austere's May 22, 2010 blog

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MAY 22, 2010 @ 11:43 PM

life is so hard. i'm glad. i was so sick of easy. i feel so alive. pain, regret, shame, and desire should be filling my days. i owe thousands of dollars to friends and family. more to the irs. i'm delinquent on student loan repayments. i make slightly less each month than i spend on bills. despite all this, i love the hell out of my life right now. i love making burritos for $8.50/hr for 32 hours every weekend. i love not deceiving people for a paycheck. i love living in a real city again. i love living with one of my brothers again.

unhappy people need to adjust their focus.

Tez

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

MAY 23, 2010 12:10 AM

It takes time to adjust focus.. but when I see people's blogs whining about being in a constant rut, and hating life.. it makes me think they just aren't trying hard enough.

CherryTrash

Australia

May 2008

MAY 23, 2010 03:32 AM

I cant agree more!, we only have one wage commin in and we have a new little mouth to feed and body to clothe ( why are clothes 10 times smaller than adult clothes still the same price...ITS LESS FABRIC! ), there are stresses every day that come with being a parent, a wife, and just a person, trying to figure out what Im gonna do with my life...and Im loving every minute of it!! Good on you mike, its really awesome to see someone who can really experience life and enjoy it for what it is <3

NextTuesday

Kansas City, MO

November 2005

MAY 23, 2010 08:09 AM

When really bad stuff happens to me (like someone dies) I give myself one day to fully mope and feel sorry for myself. After that I'm only allowed momentary outbursts. I've battled depression since I was 17 (ew I'm old) and no drugs or therapy really help. The only thing that helps is allowing myself that one day then checking myself with how awesome my life really is. So I guess I'm sayin, I see what you're saying.

Good story eh?

Tease

Albuquerque, NM

June 2006

MAY 23, 2010 09:58 AM

Mike, this is why you are seriously one of my favorite people out there. YES YES YES!!! You are what living life is about. YES! and Tez hit the nail on the head.