Sorry to everyone for being so sparse on here lately. I have had a lot of things going on and haven't really had much time to get online and just do something for me. I see that my blogs have also been lacking so I hope this one will make up for them. As my last blog said I officially made it to 31.. (hooray hooray i know) my birthday was nice. nothing big, just family. and wonderful cake. hunting season has started here in california and i got to go out and chase after bambi. wild fires are burning all around and i am waiting on a call to go get on the fire lines. but it hasnt happened yet. i have been fighting depression and the sense of Idd that just wont go away. still sober though.. so thats always a good thing. i havent even been working on my tattoos like i promised myself i would. all in all i am leading a rather lack luster life at the moment.. i need something to happen or a spark to kickstart my soul. on the upside autmn is almost here, i can feel the trees changing as well as the animals rustling.. hurry up and get here already i need my season.
I made it to 31... Officially.. today is the day after my birthday and I am still here..so uh there is that... and uh... ooohhhhh I actually had a cake i wanted for my birthday... yay for ppl who give a shit about me.
Slow computer. hot weather, forest fires...fun fun fun. I haven't been on here in a while and figured i would give an update.. not a whole lot going on. just putting one foot in front of the other. SSDD.
This is my new theme music... For serious. i am going to make a loop and walk around playing it. youtube
<--pictures for COCKSUCKER!Hello Ranty McRanterson...Do you ever just wake up, and think, how the fuck did I get here? (not the biological, sperm, egg, cell division) but rather the why did I make THOSE choices, and why couldn't i have made HER happy. I am just tired of it. I am tired of waking up every morning and feigning happy me. I know i am not the only one who thinks like this, everyone at some point has a bit of a melt down, but for fucks sake, I will be 31 in a month and looking back, my biggest accomplishment is what i left in the toilet this morning after my cup of coffee and cheerios. I feel like Elvis, wait no i don't, that guy was a womanizing pill popping alcoholic sonuva bitch who stole his music from black musicians. i just feel like i haven't done shit in this life, i have done a lot of things, but nothing major, nothing that anyone will look back and say.. "yea i remember that guy, he was totally fucking awesome"
I just want to feel like i make a difference and am not just another cog.
and oh my god i am tired of this single life bullshit. what the fucking fuck. i mean come on! aside from the fact that i hunt and fish and eat MEAT, i think i am a decent guy. no boils or warts, no diseases, 8 fingers, 2 thumbs, 10 toes. man bits only... im not super fit, but i'm not grotesque either. i have love to give, and no one wants it. and i'll be honest, this site is FUCKING DEPRESSING AS FUCK, i mean seriously, if it wasnt for the few actual friends I have on this site, i think i would never come back. All these hopefuls trying to get love to go pink and make money. shit i have an idea, get a job, you know youre gorgeous, its just a tease. damn. i dont know, maybe the whole concept is lost on me, i love the tattoos, and the few people who i am actually friends with.. you know who you are. thank you for being here. but for fucks sake, seriously if one more hopeful asks to be my friend im going to punch a toddler holding a puppy in the throat.
is this who i am, on a day to day basis... no it's not, i have just had enough today, and feel like ranting and bitching is better than swearing at a nun. gibberish gobbilygook. fuckitty fuck fuck fuckerstein
I just want to feel like i make a difference and am not just another cog.
and oh my god i am tired of this single life bullshit. what the fucking fuck. i mean come on! aside from the fact that i hunt and fish and eat MEAT, i think i am a decent guy. no boils or warts, no diseases, 8 fingers, 2 thumbs, 10 toes. man bits only... im not super fit, but i'm not grotesque either. i have love to give, and no one wants it. and i'll be honest, this site is FUCKING DEPRESSING AS FUCK, i mean seriously, if it wasnt for the few actual friends I have on this site, i think i would never come back. All these hopefuls trying to get love to go pink and make money. shit i have an idea, get a job, you know youre gorgeous, its just a tease. damn. i dont know, maybe the whole concept is lost on me, i love the tattoos, and the few people who i am actually friends with.. you know who you are. thank you for being here. but for fucks sake, seriously if one more hopeful asks to be my friend im going to punch a toddler holding a puppy in the throat.
is this who i am, on a day to day basis... no it's not, i have just had enough today, and feel like ranting and bitching is better than swearing at a nun. gibberish gobbilygook. fuckitty fuck fuck fuckerstein
engine pulled, and so is a muscle in my back. called it a day early so i could rest up for the morrow.. also getting some colour to my fair skin...finally thank the sun. and the beard is coming in nicely... hooray for the lumberjack look. or the awesome pirate look.
Covered in grease and oil, sweating with no fan club in sight...except the ducks.... country life is the life for me..Hoorah for Pandora.
add grease and carharts..
add grease and carharts..
one more thing after another with me i tell ya. the upside however...its a hundred degrees outside....thats up right?.
