what an outstanding weekend. headed down to the beach friday night for and old friend's wedding. spent the weekend with my closest friends i don't get to see often enough, built sandcastles, few kites, drank a lot of wine, had a bonfire on the beach. just amazing. the ceremony was beautiful too. the only thing that would have made it better was if switters could have been there. sigh. less than 11 weeks, doesn't sound too long, does it? feels like an eternity.
back to the grind tomorrow.

i'm back home now. i'm sad to be so far away from switters but feel closer to him than ever at the same time. just 12 more weeks till he's here for good. i can't wait. we're planning a big road trip from tulsa to portland hitting some of the major parks like bryce canyon, yosemite, giant sequoia. it will be so great. he might be shipping out his cat, Cat, sooner than that though. he's the best kitty, but i think he needs a real name. i'm so happy right now. i just really wish he were here with me now.
as for the training, needless to say i have done none of that. i feel chubby and out of shape: 10 days of pizza and beer in bed, white wine on the steps, cookies at the coffee shop, and exercise...well, you can guess. we certainly weren't doing any running. i have to get back on track and feel athletic again.

i am so in love.

total blliss

i think i'm going to be holding at 8 miles for a while. it's sooo hard. and it hurts my knees a bit.
today i bought a cute little skirt on sale that i'm going to wear on the plane to see switters in a mere 17 DAYS!!!!!! sigh, i can't wait to see him. i miss him so much and we're going to have such a great time together. it will be torture to leave but then the next time we see each other will be for good and that will be wonderful.
man i'm tired. i think i'll take a nap.

so i sent a picture to my mom of me wearing some new frames i got, and she replied with how bad i look, and how much weight have i lost, and how my dad and my sister think the same thing. wtf? i look really good! i was chubby before, everyone in the older generation in my family is overweight. i look really good now! i couldn't run around the block before & now i can run 8 miles, i can lift 400lbs on the leg press at the gym, i weigh now what i did in high school but am a lot stronger. why is my self esteem now in the toilet?
here's the picture. i thought my skin looked really nice too.

switters countdown: 25 days!

today i ran 8 miles. my ankle is a bit sore and i think i need new shoes. only 4 more miles and i can whip the half marathon!

i am in love.

i ran 7 miles today!
in 38 days i get to see switters again!!
i got a haircut that didn't entirely suck!
i've lost 15 pounds!!!
i found some sexy lingerie on sale yesterday!

couldn't sleep last night. this is becoming a recurrent problem. perhaps i should seek medication?

6.5 miles today. i ned to figure out how not to naseous around mile 4. now for a shower and some eggs.
i went out this weekend to buy some new clothes as most of mine don't fit anymore. everything out there is such crap though. i didn't find anything worth spending my money on.
everything is still pretty topsy-turvy. i'm in love. it could be amazing if he could stop lying. there are just so many extenuating circumstances that/'s it's hard to judge things on face value alone. i'm willing to give it some time to see how it works out. and hopefully it will. it's just so hard to make sense of everything.