GRRR.
I can't decide what the hell to with my life. I don't want to get stuck here in Austin, but I'm very worried it's happening. It's like I'm at the tipping point, the plie, the event horizon. I have to get out NOW, or commit myself to staying.
What to do, what to do.
So many options floating around in my head, and I don't have any good way to reconcile them. They are all so far apart, it's like trying to compare apples and matchsticks. Massage school? Try for a teaching job? ESL in Korea? Architecture? Retail? Commit to music? Photography?
Getting an apartment is the real hassle. A year. It seems like such a long time to say I'll live in the same place. But I've been staying with my sister now for three months. That's just flown by.
I guess I have to face the real fact. That call I'm waiting on from Tucson? It's not coming. I guess that's what's really got me stuck. Or rather, what I keep thinking I need to maintain some sort of flexibility for. So that when it comes, I can just jump in the car and go be with her.
I can't decide what the hell to with my life. I don't want to get stuck here in Austin, but I'm very worried it's happening. It's like I'm at the tipping point, the plie, the event horizon. I have to get out NOW, or commit myself to staying.
What to do, what to do.
So many options floating around in my head, and I don't have any good way to reconcile them. They are all so far apart, it's like trying to compare apples and matchsticks. Massage school? Try for a teaching job? ESL in Korea? Architecture? Retail? Commit to music? Photography?
Getting an apartment is the real hassle. A year. It seems like such a long time to say I'll live in the same place. But I've been staying with my sister now for three months. That's just flown by.
I guess I have to face the real fact. That call I'm waiting on from Tucson? It's not coming. I guess that's what's really got me stuck. Or rather, what I keep thinking I need to maintain some sort of flexibility for. So that when it comes, I can just jump in the car and go be with her.