I figured that since it had been a while, and i haven't written a personal feelings style post in some time I would today. So let me see.. what is on my mind. not a lot, but then not a little. lately i have been thinking that i really wish i had a best friend.. not that i dont have a best friend.. I do she is amazing. but she is pregnant, and has a boyfriend who finds our relationship unsettling to say the least. I want a best friend who i can call a cocksucker. yes that is pretty out there, so is my sense of humor. I feel like i am in that movie "I love you man" seriously. some days i just wish i had a friend who i could go out and be a complete ass with. I know that that probably sounds dumb i guess to some people. but really I dont care. i am fairly sure that the majority of you have had friends since you were a small child.. Well not this guy. I have been nomadic since i was a small child. never really had time to set up shop and really make a lasting friendship with anyone. so now in my adult years i have none. well yea no. i really dont have any. so that is the main issue plaguing me as of late..