So yesterday I found out that my dad is dying. I'm not a depressive person in any way, I always find the fun in something, but this has knocked me senseless. And the worst thing is I'm stuck in Stockport and can't get to him until tonight.
My dad took a paracetamol overdose last Thursday and currently his liver and kidneys are failing. I spoke to him Friday and he said he was ill with a cold. The hospital called me yesterday evening and told me he is pretty much terminal. My mom and nan went to see him last night and he is comatosed.
Maybe I'll be criticised for sharing this with the Internet, maybe you'll judge me, but sometimes strangers give the best comfort.
Suicide is selfish. Fucking selfish. It is not a cry for help it is the ultimate form of self absorption . My father has 2 children, a 70 year old mother, a 98 year old grandmother, an ex wife, a newly estranged husband (yes, HUSBAND), a brother and a career doing what he has always wanted to, singing. He knows I love him. He knows my mother still cares for him and that his own mother and grandmother will always help him out. I've always been able to tell him anything. When I was taking ecstasy, I told my dad, we shared our experiences and laughed about it. He never once told me to stop he simply told me to be careful. He never judged me and I never judged him.
I haven't slept. I haven't eaten and I'm out in public with no make up on. Now I know I'm fucked up.
My dad took a paracetamol overdose last Thursday and currently his liver and kidneys are failing. I spoke to him Friday and he said he was ill with a cold. The hospital called me yesterday evening and told me he is pretty much terminal. My mom and nan went to see him last night and he is comatosed.
Maybe I'll be criticised for sharing this with the Internet, maybe you'll judge me, but sometimes strangers give the best comfort.
Suicide is selfish. Fucking selfish. It is not a cry for help it is the ultimate form of self absorption . My father has 2 children, a 70 year old mother, a 98 year old grandmother, an ex wife, a newly estranged husband (yes, HUSBAND), a brother and a career doing what he has always wanted to, singing. He knows I love him. He knows my mother still cares for him and that his own mother and grandmother will always help him out. I've always been able to tell him anything. When I was taking ecstasy, I told my dad, we shared our experiences and laughed about it. He never once told me to stop he simply told me to be careful. He never judged me and I never judged him.
I haven't slept. I haven't eaten and I'm out in public with no make up on. Now I know I'm fucked up.
The SG CSI was on TV last Friday. It was the first time that I saw it and I have to say I was kinda disappointed, not by the girls but by the portrayal.
It seemed to me that the girls were shown in the stereotypical way that most of the 'mainstream' believes tattooed, pierced etc people to be...weird.
I loved Amina in it, though she was great, as was Al, but I thought the reason for the girl's murder was also paper thin and pretty much just an excuse to get the girls on it. The ending was also well cheesy.
But on the whole I did enjoy it and it's great publicity for the site, just thought it could have been done better.
On another note, it was Betty's birthday Monday, was going to give her a party but she's had the shits so no special dog cake
Old picture but still the cutest one I have.
Cost me £40 at the vets for 2 injections and 2 solutions I have to squirt into her mouth. Robbed!
It seemed to me that the girls were shown in the stereotypical way that most of the 'mainstream' believes tattooed, pierced etc people to be...weird.
I loved Amina in it, though she was great, as was Al, but I thought the reason for the girl's murder was also paper thin and pretty much just an excuse to get the girls on it. The ending was also well cheesy.
But on the whole I did enjoy it and it's great publicity for the site, just thought it could have been done better.
On another note, it was Betty's birthday Monday, was going to give her a party but she's had the shits so no special dog cake
Old picture but still the cutest one I have.
Cost me £40 at the vets for 2 injections and 2 solutions I have to squirt into her mouth. Robbed!
Tattoo show Saturday, yay! I might get a subdermal anchor done, although apparently they're charging £60 which is kinda excessive for something I could do myself.
I was supposed to have a photoshoot today but I've been too sick and have a lovely faky nose. Been drowning in my own snot for the past 3 days.
That and lady nature intervenes at the precise moment she should fuck off.
Bummer.
I was supposed to have a photoshoot today but I've been too sick and have a lovely faky nose. Been drowning in my own snot for the past 3 days.
That and lady nature intervenes at the precise moment she should fuck off.
Bummer.
My boyfriend's sister had her baby today at 3.15am.
I hate babies but this one is actually cute, apart from the fact that in the 15 minutes I was there she was sick on herself and did a shit that looked like liqourice. Yum.
Aoife (pronounced Eefa, it's Irish) Josephine Ruby.
Now my boy's trying super hard to get into my womb, god. He doesn't seem to understand the phrase 'bucket cunt'.
I hate babies but this one is actually cute, apart from the fact that in the 15 minutes I was there she was sick on herself and did a shit that looked like liqourice. Yum.
Aoife (pronounced Eefa, it's Irish) Josephine Ruby.
Now my boy's trying super hard to get into my womb, god. He doesn't seem to understand the phrase 'bucket cunt'.
How do you politely tell someone to fuck off?
This annoying little fucker is in the shop and he won't go away, but as he's a customer and his money is good my polite 'I'm really busy with all these orders ooh' approach seems was too subtle.
And he has his big sausage hands on my dog.
This annoying little fucker is in the shop and he won't go away, but as he's a customer and his money is good my polite 'I'm really busy with all these orders ooh' approach seems was too subtle.
And he has his big sausage hands on my dog.
I'm nowhere near drunk enough to be able to make regular conversation with strangers. Maybe that's the beauty of the internet...
I'm nowhere near drunk enough to be able to make regular conversation with strangers! Maybe that's the beauty of the internet...
Wow, double post, this really shows my intenet skills off to their full potential!
Wow, double post, this really shows my intenet skills off to their full potential!
