he couldn't just leave me alone. I officially fucking hate being so accessible to assholes via AIM.
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boy: i love that the modern way to disconnect with someone is to unfriend them on social networks. really impressive.
me: considering it is the only connection we currently have, I figured it would be appropriate.
boy: then why not block me from aim?
me: I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore? I figured deleting you would be enough.
boy: well, at least you proved my theories right
me: what theories are those?
boy: it doesnt even matter. if i told you, it wouldnt make any difference.
me: then why bother even mentioning it?
boy: because its entertaining
me: fucking with people's heads is entertaining to you? ha. how nice.
boy: no, if i wanted to fuck with your head i would just tell you that my theory was that you were remarkably immature....that your lack of speech had nothing to do with shyness, but more just the fact that you were a social idiot. and this fact was proven by the idea that somehow deleting a myspace friendship would make any difference in the world
me: what exactly are you getting out of this? do you just LIKE to make people feel bad about themselves? no, deleting you does not do anything except insure that neither of us has to reminded that the other exists at any point ever thanks to newsfeeds. that's a start in my book. and for the record, maybe I am immature or a social idiot or whatever.. but I also happen to have social anxiety disorder. which is a mental illness. way to pick on the crazy person. I hope it makes you feel better about yourself.
-BLOCKED-
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what the fuck. I never did anything to that guy. why does he have to ruin my day and make me cry?
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boy: i love that the modern way to disconnect with someone is to unfriend them on social networks. really impressive.
me: considering it is the only connection we currently have, I figured it would be appropriate.
boy: then why not block me from aim?
me: I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore? I figured deleting you would be enough.
boy: well, at least you proved my theories right
me: what theories are those?
boy: it doesnt even matter. if i told you, it wouldnt make any difference.
me: then why bother even mentioning it?
boy: because its entertaining
me: fucking with people's heads is entertaining to you? ha. how nice.
boy: no, if i wanted to fuck with your head i would just tell you that my theory was that you were remarkably immature....that your lack of speech had nothing to do with shyness, but more just the fact that you were a social idiot. and this fact was proven by the idea that somehow deleting a myspace friendship would make any difference in the world
me: what exactly are you getting out of this? do you just LIKE to make people feel bad about themselves? no, deleting you does not do anything except insure that neither of us has to reminded that the other exists at any point ever thanks to newsfeeds. that's a start in my book. and for the record, maybe I am immature or a social idiot or whatever.. but I also happen to have social anxiety disorder. which is a mental illness. way to pick on the crazy person. I hope it makes you feel better about yourself.
-BLOCKED-
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what the fuck. I never did anything to that guy. why does he have to ruin my day and make me cry?
I just got into a huge fucking fight with someone over... over I don't even know. I don't know what the fuck just happened. He tells me he is staying away from me "for my own good" and doesn't understand why I treat him like an asshole for it. Homeboy broke up with me via the 'failure to answer or return phone calls' method.. randomly starts talking to me again a couple months later, but then proceeds to recall all the ways I fucked it up with him and generally making me feel like shit. And he wonders why I get snarky with him? And then somewhere in the midst of our fight, he confesses that he DOES like me, but would prefer to never speak to me again. Considering HE was the one to re-initiate contact, I don't fucking understand!! He likes me, but doesn't want to hang out with me "for my own good". I annoy him when we talk online, and yet he keeps messaging me. I asked him what the hell he wanted from me and he got offline. Oh yea, this entire debacle was over fucking AIM. So now here I sit at 3 in the morning, crying over some boy I haven't even seen in months.. and I don't know WHY.
My immediate reaction is simply to delete him from my buddy list and all social networking sites. If he doesn't want to speak to me, first of all, a good start would be to NOT message me randomly online... so I'm making it easy for him.
I think what upsets me the most is that I've met someone new, someone very promising.. and I know I'm fucking it all up again just the way I did with this guy. I really, really hope he hasn't noticed yet.
My immediate reaction is simply to delete him from my buddy list and all social networking sites. If he doesn't want to speak to me, first of all, a good start would be to NOT message me randomly online... so I'm making it easy for him.
I think what upsets me the most is that I've met someone new, someone very promising.. and I know I'm fucking it all up again just the way I did with this guy. I really, really hope he hasn't noticed yet.
you can't tell so much in the picture, but...
I shaved half my head. Maann, I'm trendy.
I shaved half my head. Maann, I'm trendy.
Fuck, I don't even want to be looking at that right now.
So anyway. Tell me a happy story.
So anyway. Tell me a happy story.
"Your life doesn't need me to be part of it. I don't know why you're bothering at this point."
..... ouch. all I said was hi.
..... ouch. all I said was hi.
