goodbye for now.

Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?

this part was bold for a reason.

so everyone has been faking out on ne.
i went to a kid robot charity event tonight.
good times.
bloody knuckles......
the person i want to talk to most, isnt talking to me...


goodnight.

This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you had just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me

i got a promotion!
and another on the way in dec/jan if things go well.

I'm growing out my hair like it was when I was single
It was longer than I'd known you, I had no money then
I had no worries then at all
But with such a high standard of living I just feel like I am dying
I would start an argument but you can barely even talk
But there is always good reason for your silence
You have to take care of some business
So I fix your plate and I stay out of the way
And you will stay like that forever, right in front of your computer
You'll look up one day but you won't recognize me
So now you want to change
You read a letter from a lawyer
Want to take me out to dinner
Want to bury me under a mound of shopping bags
Like it would really make a difference or make up for your disinterest
I'm a bill you pay, I'm a contract you can't break
And it is like I'm under water or on an endless escalator
I just go up and up but I don't ever reach the top
And it reads just like the bible, twenty centuries of scandal
I guess it all depends on how you interpret it
The word is LOVE
The word is LOSS
The words are DAMAGED GOODS
That is what I am
A lifetime gets chalked-up to an experience, coincidence
We are chained to the events
That's it

hello
i love you
wont you tell me your name

hello
i love you
wont you tell me your name

my who knows when the next time i'll update entry:

anybody that reads my journal knows that jaidee and i broke up about a month ago.

i moved right around the corner from my old apartment, which was extremely convenient.
i like my place, i have no living room, but my room is the biggest i've ever had since living in NY. 12x12 with a closet. i don't have a window, but i'm used to that. i do have a skylight however.

its a day late and a dollar short, but will, i apologize for everything that happened.

i applied for a super amazing job, and didn't even get a call back. :/
so aspen, that means you can get a new wallet and luggage anytime you want.

i went and saw the exorcism of emily rose last night, not bad. kinda corny and predictable at some points, but overall i enjoyed it. jaidee screamed like a little bitch while simultaneously eating a LARGE bucket of popcorn all by herself.

i'm drinking more than ever.

i'm reading atlas shrugged.

i designed my own nike dunks at the nike design lab in soho, got them, and wrecked them the first night i wore them.

my hair is getting freakishly long.

this is all i can think of at the moment.

till we meet again...