Oh sweet Neptune's beard I am sick. i can't breath except through my mouth, my tonsils are swollen like plums and I have a wretched cough.. the upside is i don't have to talk to anyone if I don't want to... the down side. I'm sick, with no insurance, and feel like i just got hit by a diaper truck and left in the gutter covered in poop.


in tattoo news... I'm debating which side of the force i should be on... the rebels have a cleaner logo...but i do love me some boba fett and Darth vader... the original Dark Lord... decisions decisions..

UGH! i never got around to the tattoo yesterday, wicked headache took me totally by surprise and sidelined my day. I suppose though, that it (the headache) was a good thing, now i have more time to plan what exactly i want to tattoo. i have decided it is going to be my left leg that will be sacrificed. what a chump..i am going to royally fuck his shit up...seriously...i really dont know what i want to tattoo though. i want it to flow together, but there are so many ideas still... i suppose wish me luck on this one.. and if you have any ideas feel free to let me hear them.

another one for today. how about that. this guy is totally fucking awesome. yes yes, i am fully aware. I am currently in the process of mixing up some black pigment to start tattooing the shit out of myself. what am i going to tattoo you might ask.. NO FUCKING CLUE! it is just time for some new ink. maybe some nightmare before christmas... maybe some american traditional. who knows. i am just in a creative mood and don't feel like drawing, or running the dogs today. woot woot i'm off.

UGH... that's UUUGGGGGGGHHHHHH... as in fuuuuuuuuuuuuucck. I hate San Jose, yea i'm sure it is just a personal thing... but that's what this is about right? i mean its a blog.... bullshit to complain about. thanksgiving was well thanksgiving. turkey stuffing, potatoes... the usual annual dinner......lame. however. it isn't raining. thank christ. its cold as fuck. not freezing in the literal sense, but seriously fuckin' hell.. the upside... SCARFS and HOODIES! yayuh.

getting everything in order to leave for San Jose for a week.... so not looking forward to it. the people.. ugh, the sharks. ugh. that's an update.

I have been listening to dubstep all afternoon...thinking of going back to school and tattoo designs... i need motivation. or a muse.. yes a muse. i could really use something.

I am so cold right now. i wish it would snow. dammit.

I want to move. That's what this is going to be about.....


try number two...

I don't want to life in California any more. this place does not feel like my home. the politics and government are just too much. you would think that a state as "liberal" as California, would pull its collective head from its ass and make real changes and do something great with this state... I know that really not feeling at home here has nothing to do with politics, but it adds to my disdain for living here. Bellingham, Washington felt like home...hell Cleveland, Ohio felt more like home. both places i miss and yearn for and yet i am here.... jobless and unhappy in california...seriously. what the fuck...

this is just a rant..

with the exception of two wonderful, beautiful ladies here, I was told Happy Veteran's day by my two closest friends... who happen to be husband and wife... the fact that they truly meant it makes up for the rest of my friends and family who didn't say it..

On another more awesome upbeat note.. I made some Wicked good Pumpkin Pie... from scratch.. and by scratch i mean i broke down some pumpkins and pureed them. and them made pie crust and baked some deliciousness and then ate two slices... total fat kid..

It is raining.. which is nice.... kind of. the rain has made the cold mo betta. i wish it was super cold though. i like that shit. its great. its gives me an excuse to wear scarfs. like a MOD. ahhh remember those days... Heroin Bob.
anyhow. this is my update.. up to date and everything...

oohhh i want a dinosaur so i can ride it around like a horse.. just saying.....


seriously... christmas is coming... dont be chincy. buy me a mutha fukin DINOSAUR..

So here is today... 11.11...Veterans day.. which I am. and not a single head nod, tip of a hat, kudos, atta boy nothing... I am glad i put my life on the line for 5 years so people can just sit back and look at today as just another day of the week... And oh so happy that everyone, especially those who never served and think the military is a bad idea, gets tomorrow off from work... that's awesome. you're welcome.... I'm not trolling for thanks or admiration, i just want to be a voice today, and well frankly i kind of deserve the right, on today of all days.