I keep trying to push back the mental instability, telling myself that there's nothing I can do about the things I'm worrying about.
Everything I'm feeling, when I hear myself say it in my head (aw fuck, I'm talking to myself in my head)..I feel like I'm just crying out for attention. But if I don't write it out, it may hole the depression even deeper into me.
So my "pity me" list is going to be hidden
Okay..I'm done.
In other news, I really miss Washington...still. Seattle is being mentioned a lot in my daily life, in school (statistics) and on here. Corey and I are really talking about what we are going to do when he graduates in December. We're debating on whether we head back to Kent (blech), to save up some money and be around our parents, or if we head to Spokane (Still Washington), where we plan to settle down together. I have family in Spokane too....well, we have at least 8 months to plan.
I found out that my good friend from back home, Dami, is able to read my blogs on here and keep up with my ridiculous life( HI DAMI LOVE) it honestly made me cry. I miss my friends from washington so badly.
I'm sacking so badly....I hate my English class and that's where I'm really slacking....the fruit of my slacking is me building up my lol folders. I sure am pitiful......but here's at least one (if I don't get carried away) of the things that made me giggle lately
okay..I got slightly carried away.
I don't like having blogs full of depressing stuff....full of me being needy and greedy....fuck...