So I'm sitting in my freinds room while shes showering and i feel like im going to barf every 5 seconds, even though i took alot of pepto bismol. this is a very appropriate morning considering the amount or rum and pinapple juice and fucking i partook in last night. ughh. but it still sucks. and i hate throwing up. its my #1 loathsome thing on this earth.

anyway, in other news, i start school in a week and a half. well, i move downtown in a week and a half, start classes later. anyone want to chill with me in philly? its awesome around there.

one thing does brighten up my days; my shorn bangs have finally completly grown back. I am a very happy girl.

ugh

they put my minka to sleep.... he got really sick, and mewed all day and night till he turned blue in the face.
i hate it when kitties have to go.

no more self loathing. ill be better. everyone here is too fucking pretty. but it is inspiring, the awesome people.

and self improvement ideas?

im reading tons nowadays, in order to try and expand my little world.
trying to be freindlier. and more worldly. I want to meet people from everywhere.

bombard me with ideas, please.

ever get really drunk and end up feeling so lonely, that you cried for a really long time?
even though you were surrounded by people? ever get upset at someone because you were so paranoid about what they thought?
drinking makes me get paranoid like that. I ended up leaving and wandering around and somehow calling someone inbetween bawling like an idiot.
and i feel like even though i said sorry no one beleives me.
it fucking sucks. i really cant do much more aside from leave everyone alone.
moral of the story: dont drink, and dont say what you really feel, ever. it will just fuck you over even worse.

I really get bored too much, even though I always have too much to get done.

thank god for the interent.