i went to boston's pride parade last weekend. it almost made me wish i was gay. everybody was having so much fun!
here is a video of the last float
i really want a dog, and i can't have on in this apartment, and that makes me sad. but i saw a turtle in the river on my way home from work. it has nothing to do with wanting a dog, but it made me happy.

zomg various homeys will be visiting all this month. homeys from the bronx, then homeys from college, then homeys from chat? this month is going to rock. ive been working a lot. i need to start going out of the house more without my brother, because there are things i want to see that he doesn't seem to care about. oh well. adventure time.

i gotta figure out how to get target to fix my camera without actually going to target. unless its too late, in which case i will have a frown.

maybe i will just build some cameras. probably pinholes at first, since theyre cheaper. since the bathroom is downstairs and has no windows, i might set up a mobile darkroom in thurr. or maybe in my closet. i just need to make sure its completely dark in one or the other.

i want a best friend who is also an ambitious tattoo artist who also loves hooking his homeys up with sick dealios.


i like this guy:

i think i should clarify. i am not shy. i am great at talking to people. i think perhaps i am just poor at connecting with them on an emotional level. conversation rarely turns into friendship. i doubt it's all them, either. i'm a pretty abrasive person, i've been told. kinda intense maybe? it's probably just harder to find those solid friendships when you're older, but im sure theyre out there.

i think it is easy on this site to form bonds because many of us are similar, but a big part of our similarity is our difference from the norm. either way, i need to start kicking some social ass. hopefully sgboston will help me do this, otherwise im going to need to learn some spanish, because english is not very popular at my current workplace.

im super excited, though, because over the next few weeks i will have a lot of visitors.

ps, i want to be irl friends with all of you. somebody be my sugarmama and pay my rent so i can use my income to travel. or just pay for me to travel.

i wish it was easier to make friends in real life. i am not good at socializing. people are so driven by emotion. i find it hard to interact with them and have them like me. all of my friends in florida were through work. i haven't had non-work friends since i left new york five years ago.
i am not shy. i just don't know how to make friends. i love my brother, but i'd like some friends who aren't already his close friends. how does this work?

i am not good at giving myself haircuts. historically, most of them end poorly and i shave my head.

it's still better than paying tens of dollars for somebody else to do it. they charged me over $30fucking when they chopped off all of my hairs, and i will not stand for it.

life is so hard. i'm glad. i was so sick of easy. i feel so alive. pain, regret, shame, and desire should be filling my days. i owe thousands of dollars to friends and family. more to the irs. i'm delinquent on student loan repayments. i make slightly less each month than i spend on bills. despite all this, i love the hell out of my life right now. i love making burritos for $8.50/hr for 32 hours every weekend. i love not deceiving people for a paycheck. i love living in a real city again. i love living with one of my brothers again.

unhappy people need to adjust their focus.

thanks to you homeys for birthday wishes! my birthday was as much fun as was allowed by my work schedule. i love my brothers. thompy and our friend, virginia, bought me many boozes while we watched strangers sing karaoke. thom sang also. i didn't get a chance, because it is a very popular karaoke, and i only was able to get there at midnight. next time!

i'm still trying to find a better jarb. in the meantime, im going to pick up more hours making burritos. overtime, in fact. which will help. if i can work 60 hours a week instead of 32, i would be so set. idk if they'll give me that much, but a man can hope.

boston is so cool! i love it. a friend from college is moving up this summer, too. she's coming to check out the city in june. it will be fun. i haven't seen her in about 5 years.

eddie money is playing a concert in boston in july. he follows me on twitter, because he lives in palm coast, where i was prior to moving, and we know a lot of the same people. i am going to try to get him to hang out with us while he is here.

this is going to be a wonderful summer.

i'm beginning to think that chatters are getting pregnant just because its trendy.

thats probably not the case, but wtf? this is well above natural rates for pregnancy among a group of peers, i'm sure. it's a good thing i am awkward enough to not have sex. although, technically, i couldn't personally get pregnant. and there doesn't seem to be the same problem among male chatters who aren't sexing with the lady chatters.

anyway... so im hoping to have another new job by next week. i have an interview on saturday for a graphic design position at a company that makes iphone apps. my roomie works there as a developer. i've also switched from a sales role to social media at the original job for which i moved to boston. and i still make burritos. and within a few weeks i'm also going to start doing some light sales work over the phones for my buddy's company in florida. so hopefully i'll actually be able to stack some loot.

i'm trying to apply for financial aid so i can go back to school, but the fafsa form is ridiculous and asks for tons of info that i don't currently have. i think i want to study anthropology.

my older brother is coming up to visit for my birthday this weekend! i'm excited, because more than two of us is always incredibly fun, and thompy will make it 3. unfortunately, i work from 4-1130 on saturday, which means only 2 hours of bar time, and then he leaves on sunday - which is my birthday. but it will be fun anyway!

this is long. here is a picture of a monkey stabbing a dragon:

so i finally watched (500) days of summer. i watched it with my brother. it is a great movie, and i like the way it ends. more in what the narrator says than what happens. i am not sure i believe in love as something that lasts, but i am sure i do not believe in fate.

anything good that happens is a result of our actions and happy coincidence.