update

moved again

was living in pa fora month, now im in NYC

got a job at a hotel near times square, ima janitor again wooo

lookin for a place on the lower east side

still broke, havent got my first check yet

um...

oh ya, i had to shave off my beard and my hawk for this job lame





i have a chin again, its weird

back in alaska livin on south cushman with the street walkers and tattoo shops

liquor by the half gal is more expensive up here

i found a drunk passed out in the laundry room the other day

tonight im getting into someones pants even if its my own

guns are funs



i found mr soft



i forgot how dirty it is up here

so far, this year gets a "F"

a homo crapped on my head



and im going back to alaska in febuarary...perfect timing i know

this winter/spring shall be the crap half seasions of paul, a lil mini vacation...in a frozen wasteland, least ill be with my old friends again

same shit different day

i dont remember falling asleep:

i woke up and the bed was empty, she was gone, my left hand grabbing at the empty space that could have been her thigh, my right hand covered in blood, "what happened..." the apartment is empty, no ones home, she wont be coming back

i fucking hate closed minded judgemental fucking scene kids, pieces of hypcritical shit need to get a fuckin life, fuck fuck fuck, man..just..fuck, it pisses me of, "im different, and weird, so ima rip on other people that are weird too, but DIFFERENT"


god damnit

a poem to my missing jug of whiskey

ahem


oh my missing jug of whiskey
oh how i miss thee oh how i miss thee
your battery acid texture
always cures my vapors
i love how you shrink my liver
down to a sliver
you always deliver me
from this world of cruelty
oh how i miss thee
do you miss me?

"just say no"


holy crap ona stick stuck in my eye

when will the powers at be in charge of the "war on drugs" give up this tired ass non-effective slogan? so far, nancy reagan told all of us to "just say no" AND im sure most of you had to put up with a uniformed cop coming into your classroom every weekend reminding you to "just say no" well guess what, "just aint no" just aint cutting it,

so youd think, after so long theyd just give up this relic of the 80s slogan, everyone they thought we figured were important in our eyes told us to say no, and we didnt give a fuck, well, theyve found a new medium to deliver this important message that will save our lives, a medium that represents a culmination of the previous first ladies, cops, and famous athletes who have all told us this before to no avail, what is this mystery weapon that wil change the face of the war on drugs?

wall urinal screens

you know how in the guys bathroom we have those nifty wall toilets? well now theyre outfitted (at least in the taco bell i went to last night) with bright red screen with the words, "JUST SAY NO" ill give them this though, putting a message on something red in a toilet is a damn good way to get someones attention when they are pissing, "FUCK AM I PISSING BLOOD AGAIN?..oh...just..say...no...hmm, never thought of it like that before" how many people do they think are willing to listen to these? i think they shoulda took a page out of the bible, moses goes up some mountain, talks to invisible people, comes down with some living standards carved in stone, and people are STILL living by them, i mean damn, with as much money as they are spending on this so called "war on drugs" they could build a time machine and add on the 11th comandment, "THOU SHALT SAY NO" i can imagine how these budget meetins go
political douchebag:"whats the next item on the agenda"
some other douche:"this years proposed budget on the war on drugs, the proposed request will take another 1.5 million from our schools but our advisors have a weapon up their sleeve this year"
political douchebag:"mind control chips?"
random lobbyist douche:"BRIGHT RED UNRINAL SCREENS WITH THE PHRASE 'JUST SAY NO' ON THEM INSTALLED IN EVERY PUBLIC RESTROOM ACROSS AMERICA! MWAHAHAHAHAHA"
(all of congress joins in maniacal laughter)

im sorry but bright red unincal screens are as anti-climactic as the first time i ever had sex

now if you excuse me, im off to work, good day

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