wow where to start life has been crazy as fuck for the last year and a half you may or not know i moved to utah to meat my dad back in july of 09 that turned out to be a big old wast of time he is a worthless tweaker snich pice of shit i ended up getting all tweeked out too then last may i left and traviled with the rainbow family had lots of good times meet loots of amazing ppl got clean and came home back to ohio in september got a job and i am now going to school and doing well

time for an update on the crazzyness i call life my dad s strung out on meth and lost his mind seeing shit that aint there he broke up with his girl and wants to shoot him self im having to give my dad advive on life he woke me up at 5 am the other day and told me he just saw me leave his girl friends house and told me i was lieing when i told him i was sleeping he has camras watching her house he called the cops on me when i was shrooming the other day cuz i didnt want to talk to him

what a shitty week my girlfriend was stabbed and robbed last sunday and she is in a coma they dont know if she will make it or net but it doesnt look good needless to say iive been hitting the bottel pretty hard and just hopeing she wakes up soon it sucks to see some one you care about layed up like that this shit sucks

hello every one i think its time for an update utah is fucking great ive been here for 3 weeks now and i fucking love it i went to cali for a week what a crazy fun time that was i meet the best girl out her we have only been togather for a week now but she rocks i almost lost her tho some crack robbed her and stabbed her like 6 times but she made it thru this happend last sunday and she just got home today so thats good im making good money now at my company i think this is the happiest ive ever been

hello every one i made it safe and sound and im living in utah now and i love it i busted my laptop so i still wont be on all that often but ill have a new laptop soon

so today is the day my bus leaves to utah to all my friends i will miss you and i will be back to vist and i hope you can come vist me some time well im off later

man im so ready to get out of here i cant stand it i have ten days left then its off to utah

so here every thing that has happend in the last few. first i meet this awsome girl fell in love only to have my heart ripped out when she started being a hooker on me so i had to move in with my aunt till i leave for utah it sucks its so lame here but its ok i also got a puppy he is a great dane pit bull mix best smartest ever i found out my dad is alice and i have 2 sisters i had 2 mma trail fight i won both but i chipped my elbo on the 2nd fight to im out for 6 weeks so ill have to start over when i get to utah after the hooker girl friend thing i moved on and went out with this other girl got board and left with the totaly fucking great gril to bad i met her at the time i did cuz i leaving in a littel over two weeks ive all so started talking to my first love who know lives in cali and we might try the long distance thing for a while till i get every thing set up in slc and then she might move out there to be with me i never stopped loving that girl and she sais she never stopped loving me we only broke up cuz i was on the meth pretty bad back then and i would not stop even for her so i kinda hope that works out

so every thing here in ohio has fallen to shit but all is well i moving to Utah on the 15th thats a crazy story i just found out my dad isnt really dead after 20 years and he owns a sandblasting company and he wants to retire and give it to me in a few years and i also found out i have 2 sisters one is 21 and one is 16 the seem pretty cool so its time for me to live ohio but i get to go to a new place and meet new people and girls

this is how she makes me feel i love my megan

Once I had a heart of stone

For it had surely lost its home

It could not love, nor wanted to

But in my life then came you.

The stones begwn to fall away

as happiness began to fill my day

A feeling so sweet and special too

could this be love I pray is true.

My heart now sings a song of love

for I know that it was sent from above

my heart is warm there is no cold

hard no more, but with wings of gold.

It soars above the sky so high

sometimes I think of why and cry

my heart now sings a loving song for

the part of me I thought was gone.

The gift that you have givin me

is so important, cant you see

No more sadness, or being alone

for now my heart returns to home.