Do you ever just get kinda sick of life?
Not that anything in life is particularily not good right now. I'm just sick. Literally. And I have been since the day after new years and it just wearing me down. I hardly ever get sick and when i finally do it hits hard and i'm in a crappy mood all the time and I hate that, so then I get in an even bigger funk and I know exactly how ridiculous that sounds. I wanted to do so much stuff this weekend and I didn't get any of it done. I wanted to go out to Clayville and get some pictures for my Dance with the Devil and Through the Looking Glass Shoots and I didn't even call any of the people that were supposed to be in it. I didn't get any of my clothes done this weekend. I was supposed to have my D.E.K jacket and Joanns leopard skirt done LAST weekend! I hate feeling like all I'm ever doing is a whole bunch of nothing but at the same time I can't get motivated to do anything and I don't like doing things halfassed. Oh well. I guess I just needed to bitch. It's only midnight... I could prolly get some stuff done tonight still but I have to be at work at 8 and the day goes so god damn slow when i'm tired. I can't wait for the day when I quit this damn job. Sitting at a desk all day just isn't where I should be. Eh. I'm workin on getting out of it. It's gonna happen. This whole damn entry is so whiny. Jesus. Sometimes I'm such a fag.
Not that anything in life is particularily not good right now. I'm just sick. Literally. And I have been since the day after new years and it just wearing me down. I hardly ever get sick and when i finally do it hits hard and i'm in a crappy mood all the time and I hate that, so then I get in an even bigger funk and I know exactly how ridiculous that sounds. I wanted to do so much stuff this weekend and I didn't get any of it done. I wanted to go out to Clayville and get some pictures for my Dance with the Devil and Through the Looking Glass Shoots and I didn't even call any of the people that were supposed to be in it. I didn't get any of my clothes done this weekend. I was supposed to have my D.E.K jacket and Joanns leopard skirt done LAST weekend! I hate feeling like all I'm ever doing is a whole bunch of nothing but at the same time I can't get motivated to do anything and I don't like doing things halfassed. Oh well. I guess I just needed to bitch. It's only midnight... I could prolly get some stuff done tonight still but I have to be at work at 8 and the day goes so god damn slow when i'm tired. I can't wait for the day when I quit this damn job. Sitting at a desk all day just isn't where I should be. Eh. I'm workin on getting out of it. It's gonna happen. This whole damn entry is so whiny. Jesus. Sometimes I'm such a fag.