it's been buried so deep
insomniac tendencies ruin my sleep
afraid to think afraid to blink
eyes wide shut
eyes wide shut
opened to the closed vision i shun
is this enough to still have fun
i hold a knife in my hand and continue to run
tripping and falling now i'm finally done
was it worth it
digging so deep just to unearth it
it's in my hands old and dirty
staring into the eyes of the beast and it still hurts me
can i ever escape
will i ever escape
running hiding slowly dying
trying to find her she's gone
trying to kill her she's wrong
listen to this song
a series of words breathing and living
but me i'm dead and roaming
lifeless hopeless i couldn't show this
to my loved one
the one who loved some
but never enough
i can't hold on to fate if fate won't grab my hand
spiraling down random spurts of life crash land
can't get up won't get up
shut the fuck up
we've come so far why not just die
we have done nothing maybe that's why
we can try and live a little longer
sing a song while i feed my hunger
have i finally gone under
maybe this is my path
a distorted perception undone by the math
numbers and figures
fingers numb on the triggers
waiting too long for a savior
restless behavior acting out because we're scared
acting out because we're scared
insomniac tendencies ruin my sleep
afraid to think afraid to blink
eyes wide shut
eyes wide shut
opened to the closed vision i shun
is this enough to still have fun
i hold a knife in my hand and continue to run
tripping and falling now i'm finally done
was it worth it
digging so deep just to unearth it
it's in my hands old and dirty
staring into the eyes of the beast and it still hurts me
can i ever escape
will i ever escape
running hiding slowly dying
trying to find her she's gone
trying to kill her she's wrong
listen to this song
a series of words breathing and living
but me i'm dead and roaming
lifeless hopeless i couldn't show this
to my loved one
the one who loved some
but never enough
i can't hold on to fate if fate won't grab my hand
spiraling down random spurts of life crash land
can't get up won't get up
shut the fuck up
we've come so far why not just die
we have done nothing maybe that's why
we can try and live a little longer
sing a song while i feed my hunger
have i finally gone under
maybe this is my path
a distorted perception undone by the math
numbers and figures
fingers numb on the triggers
waiting too long for a savior
restless behavior acting out because we're scared
acting out because we're scared
it's just i can't remember
the last time i felt so cold
my semi beating heart keeping my life on hold
shivering because i should
numb fingers, frost bitten toes, arms stiff as wood
i know that winter isn't my biggest foe
this tundra esque landscape seems unable to grow
a single plant a small piece of green
im dead on the outside and barely pumping inward if you know what i mean
i've tried everything
frozen tracks of previous joys
broken pieces of childhood, half burried toys
a puff here and there
a bong rip to mend the tear
it finally became clear as the sun rose from the grey
yellow and blue took all my words away
utterly speechless when chapped lips embrace
finally thawed as i kiss your face
you fix my tears and kiss my fears
finally i feel the warmth
i can't remember the last time i felt this warm
the last time i felt so cold
my semi beating heart keeping my life on hold
shivering because i should
numb fingers, frost bitten toes, arms stiff as wood
i know that winter isn't my biggest foe
this tundra esque landscape seems unable to grow
a single plant a small piece of green
im dead on the outside and barely pumping inward if you know what i mean
i've tried everything
frozen tracks of previous joys
broken pieces of childhood, half burried toys
a puff here and there
a bong rip to mend the tear
it finally became clear as the sun rose from the grey
yellow and blue took all my words away
utterly speechless when chapped lips embrace
finally thawed as i kiss your face
you fix my tears and kiss my fears
finally i feel the warmth
i can't remember the last time i felt this warm
