i want my sickness to be gone, so i can get things done.
i want it to be warm again, so i can go out and take pictures without freezing.

((i still need to try malloriegh's soup!))

i want to start drawing again.


i rebleached the undercut of my hair!
and my ears are at 4 again. (:
which means....
i can wear my awesome ebony star pins i have!!
they are pretty and dark, mmm wood.


kinda hard to see... but oh well~!
oh, and, dude, i have the coolest two freckles ever on the side of my neck.
i've decided they are my vampire bite. (haha)


(thank my giant teddy bear for the background.)

i want to be sleeping right now, but i kept waking up, having bad dreams, and just feeling sick, overall. i didn't go to bed in a happy state, so that probably doesn't help. i'm trying not to be too mad, i will be less mad by morning... or whenever i finally get my rest in.

the "amore, more, ore, re" saying i was going to get tattooed on the back of my neck, i think i want it on my wrist now. i was bored earlier in the night, and wrote it on there with one of my pens.. i think it looks pretty cool. 'cept. yeah. i need a wider lens, because, i had to reflect my arm in the mirror so i could take a picture of it.


(which, by the way means: love, behavior, words, actions.)


enddd. loves.

i'm addicted to soy milk.
vanilla, chocolate, banana.
whatev'.

my ac adaptor broke.
i'm on the family computer..
ahmmmmmm.

i have lots of pictures to show! yay!

my new love has arrived.
damn you work for slicing up my free time.

eeeeeeeeeeee.

mmmmmmmmmmm.

i'm getting a nikon d70 and a nikon 55-200mm lens to go with it. (:
i'm excited, but the body may show up the day after the lens and memory card.

i burned my right index finger fairly bad at work today.
i went to the doctor and got meds and cream stuff.

i cant feel it right now.
so yay,

its a bit hard to type too.

so right now i'm leaning towards photography as my major.
i actually feel like drawing right now, but it might be hard to pull off..

and i'm also thinkin that PNCA is where i'll go, instead of MCAD.

we'll see.
life doesnt go accordin to plan.

i'm basically pretty much in love with my job.
which is like, really werid to say, but whatev'.

for the most part, it's working espresso bar. i absolutely love making drinks, foaming milk, etc. the other parts aren't so bad, but i'm the happiest at and on the bar. i'd rock to join the barista competition they have, but, until i learn how to pour shots without a machine doing everything - i wouldn't do too well. i have been reading about espresso, espresso machines, drinks (more indepth than what i've been taught), milk and coffee.

i seriously just want to keep reading and reading. i also need to be tasting more coffees at work. i mean, i'm not a big black coffee drinker, but i enjoy it. i also enjoy learning the differences between coffees and the different things you can taste in each. it's actually a bit easy to tell which coffees come from which region.

at work, i practice making my foam when i have time to. and i get a little irked when i'm working with other the milk other people have steamed, because most people don't care to make 'microfoam', as it's called. i've learned a lot just from noticing what works best, but also reading.

i think one of the reasons i like my job so much is that, i get to work with my hands. i get to create in a sense, and as an artist, making things, even if the receipe is already set, is what i enjoy doing. when the woman comes in an orders a two-and-a-half venti half-pump vanilla two-percent extra-dry foam caramel macchiato, i get excited, because it puts a twist on what i have to make.

i'm so happy to have something i enjoy doing, something that doesn't require college.
i was told that all the jobs i'd have before i got into an actual career were just going to be crap.

honestly, even when i go to college and get my major(s), i would still love to be working as a barista on the side as well. it'd even be wicked cool to have my own stuff at home to make my own.

my goals for my self right now (regarding work) are to keep reading up more on drinks/coffee/milk/etc, get my coffee tastings done, move on to the next training booklet, and be the first coffee master at my store. (: that would be the best ever, and i know my manager would help me along the way.


other than work...

i've been surrounded by family for the past week. it get's kind of obnoxious, my family is very religious - 'cept me. but it was really nice to see my family from out of state again, especially my cousin. i'm just, not working with the whole family thing right now, i need to get away from it. their views and mine clash so much, i feel kind of held back - in a sense, that i can't express myself around them.

i got a lomography fisheye camera for christmas, and i am getting pictures back from the three rolls of film i've used in less than a week of taking pictures. i'm pretty excited about this, i'm a digital baby, and even just a lomo camera is making me happy to be using something different with. i still need to find a place to develop my holga pictures.

i'm going to be investing the 500 dollars i got for christmas from my grampa on my dad's side into a digital SLR. i've been a lot more into photography lately, which is really nice. i just want to keep going out and taking pictures. it'd also be nice to get a polaroid camera too.

i love cameras.

anyway.
who the fuck reads this?

later!

happy decemebeeeeer!




<3

i should buy a wig, so i can dye my hair.
oh hair dye, how i miss thee.

Back for another month! I have a massive phone bill to pay off... so I've stopped spending money on myself for the most part, and so I decided i wanted my nekkid ladies back! Thus, here I am... hoooooray~

I am loving my job to pieces, it's really awesome, sure, I could use more money, but the fact that i actually like it is more worth it to me than the money. if you wanna donate money, please do. : D there's a chance my phone will be turned off... but that's alright, it's only 15 dollars to reactivate it. and i'm thinking about maybe dropping my minutes down to 900 a month. because i've been making myself get along with out it.

but still... oi.
better things to spend money on than my phone.
but they totally ripped me off this last month.
fucking cell phones.


anyway.
i need espresso.
i'm tired.


i love iced chai.

end!

I am employeed now, well almost. I go in on Thursday to fill in paperwork for Starbucks. Woooooohooo, coffee! Just kinda sucks cuz I still wont get to have my crazy hair colors or facial piercings. But I'll get to learn about coffee! And then I'll be able to use that later on.... Maybe get a job at some little coffee shop that doesn't care about that kinda stuff when I go to college.

Sounds like a plan to me.

Si?
Si!