Non fui, fui, non sum, non curo

what's going on?
sorry i've been a slack prick. this is my first post in a long time.
there is either to much to mention in one post or too little i can't decide which. so i'll just leave you with this...
"For the existentials, negation is their God. To be precise, that god is maintained only through the negation of human reason. But, like suicides, gods change with men." Albert Camus.
thought it was apt.

existence precedes essence - sartre

When young, we mourn for one woman... as we grow old, for women in general.
The tragedy in life, is that man is never free... yet strives for what can never be.
the thing most feared in secret, always happens.
my life, my love, what are now?
but the more the pain grows, the more this instinct for life somehow asserts its self.
the neccessery beauty in life is in giving yourself to it completely.
only later will it clarify itself.. something, something i can't hear the rest properly.

i'm sick of words, can't make them. i just want to make pictures.





no offense intended

....and nominees for clockworkcrow's top 5 for 2005 are...

Blockhead.......Downtown Science
Buck 65.......Secret House Against The World
Busdriver.......Fear of a black tangent
Gorillaz.......Demon Days
The Mars Volta.......Frances the Mute
Danger Doom.......The Mouse and the Mask
One Self.......Children Of Possibility
Sigur Ros.......Takk
Sufjan Stevens.......Illinois
The Go! Team.......Thunder,Lightning,Strike
Kings Of Leon.......Youth & Young Manhood
Beck.......Guero
Cog.......The New Normal
Daedelus.......Exquisite Corpse
Edan.......Beauty And The Beat
Mike Patton vs The X-Ecutioners.......General Patton vs The X-Men
Handsome Boy Modeling School.......White People
Fantomas.......Spended Animation
Sarah Blasko.......The Overture And The Underscore
Queens Of The Stone Age.......Lullabies To Paralyze

and the top 5 is.... drum roll please..................

fuck that was a difficult task. there, you happy now greg?

hoorah for me!!!!!!!!!! i'm finished uni for the year!
i finish my last crit for my video piece. its called the myth of sisyphus. albert camus this french existentialist guy wrote this essay called the myth of sisyphus. in it he talks about this greek legend of sisyphus who pissed off the gods so they punished him by making him perpetually push a boulder up a hill only to have it roll back down when he reached the top. camus uses this for metaphor life. anyway i was going up this ramp at a train station that went forever and thought this so sisyphean. so basically it's one long shot going up a ramp, looped. the rubbish that passes for art these days. gone are the days of avant-garde modernist art hero. anyway it got a good reception. i'll post it on my website.
yeah yeah i'm gone to smashed!

oh no people are going grey, disappearing into the ether. and i didn't even have time to say good bye.