Thanksgiving Blog!

...so yeah, Thanksgiving wasn't the best this year. After having read other people's horrible Thanksgivings, I'm not going to say mine sucked...but.

To start, I'm currently in a predicament. All the job opportunities that are opening up for me are in my home city, the city I moved out of on purpose. I also really like where I'm living now, but its too far of a commute to stay here and drive down there. I also haven't applied for a job in a long time, and these are real good opportunities. Part of my wants to fuck it up so I don't have to choose career > city I love, other parts of me wants to get a good career. So I had a little anxiety-freak out in the middle of the week. Despite my best friend spending much of the week with her BF, she still spent some time helping me out...so that was cool. But a stressful way to start the week.

Thanksgiving came. Generally, I like having that my family feels small...but Thanksgiving is the exception. Every year of my life, even when I lived on the other side of the country, I've had big Thanksgiving dinners. This year was just me and my parents. My aunt and cousin decided to go celebrate in Canada, my brother is a chef and has to work Thanksgiving, much of my paternal family is dead, my maternal side lives away and is very good at making me uncomfortable, and my friend was busy. So it was just us. We still had a big feast, but... we could all tell it was small, and it was definitely felt. My parents were just overjoyed I was there. That's what there life has become... just happy to have one of their sons show, as opposed to having huge Thanksgivings.

Those who read this blog may know that my dog got sick, but was recovering from appeared to be partial paralysis. Was. When I got in, she was just sitting funny, but could still move. She quickly declined while I was there. Before I left, I had to carry my dog to where-ever she wanted to go because she couldn't even stand. She stopped eating. She died on Monday.

So yeah... I then did some things to cheer myself up after the stressful week. I went to the Dethklok concert, an then went and saw Twilight with my best friend. I'd normally talk more about those, but I'm still in a somber mood. Yep.