my membership is up and i don't have the money to renew it yet. and i'm not sure when my last day is.
so if i go grey, don't panic. i'll be back soon.
...IF i go grey.
so if i go grey, don't panic. i'll be back soon.
...IF i go grey.
how do i make the change from platonic friends to possibly dating?
and i don't want to hear something cliche like "just tell her how you feel" or crap like that. cause if that worked, i wouldn't need to be asking how to do it.
so who's gonna help me?
and i don't want to hear something cliche like "just tell her how you feel" or crap like that. cause if that worked, i wouldn't need to be asking how to do it.
so who's gonna help me?
alright, tomorrow morning i'm flying down to L.A. for a week.
if any of you california kids want to hang out while i'm down, send me a message and maybe we can get something going.
if not, i'll be back on the 19th.
if any of you california kids want to hang out while i'm down, send me a message and maybe we can get something going.
if not, i'll be back on the 19th.
I GOT A NEW PUPPY!!!!!
his name is Jack Bauer and he's a hound/border collie mix. he's about 8 months old.
he is adorable and playful as hell. i love him to death already.
his name is Jack Bauer and he's a hound/border collie mix. he's about 8 months old.
he is adorable and playful as hell. i love him to death already.
god dammit, they changed shit on this site again.
i fear change.
so lately i've been hanging out with my girlfriend from like 2 years ago. she was for the most part my first everything. including first love and first heartbreak. she dumped me in the most harsh way possible, and drove the knife deeper every so often like it was a thrill for her to see me hurt..
but its been two years since we had even spoken, and she's way different now. its really weird. she's nothing like the girl i knew and loved, which isn't neccessarily a bad thing. its just strange. i donnn't really care for her like i used to, but part of me is happy that she's around again. she apologized for everything she did to me, and for the first time since i'd known her, i knew she was completely sincere.
i think i'm hanging out with her again today.....we'll see how that goes.
so how is everyone else?
i fear change.
so lately i've been hanging out with my girlfriend from like 2 years ago. she was for the most part my first everything. including first love and first heartbreak. she dumped me in the most harsh way possible, and drove the knife deeper every so often like it was a thrill for her to see me hurt..
but its been two years since we had even spoken, and she's way different now. its really weird. she's nothing like the girl i knew and loved, which isn't neccessarily a bad thing. its just strange. i donnn't really care for her like i used to, but part of me is happy that she's around again. she apologized for everything she did to me, and for the first time since i'd known her, i knew she was completely sincere.
i think i'm hanging out with her again today.....we'll see how that goes.
so how is everyone else?
Merry Christmas, everyone.
i'll probably make a post later about all the cool stuff i got. so look out for that.
i'll probably make a post later about all the cool stuff i got. so look out for that.
i hate it when they change the background. it throws me off for a couple weeks at least.
anyway...
life is really sucky right now.
my girlfriend broke up with me because she found God and seems to think that He told her to be single while she follows His path. she started following the beliefs of this moron (who is that one person i would stab if i could get away with it) that has no idea what he's talking about. i'm not religious at all, and EVEN I know he misquotes the bible and misinterprets meanings. so i feel like complete shit because i'm in love with her and i know she is the one, but her religious hang-ups are keeping us from being together. new year's eve is coming up and she is the only one i want to kiss at midnight
i already hated my job, but now it sucks even more because my hours got cut in half. i think my boss is holding out on us and covering her own ass. but basically she cut the hours waaaay back for the whole damn staff. so i work 15 hours a week, at MINIMUM WAGE. its bad enough that i'm basicaly already working for free since i have no money after bills, but NOW i have Christmas to shop for. i was out of work last year and i couldn't buy ANYTHING for my family, and its like the same damn bullshit is going to happen again.
i'm not sure if i told the story of the house party my band played a few night before halloween, but if i didn't, basically i busted up the house and my dad's truck (no, i hadn't been drinking. it was an accident). the guy gave me a month to fix his house before he reported it to my insurance. so about $130 later (factoring in the gas i used driving to pick up parts and driving to the guys house), i FINALLY fixed it. now there's my dad's truck, which is going to cost a cool $300 that i don't have.
i can't handle this stress. i just need her with me soooo bad. it feels like i'm holding my breath and can't let it out, and like someone is melting my insides. she helped me make it through the hard days because she was something so beautiful in my life.
god i'm so tired.
so lonely.
anyway...
life is really sucky right now.
my girlfriend broke up with me because she found God and seems to think that He told her to be single while she follows His path. she started following the beliefs of this moron (who is that one person i would stab if i could get away with it) that has no idea what he's talking about. i'm not religious at all, and EVEN I know he misquotes the bible and misinterprets meanings. so i feel like complete shit because i'm in love with her and i know she is the one, but her religious hang-ups are keeping us from being together. new year's eve is coming up and she is the only one i want to kiss at midnight
i already hated my job, but now it sucks even more because my hours got cut in half. i think my boss is holding out on us and covering her own ass. but basically she cut the hours waaaay back for the whole damn staff. so i work 15 hours a week, at MINIMUM WAGE. its bad enough that i'm basicaly already working for free since i have no money after bills, but NOW i have Christmas to shop for. i was out of work last year and i couldn't buy ANYTHING for my family, and its like the same damn bullshit is going to happen again.
i'm not sure if i told the story of the house party my band played a few night before halloween, but if i didn't, basically i busted up the house and my dad's truck (no, i hadn't been drinking. it was an accident). the guy gave me a month to fix his house before he reported it to my insurance. so about $130 later (factoring in the gas i used driving to pick up parts and driving to the guys house), i FINALLY fixed it. now there's my dad's truck, which is going to cost a cool $300 that i don't have.
i can't handle this stress. i just need her with me soooo bad. it feels like i'm holding my breath and can't let it out, and like someone is melting my insides. she helped me make it through the hard days because she was something so beautiful in my life.
god i'm so tired.
so lonely.
