Today is a close friends birthday. She died almost 4 years ago. It was such a life-changing event. I was pulled up by the roots and pretty much had to decide who I was going to be from that moment on. It didnt all come to me in a flash, but I think I gradually built myself up in a way that maintained a lot of the things I liked about me, and got rid of a few that didnt sit so well.
Ive taken to considering the day something of a personal holiday a moment to think about her life and death, and to think about where Im at vis--vis last year and the year before, as well as where I stand on intentions for the future.
Every year gets better, though the changes are a lot less dramatic now. From time to time some important thing I understood before and lost touch with pops back into place. I feel good these days, which 2 or 3 or 4 years ago didnt really seem possible.
Ive taken to considering the day something of a personal holiday a moment to think about her life and death, and to think about where Im at vis--vis last year and the year before, as well as where I stand on intentions for the future.
Every year gets better, though the changes are a lot less dramatic now. From time to time some important thing I understood before and lost touch with pops back into place. I feel good these days, which 2 or 3 or 4 years ago didnt really seem possible.