Its hard to know I lost someone I gave my heart to and they are never coming back.
It's hard to move on when your heart still belongs to them.
I find myself trying to find that new person to care for and share memories with
but I just can't do it. The road leads back to her but she isn't there.

oh what to do? what to do?

All I can do is Drink heavily, Write, Work and distract myself from all of it.
I hate dwelling on it.