well, the weekend started out good enough but then slid downhill pretty fast. now i'm all sad about crummy friends and crummier boys.
why do i have such a problem sweeping out the refuse in my life? what am i clinging to? this shitty feeling i get whenever they bother to talk to me?
if things continue to deteriorate, i'll post some scantily clad pictures of myself to get some attention. if that's your thing, check back later.
why do i have such a problem sweeping out the refuse in my life? what am i clinging to? this shitty feeling i get whenever they bother to talk to me?
if things continue to deteriorate, i'll post some scantily clad pictures of myself to get some attention. if that's your thing, check back later.
went out with my friend h last night and for the first time i had guys i didn't know buy me drinks. it was fun. our bar tab still went over $70 though. the people i met were, for the most part, rather interesting as well. i didn't get to bed til 3, and i'm still up at 10 to catch this american life, and i don't even have a headache. so far this weekend is off to a pretty good start. 
man oh man. so many people died in the past 3 days; it's been crazy busy at work. i'm so glad my week's over.
i did have big plans this weekend: my friend e was going to come visit, i was going to go snowboarding with the girls, now nothing. e cancelled at the last minute as she's prone to do, and nobody wants to go to the mountain because the weather is supposed to be so bad. t's parents are in town til monday so it's unlikely i'll get to see him.
i had this crummy dream about s the night before last. it involved a lot of rejection and i believed i called him a fucking prick. the worst part was when i woke up and thought about it, at it's core it's pretty true to life. that left me in a lousy mood all day. it's still kind of lingering. s used to be the guy i could always count on to come through for me. i guess it's been too many years. he's the only person i regularly dream about, and they're always such good dreams, leaving me feeling so happy the next day. this is the first bad one. my subconscious is trying to tell me to move on i think.
i'm so exhausted.
i did have big plans this weekend: my friend e was going to come visit, i was going to go snowboarding with the girls, now nothing. e cancelled at the last minute as she's prone to do, and nobody wants to go to the mountain because the weather is supposed to be so bad. t's parents are in town til monday so it's unlikely i'll get to see him.
i had this crummy dream about s the night before last. it involved a lot of rejection and i believed i called him a fucking prick. the worst part was when i woke up and thought about it, at it's core it's pretty true to life. that left me in a lousy mood all day. it's still kind of lingering. s used to be the guy i could always count on to come through for me. i guess it's been too many years. he's the only person i regularly dream about, and they're always such good dreams, leaving me feeling so happy the next day. this is the first bad one. my subconscious is trying to tell me to move on i think.
i'm so exhausted.
i don't have much of an update.
work was long and brutal this week and there's talk of someone getting fired.
i've been hanging out with my friend t who's about to get divorced. we went out for breakfast this morning and he had a nose bleed. i can honestly say i've never experienced one. i know he was totally embarassed so i made sure to make him feel as mortified as i could. i referenced it all day in fact. i think he appreciated it.
s hasn't gotten back to me about getting me a banjo at cost. i want a banjo!!!
work was long and brutal this week and there's talk of someone getting fired.
i've been hanging out with my friend t who's about to get divorced. we went out for breakfast this morning and he had a nose bleed. i can honestly say i've never experienced one. i know he was totally embarassed so i made sure to make him feel as mortified as i could. i referenced it all day in fact. i think he appreciated it.
s hasn't gotten back to me about getting me a banjo at cost. i want a banjo!!!
so, my vacation is over. home was boring except for the initial excitement over my nephew being born. i saw my old friends briefly before rushing off to the hospital the first day i was home and then never again. i did get a memorable good night kiss on my last night there. now i'm totally irritated by a certain someone who's not answering or returning my calls or messages. i really haven't the foggiest idea what's going on except that he needed to "isolate himself" for a while. welcome to 2005 ladies and gentlemen, so far it's shaping up rather suckily.
i have a new nephew. don't feel like going into all the details now but it involves hemorrhaging and an emergency c-section. all are fine now.
i have got to cut back on the happy hours. i am so broke. tomorrow i start my 60 hour work week then off to georgia for 2 weeks of living off the parents and playing with my niece and nephew.
it's been so long since i've had sex that i'm starting to get cranky about it. i once went 2 years without it while i was in grad school, but that's not really a feat i wish to repeat.
5 days. i can plow through and forget about it. no happy hours this week, the gym every day after work. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!
it's been so long since i've had sex that i'm starting to get cranky about it. i once went 2 years without it while i was in grad school, but that's not really a feat i wish to repeat.
5 days. i can plow through and forget about it. no happy hours this week, the gym every day after work. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!
