Does anyone out there believe in soul mates?
I'm sure that I have just found mine. Besides being absolutely beautiful, she is caring and kind, and puts the needs of others ahead of her own. She's driven and determined and a total romantic. She's also one of the biggest dorks I've ever met, which is awesome. It's like she mirrors me.
I've known her for 2 years, and have had chances to hang out with her before, but never really spent any time with her outside of work related conferences. This weekend, I went to Chicago to train some people, and she was there to help with the training. After the training was over on Saturday, we went out to a bar down by Wrigley Field and had a few drinks, played some pool, and talked about life in general, and ours in particular. We like all the same things, are around the same level of intelligence (even though she has a Masters Degree, and I've just picked up knowledge over the years), and are both completely dedicated to the cause of helping homeless and street kids.
After a guy that she had met in Chicago a couple of months before showed up, we started drinking more, as he was buying all the drinks and shots. I kind of feel bad, because we ended up leaving him at the bar without saying anything. On the other hand, all he was doing was cutting me out of any conversations and trying to get her into bed. So we said we were going out for a smoke, and went back to the hotel.
When we got back to the hotel, we were in the elevator and she told me that she doesn't like people that play games. She just wants someone who will be honest with her, even if they are all fucked up drunk. We got to the door of the hotel room...I turned around, looked deep into her beautiful blue eyes and said "Jess, I know I may be fucked up right now, but for the last two years I've been afraid to hang out with you because of how beautiful you are and how attracted I am to you. I didn't want to set myself up for rejection, because I've always thought that you were out of my league. I just can't let this pass by without taking a shot."
I went in for the kiss and she returned it. That night, we cuddled in her bed all night, and it's the most comfortable I have felt with a woman in a long time. There are a lot of obstacles in the way, such as her living in Detroit, and me living near Seattle, but I will be seeing her many times over the next 8 months. As I was walking away to catch my plane, I looked into her eyes and told her that if she was willing to try long distance, then so was I, especially since we would be together once a month.
I just hope I didn't make my move to late. She was flying out the same day to go to South Dakota to meet someone that she had met on eHarmony. I've never felt this way before, like I had just met my twin soul, and I just hope I'm not to late.
Even though I don't really believe, I prayed to any god that would listen last night, and I never do that.
I'm sure that I have just found mine. Besides being absolutely beautiful, she is caring and kind, and puts the needs of others ahead of her own. She's driven and determined and a total romantic. She's also one of the biggest dorks I've ever met, which is awesome. It's like she mirrors me.
I've known her for 2 years, and have had chances to hang out with her before, but never really spent any time with her outside of work related conferences. This weekend, I went to Chicago to train some people, and she was there to help with the training. After the training was over on Saturday, we went out to a bar down by Wrigley Field and had a few drinks, played some pool, and talked about life in general, and ours in particular. We like all the same things, are around the same level of intelligence (even though she has a Masters Degree, and I've just picked up knowledge over the years), and are both completely dedicated to the cause of helping homeless and street kids.
After a guy that she had met in Chicago a couple of months before showed up, we started drinking more, as he was buying all the drinks and shots. I kind of feel bad, because we ended up leaving him at the bar without saying anything. On the other hand, all he was doing was cutting me out of any conversations and trying to get her into bed. So we said we were going out for a smoke, and went back to the hotel.
When we got back to the hotel, we were in the elevator and she told me that she doesn't like people that play games. She just wants someone who will be honest with her, even if they are all fucked up drunk. We got to the door of the hotel room...I turned around, looked deep into her beautiful blue eyes and said "Jess, I know I may be fucked up right now, but for the last two years I've been afraid to hang out with you because of how beautiful you are and how attracted I am to you. I didn't want to set myself up for rejection, because I've always thought that you were out of my league. I just can't let this pass by without taking a shot."
I went in for the kiss and she returned it. That night, we cuddled in her bed all night, and it's the most comfortable I have felt with a woman in a long time. There are a lot of obstacles in the way, such as her living in Detroit, and me living near Seattle, but I will be seeing her many times over the next 8 months. As I was walking away to catch my plane, I looked into her eyes and told her that if she was willing to try long distance, then so was I, especially since we would be together once a month.
I just hope I didn't make my move to late. She was flying out the same day to go to South Dakota to meet someone that she had met on eHarmony. I've never felt this way before, like I had just met my twin soul, and I just hope I'm not to late.
Even though I don't really believe, I prayed to any god that would listen last night, and I never do that.
A Relationship with me, from my perspective:
Something I Can Never Have
I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.
Come on tell me
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have
Angel
I'm alone
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love - Let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough - I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough I've suffered and I've seen the light
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right
Don't know what I'm gonna do
About this feeling inside
Yes it's true - Loneliness took me for a ride
Without your love - I'm nothing but a begger
Without your love - a dog without a bone
What can I do I'm sleeping in this bed alone
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right
Come and save me tonight
You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give
When I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why
Baby, Baby
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
you're my angel
Come and take me allright
Come and save me tonight, Come and save me tonight, Come and save me tonight,
Come and save me tonight, Come and save me tonight
I'll Be
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
And you're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I..ll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said.
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I Could Not Ask For More
Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see, the smile upon your face
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are, is everything to me
And these are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And these are the moments, I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for (yeah)
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I�ve had has come true
yeah, right here in this moment, is right where I'm meant to be
Oh, here with you here with me�
Ooh, yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
and these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for yeah
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I�ve hads come true
yeah, and right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
here with you here with me�
I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Cuz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more (more)
ooh and I could not ask for more
Red Flags and Long Nights
Sick of trying to find a way inside
Sick and tired of all the after
Sick of trying ot find a way to slide
Even though it always ends in laughter
Its never hard to tell when things are done
She looked into my eyes and a voice said RUN
She says that I'm a mess but its alright
Whether its 2 weeks, 2 years or just tonight
You can occupy my every sigh,
you can rent a space inside my mind
At least until the price becomes too? HIGH
I can find a reason that we should quit
I can find a reason to do it
I can find excuses for all my shit
She tells me just to work right through it
Shes pretty and I like her but shes too well
Cuz I need red flags and long nights and she can tell
Its not that its my fault its just my style
Beginning with a look and then a smile
You can occupy my every sigh,
you can rent a space inside my mind
At least until the price becomes too ? HIGH
She don't need a thing, she don?t need saving or a lay
Shes got all the friends around and you can hear them say:
Hes not into you hes into the idea of?
But little do they know that shes not through
You can occupy my every sigh,
you can rent a space inside my mind
At least until the price becomes too ? HIGH
Somewhat Damaged
So impressed with all you do
Tried so hard to be like you
Flew too high and burnt the wing
Lost my faith in everything
Lick around divine debris
Taste the wealth of hate in me
Shedding skin succumb defeat
This machine is obsolete
made the choice to go away
Drink the fountain of decay
Tear a hole exquisite red
Fuck the rest and stab it dead
Broken bruised forgotten sore
Too fucked up to care anymore
Poisoned to my rotten core
Too fucked up to care anymore
In the back off the side far away is a place where i hide where i
Stay tried to say tried to ask i needed to all alone by myself where
Were you?
How could i ever think it's funny how everything that
Swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you
Would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
And where were you?
How could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
Never change is different now like you said you and me make it
Through didn't quite fell apart
Where the fuck were you?
And All That Could Have Been
Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here
Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
Were never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been
Gone.. fading..
Everything..
And..
All that..
Could have been..
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Made of Scars
This one came from looking
This one opened twice
These two seem as smooth as silk, flush againt my eyes
This one needed stiches and
This one came from rings
This one isn't even there, but I feel it more because you don't care
Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, Cause I am Made Of Scars
Yes I am made of scars
This one had it coming
This one found a vein
This one was an accident, but never gave me pain
This one was my fathers and
This one you can't see
This one had me scared to death,
But I guess I should be glad I'm not dead!!
Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, I am made of scars
Yes, I am made of scars
God, Don't you believe it
And I will find a way
Everything you are I will betray
Oooh, I swear that I will find a way
Everything you are's inside me
This one was the first one
This one had a vice
This one here I like to rub on dark and stormy nights
This one was the last one,
I don't remember how
But I remember blood and rain
AND I NEVER SAW IT COMING AGAIN
Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, Cause I am made of scars
Yes, I am made of scars
That's what I'm made of!!!
Hurt
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Suicide Is Painless
Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna to lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please
The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin
And Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are the key
Is it to be or not to be
and I replied 'oh why ask me?
And suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
Pre-Beginning:
Something I Can Never Have
I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.
Come on tell me
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have
The Beginning:
Angel
I'm alone
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love - Let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough - I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough I've suffered and I've seen the light
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right
Don't know what I'm gonna do
About this feeling inside
Yes it's true - Loneliness took me for a ride
Without your love - I'm nothing but a begger
Without your love - a dog without a bone
What can I do I'm sleeping in this bed alone
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right
Come and save me tonight
You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give
When I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why
Baby, Baby
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
you're my angel
Come and take me allright
Come and save me tonight, Come and save me tonight, Come and save me tonight,
Come and save me tonight, Come and save me tonight
The Middle:
I'll Be
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
And you're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I..ll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said.
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I Could Not Ask For More
Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see, the smile upon your face
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are, is everything to me
And these are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And these are the moments, I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for (yeah)
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I�ve had has come true
yeah, right here in this moment, is right where I'm meant to be
Oh, here with you here with me�
Ooh, yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
and these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for yeah
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I�ve hads come true
yeah, and right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
here with you here with me�
I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Cuz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more (more)
ooh and I could not ask for more
Towards The End:
Red Flags and Long Nights
Sick of trying to find a way inside
Sick and tired of all the after
Sick of trying ot find a way to slide
Even though it always ends in laughter
Its never hard to tell when things are done
She looked into my eyes and a voice said RUN
She says that I'm a mess but its alright
Whether its 2 weeks, 2 years or just tonight
You can occupy my every sigh,
you can rent a space inside my mind
At least until the price becomes too? HIGH
I can find a reason that we should quit
I can find a reason to do it
I can find excuses for all my shit
She tells me just to work right through it
Shes pretty and I like her but shes too well
Cuz I need red flags and long nights and she can tell
Its not that its my fault its just my style
Beginning with a look and then a smile
You can occupy my every sigh,
you can rent a space inside my mind
At least until the price becomes too ? HIGH
She don't need a thing, she don?t need saving or a lay
Shes got all the friends around and you can hear them say:
Hes not into you hes into the idea of?
But little do they know that shes not through
You can occupy my every sigh,
you can rent a space inside my mind
At least until the price becomes too ? HIGH
The End:
Somewhat Damaged
So impressed with all you do
Tried so hard to be like you
Flew too high and burnt the wing
Lost my faith in everything
Lick around divine debris
Taste the wealth of hate in me
Shedding skin succumb defeat
This machine is obsolete
made the choice to go away
Drink the fountain of decay
Tear a hole exquisite red
Fuck the rest and stab it dead
Broken bruised forgotten sore
Too fucked up to care anymore
Poisoned to my rotten core
Too fucked up to care anymore
In the back off the side far away is a place where i hide where i
Stay tried to say tried to ask i needed to all alone by myself where
Were you?
How could i ever think it's funny how everything that
Swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you
Would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
And where were you?
How could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
Never change is different now like you said you and me make it
Through didn't quite fell apart
Where the fuck were you?
And All That Could Have Been
Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here
Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
Were never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been
Gone.. fading..
Everything..
And..
All that..
Could have been..
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
The Aftermath:
Made of Scars
This one came from looking
This one opened twice
These two seem as smooth as silk, flush againt my eyes
This one needed stiches and
This one came from rings
This one isn't even there, but I feel it more because you don't care
Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, Cause I am Made Of Scars
Yes I am made of scars
This one had it coming
This one found a vein
This one was an accident, but never gave me pain
This one was my fathers and
This one you can't see
This one had me scared to death,
But I guess I should be glad I'm not dead!!
Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, I am made of scars
Yes, I am made of scars
God, Don't you believe it
And I will find a way
Everything you are I will betray
Oooh, I swear that I will find a way
Everything you are's inside me
This one was the first one
This one had a vice
This one here I like to rub on dark and stormy nights
This one was the last one,
I don't remember how
But I remember blood and rain
AND I NEVER SAW IT COMING AGAIN
Yeah, Cut right into me
Yeah, Cause I am made of scars
Yes, I am made of scars
That's what I'm made of!!!
Hurt
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Suicide Is Painless
Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna to lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please
The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin
And Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are the key
Is it to be or not to be
and I replied 'oh why ask me?
And suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
Haha...so, for anyone that read my last blog...you will know that I am falling hard for a married woman. Tonight, I had her naked in my bed, and couldn't do anything about it.
It's all in my head...I know that. I had pictured the moment so many times, and it wasn't what I pictured. She was as beautiful as I thought she would be, but I couldn't get my brain to stop thinking...thinking she wasn't having a good time, because she wasn't making any noise...making self-deprecating comments the whole time...blaming it on the condom.
I felt like I was a virgin again...I was shaking so bad that I could barely move. She makes me really nervous, and I don't know why, except that I'm pretty sure that I love her already, even though I know that nothing can ever come of it.
This is the second time in two weeks that I have had a beautiful naked woman in my bed....and the second time in two weeks that I couldn't perform. At least the first time, I had an excuse. I was massively drunk. I don't know what happened tonight, except I couldn't get out of my own head.
Time to see if I can find some drugs I think. Valium, percocet, oxycontin....anything. Anything that will make me stop thinking and just be with her.
It's all in my head...I know that. I had pictured the moment so many times, and it wasn't what I pictured. She was as beautiful as I thought she would be, but I couldn't get my brain to stop thinking...thinking she wasn't having a good time, because she wasn't making any noise...making self-deprecating comments the whole time...blaming it on the condom.
I felt like I was a virgin again...I was shaking so bad that I could barely move. She makes me really nervous, and I don't know why, except that I'm pretty sure that I love her already, even though I know that nothing can ever come of it.
This is the second time in two weeks that I have had a beautiful naked woman in my bed....and the second time in two weeks that I couldn't perform. At least the first time, I had an excuse. I was massively drunk. I don't know what happened tonight, except I couldn't get out of my own head.
Time to see if I can find some drugs I think. Valium, percocet, oxycontin....anything. Anything that will make me stop thinking and just be with her.
OK....so I know it's not right...but I am falling hard for a married woman. I'm not talking about the whole "I haven't been laid in 4 months" kind of falling, but the "I get so nervous when she's around that I start shaking" kind of falling. I worked for weeks to get to the first hug, and then the first kiss...I feel like a fucking high school kid again.
Speaking of which...I got to third base today. You know, under the shirt but over the bra...
Yeah...this is weird, cause I've never gotten like this over a girl...so, of course, she is married. Unhappily married, but still.
So, she's coming over tomorrow at 12:15 for a meeting we have at 2...and I have no idea how to feel about it...
If anyone reads this, advice is much appreciated.
Speaking of which...I got to third base today. You know, under the shirt but over the bra...
Yeah...this is weird, cause I've never gotten like this over a girl...so, of course, she is married. Unhappily married, but still.
So, she's coming over tomorrow at 12:15 for a meeting we have at 2...and I have no idea how to feel about it...
If anyone reads this, advice is much appreciated.
GIRLS ARE FUCKING LIARS!
I can't believe you would play me like this. All you had to do was be honest, and I would have let you go, but instead you played me. And then I read a message you sent to someone...and told her the same things that you told everyone about me. "I've loved him, and knew that we would be together since high school". That's exactly what you told everyone about me. You were the one girl in my life that I thought would never hurt me. For christ's sakes, we've know each other since we were, what, 11? Either way, I still love you, but never again are we going to be together. So, have fun with Robert, or Keith, or Travis or whoever. Hopefully one of them will make you happy. If not...sorry, you can't come back here.
I can't believe you would play me like this. All you had to do was be honest, and I would have let you go, but instead you played me. And then I read a message you sent to someone...and told her the same things that you told everyone about me. "I've loved him, and knew that we would be together since high school". That's exactly what you told everyone about me. You were the one girl in my life that I thought would never hurt me. For christ's sakes, we've know each other since we were, what, 11? Either way, I still love you, but never again are we going to be together. So, have fun with Robert, or Keith, or Travis or whoever. Hopefully one of them will make you happy. If not...sorry, you can't come back here.
GIRLS ARE FUCKING LIARS!!!!!
I can't believe you would play me like this. All you had to do was be honest, and I would have let you go, but instead you played me. And then I read a message you sent to someone...and told her the same things that you told everyone about me. "I've loved him, and knew that we would be together since high school". That's exactly what you told everyone about me. You were the one girl in my life that I thought would never hurt me. For christ's sakes, we've know each other since we were, what, 11? Either way, I still love you, but never again are we going to be together. So, have fun with Robert, or Keith, or Travis or whoever. Hopefully one of them will make you happy. If not...sorry, you can't come back here.
I can't believe you would play me like this. All you had to do was be honest, and I would have let you go, but instead you played me. And then I read a message you sent to someone...and told her the same things that you told everyone about me. "I've loved him, and knew that we would be together since high school". That's exactly what you told everyone about me. You were the one girl in my life that I thought would never hurt me. For christ's sakes, we've know each other since we were, what, 11? Either way, I still love you, but never again are we going to be together. So, have fun with Robert, or Keith, or Travis or whoever. Hopefully one of them will make you happy. If not...sorry, you can't come back here.
Hmmm...top 5 movies or mini-series based on Stephen King novels/stories:
05 Carrie
A lot of people would have put The Shining on this list somewhere, but even Stephen King hated that movie, as it didn't follow the book. I had a hard time here choosing between Carrie and 1408, but ended up going with the classic.
04 The Green Mile
Easily one of the best shot films based on SK, this story and movie showed that he didn't always have to rely on horror. The relationships between the characters in the movie is very genuine, and the ending of the movie will bring tears to your eyes.
03 The Stand
Tied for my favorite Stephen King novel (with Insomnia), this mini-series held true to the books almost line for line. Gary Sinise was great as the main character.
02 IT
Seriously, this movie gave an entire generation a clown phobia. When Pennywise opened up his mouth and showed those teeth, thousands of kids simultaneously pissed themselves.
01 The Shawshank Redemption
Voted the #1 movie of all time at IMDB, it's easy to see why. Tim Robbins and Morgan Freeman give once in a lifetime performances in a movie that makes you forget it's a movie. Some people would say it is sacrilege to not have a horror movie in the number one spot, but go watch this movie and then tell me that.
Agree? Disagree? Let me know.
By the way, if you get the chance, check out my remix site here. Thanks!!
05 Carrie
A lot of people would have put The Shining on this list somewhere, but even Stephen King hated that movie, as it didn't follow the book. I had a hard time here choosing between Carrie and 1408, but ended up going with the classic.
04 The Green Mile
Easily one of the best shot films based on SK, this story and movie showed that he didn't always have to rely on horror. The relationships between the characters in the movie is very genuine, and the ending of the movie will bring tears to your eyes.
03 The Stand
Tied for my favorite Stephen King novel (with Insomnia), this mini-series held true to the books almost line for line. Gary Sinise was great as the main character.
02 IT
Seriously, this movie gave an entire generation a clown phobia. When Pennywise opened up his mouth and showed those teeth, thousands of kids simultaneously pissed themselves.
01 The Shawshank Redemption
Voted the #1 movie of all time at IMDB, it's easy to see why. Tim Robbins and Morgan Freeman give once in a lifetime performances in a movie that makes you forget it's a movie. Some people would say it is sacrilege to not have a horror movie in the number one spot, but go watch this movie and then tell me that.
Agree? Disagree? Let me know.
By the way, if you get the chance, check out my remix site here. Thanks!!
So, my roommate left today, and I am now living alone for the first time in almost five years. I have to figure out a way to make rent on the first which sucks...but if I can, then after that I can actually live comfortably for the first time in my life. I love my job...I'll be making enough money to live comfortably come the first, and I am actually helping people. The fact that I am working for the organization that helped me get off the streets and, to be honest, saved my life, is just an added bonus. Check them out at www.standupforkids.org. There are 2 million homeless and street kids in America today...StandUp For Kids is trying to change that.
So...I am in Atlanta until Sunday with nothing to do...does anyone know anywhere to go in downtown that doesn't cost an arm and a leg?
I went down to the store here in the hotel the other day to buy a 6 pack of Heineken. I get up to the counter, and the girl rings it up...$30 for a 6 pack. What the fuck is that?
I went down to the store here in the hotel the other day to buy a 6 pack of Heineken. I get up to the counter, and the girl rings it up...$30 for a 6 pack. What the fuck is that?
