today i got paid to dodge butterflies, capture 30 second videos (which i will later narrate, very poorly) of flowers at a roadside flower nursery, and eat lobster rolls. lobster rolls are awesome! also, i ate cornbread that tasted like the way hot topic smells.
i still don't know if i'm staying in boston. i haven't heard back about the apartment i looked at. yikes
i still don't know if i'm staying in boston. i haven't heard back about the apartment i looked at. yikes
if you want a spotify account but haven't gotten an invite yet, here you go 
edit: i should clarify - that will sign you up for klout. klout gives out the invites to members. it's free and useless other than that it rewards you for shit you already do on twitter and facebook.
edit: i should clarify - that will sign you up for klout. klout gives out the invites to members. it's free and useless other than that it rewards you for shit you already do on twitter and facebook.
i'm thinking about staying in boston, but only if i can find a place for less than $600 a month. i might've found one, but i'm not sure yet. financially, it's not the best decision to stay, but academically it is what i have to do. if i go back to the bronx i might have to wait another year to get into school. this week i have to call the bosses at the community colleges and find out.
i can't wait to see zeppers and murder101 again! and meet kiltedgoth? sg chat has given me such amazing friends. some of the most amazing people i have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
yikes. i wasn't accepted into umass boston for the fall semester. i had really shitty grades when i was in school, because i never applied myself, because i didn't care. that is biting my booty now. they said if i take 12 credits with a gpa of 2.5 or higher, i could get in for the spring semester. so i'm going to start looking at community colleges for the fall.
if i do stay, though, i still need to find a place to live in september. hopefully i'll be able to put the money together to do that in the next few weeks, because this is when all of the students are looking for places to live in september as well. hence the yikes.
the alternative is moving back to the bronx. i could live with my mama, which would save me many dollars. i love her house, and she has a huge backyard. i have so many friends in the bronx and we would have so much fun! but i'd never be able to get laid because my mom is super catholic and would flip if i had a chick stay the night. and bronx community college is a 90 minute trip on the mta.
then again, i'd probably be able to get my nana's car running and get back and forth that way.
decisions. i know where i want to end up, i just don't know yet how to get there.
if i do stay, though, i still need to find a place to live in september. hopefully i'll be able to put the money together to do that in the next few weeks, because this is when all of the students are looking for places to live in september as well. hence the yikes.
the alternative is moving back to the bronx. i could live with my mama, which would save me many dollars. i love her house, and she has a huge backyard. i have so many friends in the bronx and we would have so much fun! but i'd never be able to get laid because my mom is super catholic and would flip if i had a chick stay the night. and bronx community college is a 90 minute trip on the mta.
then again, i'd probably be able to get my nana's car running and get back and forth that way.
decisions. i know where i want to end up, i just don't know yet how to get there.
sometimes i like to pretend that i am the sole source of dark energy in the universe; that upon the cessation of my brain's activity, the whole thing will collapse upon itself. of course - if that were to happen - everything would start over. an incomprehensibly large explosion would create a brand new universe. billions of years would pass and life would start again. some intelligence similar to our own would arise, and eventually, i sometimes allow myself to hope, i would get another life. maybe in this one i would have some glimmer of understanding about what the whole point of all this is.
it just doesn't add up - we are biological entities, like any other. we are driven by the same urge - to advance our species. we fight for dominance, we fuck, and we protect our own. we are as xenophobic and jingoistic as any other specie.
was it by some dumb luck we became aware of the inevitability that we each will die? was this knowledge supposed to in some way help us? without being foolish enough to believe our specific genetic code privileges us to a special existence beyond our mortal lives, it seems this knowledge should drive us all to work towards the advancement of our species. but we cling to ancient stories, and hope for special respite from the constant of death.
the entirety of human existence is but a breath in the life of the cosmos, each life barely a blink. but we are the most advanced species we know to ever have existed. most will live their lives either ignorant of or purposely ignoring these facts. they will live their lives chasing wealth, glory, pleasure, paradise...
if, on my death bed, i looked back and realized this is all i lived for - that i had no impact, no lasting contribution to the betterment of mankind, i would consider mine a life wasted. but this makes me feel so small. what could i possibly offer? i guess that is the first question i must answer on this quest.
im finally employed again. this job seems pretty cool so far. it's only temporary, but come may they might decide to keep me on permanently.
i've been watching every episode of NOVA. sometime soon there should be a new documentary miniseries on discovery, from the makers of planet earth and life - human planet. the british version is narrated by john hurt, which should be cool... but they gave us oprah for life instead of david attenborough & sigourney weaver for planet earth, so who knows what awful voice they will give us this time. other than that, i am really looking forward to this.
i want the air to be warmer than it is. i enjoyed winter. but now it is time for spring. i forgot how long it takes to get warm in the north. sheesh.
hopefully i'll hear back from umass soon about my status for next fall. i have to send them my essay again, because they apparently didn't receive it. it is hardly the best thing i've written, but the topics from which to choose were all rather silly, and the suggested length a bit short for my liking. don't hate. if i don't get in, i'll probably move back to the bronx.
i'm working on a project right now. if it goes well i will show you.
i've been watching every episode of NOVA. sometime soon there should be a new documentary miniseries on discovery, from the makers of planet earth and life - human planet. the british version is narrated by john hurt, which should be cool... but they gave us oprah for life instead of david attenborough & sigourney weaver for planet earth, so who knows what awful voice they will give us this time. other than that, i am really looking forward to this.
i want the air to be warmer than it is. i enjoyed winter. but now it is time for spring. i forgot how long it takes to get warm in the north. sheesh.
hopefully i'll hear back from umass soon about my status for next fall. i have to send them my essay again, because they apparently didn't receive it. it is hardly the best thing i've written, but the topics from which to choose were all rather silly, and the suggested length a bit short for my liking. don't hate. if i don't get in, i'll probably move back to the bronx.
i'm working on a project right now. if it goes well i will show you.
