. So when it was time to go I walked her to her car and said I would come by the shop wednesday for a hair cut becuase I had guard coming up. Then we went on our seperate ways.

I know i'm a shy guy and I've tried all my life to over come this condition. I was never popular and beautiful wemon never gave me the time of day. Cuase I know they want a confident, funny guy. I just need time to warm up to people. I just pray she will give me a chance. I'm lost I don't know what to do next.

Two years ago I joined a small police agency and started to work in the jail. everbody there is great I love working with the people there. I've almost been there two years and i've seen the ugly side of our way of life. I think America has lost her way and the way we are going I don't know if we'll ever get her back. The good people of this country has surrendered her to the liberal, hippie, douche bags that think prisoners should live in a five star hotel, that say "Thank God for dead soldiers becuase we fight for a country that supports gay marriage" even though it hasn't become widley excepted yet. Plus the Liberal, Hippie, Douche bags stick their nose into war. Soldiers right now are being prosicuted for doing their job, protecting their buddies next to them. I say that the media needs to leave us the fuck alone and let us do our job. If there's a problem with a soldier being wreckless we'll handle it. Plus I took an oath to pretect this country from enemies foreign and domestic. Don't you think that our carrer criminals like murders, rapists and theives are our domestic terrorists? Why can't we just kill them? It would save us a lot of money. So what gives us the right to go to a foriegn country and kill the bad guys over there for attempted murder but we can't kill our own murderer's? Don't get me wrong even though i'm bitching I will still defend this country with every breath I have. There's good people out there. There's always light at the end of the tunnel.

The first thing I'm going to buy with my deployment money.


Them I'm going to install this into the vehicle.

I spent my entire weekend playing Final fantasy 7. I've been in kind of a "I don't care anymore" type of mood lately. I feel like im in limbo waiting for something to happen. I'm tired of this place, this town and the people. I'm looking sooooooooooo forward to going to Iraq. Once I come back from Iraq I plan to go back to active duty Army and move to Washington where I grew up. It sucks to throw away two years of law enforcement experiance but i'm just tired of civilian life. I know civilian life is boring cuase I make it boring. But the thing is that its hard for me to make friends here. They're all rednecks and people who are still stuck in high school drama. The Army encourages me to be more active and plus I have peolpe who are watching my back and im watching theirs. But anyway I'm going to go back to playing FF7.