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MARCH 29, 2004 @ 05:55 PM


I have the coughs hardcore and I feel like death right now. I feel really... young. I want to be older, I want to be in love. I want fucking... AHH I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND NOT MAKE SENSE AND NOT CARE because I'm sick of feeling so fucking stupid. I hate how I don't know how to talk about how I feel anymore because I never KNOW how I feel and my brain is so fucking fried it's not even funny. But now I'm too fucking stupid to think of stopping with all the drugs because they're all that makes me happy anymore. I want to be loved to badly it hurts... I won't ever know what that feels like because I'm starting to think I'm not even worth that. I wish I was a virgin, I wish I was worthy of an amazing guy's love but I feel like nothing right now. I can't believe that I can't even say what I'm really thinking, I've written all of this and haven't accomplished SHIT. Fuck, don't waste your time trying to cheer me up. You won't say the right thing because you can't read my mind and I'll just fucking complain because I suck. Wow... I sound like a fucking 12 year old.
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SignalNoise

SignalNoise

USA
February 2004

MAR 29, 2004 06:10 PM

*just slides over the plate of cookies and nods, ready to listen*

smile

Calypso1

Calypso1

I'm lost
February 2004

MAR 29, 2004 06:49 PM

your poor angry teenager........................welcome to life, A BIG PILE OF SHIT, that we did not ask for, but we make the best of it. here is what you can say.............LIFE SUCKS!!!, but we go on.

[Edited on Mar 29, 2004 6:51PM]

PanxRomana

PanxRomana

Chicago, IL
October 2003

MAR 29, 2004 08:02 PM

I am not trying to say anything.

But when people are upset, I usually do a little monkey dance, and they forget about all their worries.

ooo aaa ooo aaa ooo aaa ooo aaa
Dance Monkey!!!!

I want to im you, but I feel as though you have enough retards trying to chat you up, so I never bother. I dunno...

Anyways. Don't foget about the monkey dance!!

greyandblack

greyandblack

Indianapolis, IN
February 2004

MAR 29, 2004 11:55 PM

12 year old's don't cuss that much. eeek I won't try to cheer you up but I do hope you get everything you want in the future.

About a week ago I went to Marsh for a late night frozen pizza run(DiGiorno) about 4:00 in the morning and I saw a worker with a face like MASK not The Mask with Jim Carrey But Mask with Eric Stoltz and Cher. I swear I almost lost my appetite but then I thought about it, damn this cat has to go through life looking like this and he's doing it, what a tough SOB. So take it anyway u want comical or inspirational either way u go at least your not ugly. smile

Bet on Black wink

SignalNoise

SignalNoise

USA
February 2004

MAR 30, 2004 07:00 AM

chocolate chip all the way.

and oreos.

wink

Adrenalynne

adrenalynne

Vancouver, BC
September 2003

MAR 30, 2004 09:53 AM

ugh. i hear you on the death thing. no fun.

MikeZoolander

MikeZoolander

Deerfield Beach, FL
January 2004

MAR 30, 2004 11:09 AM

I tend to be in loved with the loved all the time....go figure ARRR!!!

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